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Monday, August 1, 2016

Alpha Girl Wolfling #1 By Kate Bloomfield

Alpha Girl Wolfling #1 By Kate Bloomfield
 2 3 A Note from the Author Thank you for your interest in Alpha Girl. Please be aware that this novel is not intended for audiences younger than 15 years of age. This novel contains material that may be offensive to some readers, such as scenes of a sexual nature, and coarse language. Alpha Girl pushes the boundaries and explores a controversial relationship between a student and a teacher. Please do not read this book if you are easily offended. Reader discretion is advised. Thank you. Regards, Kate Bloomfield 4 5 This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are products of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual events or locales or persons, living or dead, is entirely coincidental. 6 7 Chapter One My parents would describe me as a happy child: playful and energetic like most children. I had friends, was invited to parties, and I did well in school. Overall, I was a pleasant person to be around. That was, however, until something terrible happened to me that changed my life forever. It all started when I was nine years old and I was attacked while hiking in the woods with my parents. No one knew what it was at the time but it left deep scratch wounds in my left thigh, and teeth marks over my ribs. After the attack I was considered a strange child. I barely spoke, and was disinterested in other people and their lives. I felt disconnected from the world like I didn’t belong. Perhaps I was crazy. Soon I noticed animals behaving strangely around me, as though they were frightened. Even our dog Rocky wouldn’t come near me after the attack. It was as if he could sense that I was damaged on the inside; scarred internally. This was when my family started to fall apart. These days my parents are far too busy with their own lives to pay much attention to what I get up to. They’re either working, or having affairs. Perhaps the stress of my attack was too much for them, and they began to drift apart. I barely talk to them anymore. Once a month, if I’m lucky. You see, after my attack, I became a sickly child. Every month, without fail, I would be bedridden for a couple of days at a time. Because of this my schoolwork suffered. 8 Oh, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Rose Goldman and I am seventeen years old. I live in a small town called Halfway, which is popular with tourists for the great hiking and fishing spots nearby; things I have no interest in. Not anymore, anyway. Halfway was named so because it is exactly halfway between destinations; that little blip on the map where you stop to fill your car with gas, go for a hike, or have a picnic, but never stay too long. My mother works in pharmaceuticals, an extremely boring career which I have no desire to join. My father has an equally tedious job as a project manager for a local building company. Over the years I have become better at talking to people, and interacting with other students. I am still considered strange by my classmates, but at least there are a few girls who allow me to sit with them during the lunch hour. I’ve become very good at hiding my oddness. I suppose the real story begins on the first day of the new school year. 9 Tuesday - 21 days to go ‘Hey Rose,’ my ‘friend’ Sadie said, sitting adjacent to me. ‘Hi,’ I responded, without looking up from my book. I was a big reader. Books allowed me to escape from the hell that was my life. ‘Amy said we’ve got a new English teacher,’ said Sadie, pulling out her pencil case and placing it on the desk. I groaned. Having a new teacher meant the class would be rowdy and intolerable. It was a right of passage. Students would act up until the teacher had earned enough reputation points to control the students. It was a bit like jail in a way. The longer you’re teaching at the school, the more respected you are. This new teacher was going to have a very hard time controlling a group of seventeen year olds. The new teacher entered the classroom at that moment and turned to the board. Instantly, an amazing smell reached my nostrils. It was sweet like cinnamon, yet musky. Perhaps it was his cologne. No one ceased talking as he wrote his name in large white letters; everyone continued as they were, sitting on desks, laughing and chatting. I didn’t even bother looking up from the book I was reading. ‘Good morning everyone!’ he called over the chatter. No one paid him any attention. I felt sorry for him, but continued reading my book anyway. 10 ‘Can everyone take their seats please?’ he tried. No one moved. If anything, the volume of chatter increased. Crack! Everyone jumped a foot in the air as the new teacher slammed his ruler across the desk. We all stared, wide eyed. ‘Now that I have your attention,’ he smiled politely, ‘would you please take your seats?’ Every student did as they were told, throwing the teacher dark looks. ‘Welcome! My name is Mr. Stone. Not Mr. Stoner, or any other nickname you come up with, all right?’ Mr. Stone looked to be in his late twenties, or perhaps his early thirties, with a dusting of grey in his brown hair, as though years of hard work and stress had aged him prematurely. His eyes were a deep forest green, accompanied by crow’s feet, which wrinkled as he beamed at the class. He wore a tweed suit that was a little too short around the cuffs, like it was tailored for someone other than him. It looked like the sort of thing you picked up at a thrift-store. ‘Now, it’s my first time at this school, so I’m hoping we can lay off the practical jokes, okay? Why don’t we start by taking roll call? When I call your name, why don’t you each stand up and tell me a little something about yourselves, okay?’ There was authority in his voice, but his expression remained cheery. Everyone looked at each other nervously. Mr. Stone smiled and consulted the roster on his desk. ‘All right … let’s see who is first. Blacklock, Maria?’ A girl stood up and said in a small voice, ‘Um, hi. My name is Maria and I play the clarinet.’ 11 ‘Great, thanks Maria,’ said Mr. Stone, checking off her name. ‘Next is Deveraux, Sadie.’ My friend Sadie stood up and flicked her long, blonde hair over her shoulder. She gave Mr. Stone a dazzling smile as she said. ‘Hello Mr. Stone, my name is Sadie, and I am a Leo, which means I’m a little bit feisty.’ I felt embarrassed for Sadie as she sat back down. Next was Aaron Ford, then Emily Gaul. ‘Rose Goldman,’ said Mr. Stone, my name rolling off his tongue like velvet. I stood up. I wanted to say something memorable, but nothing had come to mind. ‘My name is Rose,’ I said, staring at Mr. Stone, who blinked politely back. I found it strange that he made eye contact with me. No one usually did. ‘And I-’ One of the ‘popular’ boys in my class coughed loudly, the words ‘wet dog’ clearly audible. It wasn’t the first time I’d been called it. I had been about to say I like to read. Instead I said; ‘And no one likes me.’ Everyone in the classroom laughed, as I sat back down, unabashed. Mr. Stone stared at me with his eyebrows raised. ‘Well I’m sure I’ll like you just fine, Rose.’ Several people sniggered. Once the roster had been called, Mr. Stone began to hand out the semester’s literature; a book called The Colour Purple. When he reached me, Mr. Stone placed the book on my desk and lingered for a moment, staring at the novel I’d been reading; Memoirs of a Woman of Pleasure. ‘An interesting choice,’ he said, pointing to my book. ‘Are you enjoying it?’ 12 ‘Yes, it’s very sexy,’ I replied, without looking up. ‘You know it was banned in the U.S for a long time?’ ‘One-hundred-and-fifty-two years,’ I said. ‘Between eighteen-twenty-one and nineteen-seventy-two.’ ‘Right.’ Mr. Stone grinned. ‘You did your research.’ Of course I had. I was obsessed with my books. I ignored Mr. Stone, and he moved along without another word. ‘Oh my goodness,’ said Sadie during the lunch break. ‘How good is Mr. Stone?’ Another ‘friend’ Sarah, checked her timetable. ‘Oh, I haven’t got him until tomorrow.’ ‘Sarah,’ said Sadie, through a mouthful of food. ‘He is gorgeous.’ ‘Ew, Sadie, he’s old,’ said Maria. Sadie rolled her eyes. ‘He only looks about thirty.’ ‘Yeah, that’s twelve years older than you,’ said Maria. Sarah raised her eyebrows and looked at me. ‘Is he good looking, Rose?’ I shrugged, noncommittally. ‘He’s okay.’ I didn’t find anyone attractive, really. That evening I walked home from school, as usual. The driveway was not empty when I arrived, which was unusual as my parents shouldn’t be home from work for another two hours. Two cars were parked in the driveway; my mother’s, and a stranger’s. ‘Hey Mom,’ I said, as I entered through the front door. ‘You’re home early.’ My mother was in the kitchen pouring a glass of wine. ‘Oh, hey sweetie.’ ‘Isn’t it a little early to start drinking?’ I asked. At that moment I heard the toilet flush down the hall, and a strange man stepped into the kitchen a moment later. 13 ‘Oh, Rose. This is Mr. Jenson, from the office. We’re going to be doing some work from home this evening.’ Liar, I thought. It would be another hour and a half before my father came home. ‘Hello,’ I said, my eyes darting between them. I was used to strange men coming into our home. ‘Hello, Rose, is it? Your mother has told me so much about you,’ said Mr. Jenson. He didn’t meet my eyes when he spoke. Like many others, he found it difficult to look at me. ‘Has she?’ I asked. ‘Like what?’ ‘She’s told me what a bright girl you are.’ He looked at my mother as he spoke. ‘She lied,’ I said, my expression impassive. ‘How was school?’ asked my mother, clearly trying to diffuse the situation. ‘Average,’ I replied. ‘We have a new English teacher. Sadie thinks he’s hot.’ My mother scoffed. ‘Perhaps I’ll have to go to the student-teacher meetings this year then.’ I shifted uncomfortably, eager to go to my room and leave my mother with her colleague. ‘Well, I think I might go to my room and read for a while.’ ‘All right, sweetheart,’ she said, glancing at Mr. Jenson. Once I was locked in my bedroom I flopped onto the bed and pulled a book from under my pillow. It was my escape. I needed to be somewhere else. 14 Chapter Two Wednesday – 20 days to go ‘The Colour Purple is a novel made up of letters, written by the protagonist Celie, to God. Now, in the first letter we learn that Celie was raped by her father, and -’ ‘Sick bastard,’ someone muttered. There was a collection of chuckles throughout the class. Mr. Stone chose to ignore the comment, and continued with his summary. ‘Her father tells Celie that she is forbidden to speak of the encounters, so she writes these letters to God. Can anyone tell me why?’ We’d read the book in class over the last week, and were now diving into analysis of its content. Regardless, no one seemed able to answer the question. ‘Anyone?’ Mr. Stone pressed. Everyone bowed their heads, not wanting to be called upon. ‘Aaron, what do you think?’ said Mr. Stone, perching himself on his desk at the front of the class. ‘Erm,’ Aaron Ford frowned and seemed to be concentrating hard. ‘Well … if she didn’t write the letters, then there wouldn’t be a book, would there?’ Mr. Stone couldn’t help but smile; a wide, broad, pearly-white smile that reached his eyes. ‘True, I guess,’ he said, ‘but God, in this novel, represents an abstract, authoritative figure for Celie to confess to. We see her idea of God evolve throughout the narrative. Right?’ 15 No one said anything. I shifted uncomfortably, and Mr. Stone’s eyes snapped to me. ‘Rose,’ he said suddenly, making me jolt. ‘How do you think Celie’s perception of God changes?’ ‘Um … For Celie, God moves from being an abstract idea … to being within herself.’ I said. ‘Right,’ said Mr. Stone, smiling at me. Thankfully, I was not called upon for the rest of the lesson, but we were given an assignment that day which was to be turned in within a week. The class found this outrageous, but Mr. Stone shouted down their protests. As I was leaving the classroom, Mr. Stone gave me a tiny wink, which was enough to turn my cheeks a deep shade of red. Okay, so maybe Mr. Stone was good looking. Fair enough. I was able to appreciate male beauty without being attracted to someone. However, it seemed most of the girls at school had a crush on the teacher. They giggled as he walked past, or hassled him while he was on playground duty. Sadie was one of the sad girls who followed him around like a lost puppy dog. It was as if he was a school-celebrity. I, on the other hand, was highly unpopular. The only people who didn’t tease me were the group of girls that allowed me to sit with them at lunch. Everyone else teased me because of my messy hair, and awkward nature. They called me ‘wet dog’. Some people would even bark at me. I’d learnt to ignore it. I wasn’t a particularly gifted student. On rare occasions I would receive an A, but mostly my grades were average, at best. I was terrible at math, often getting C’s and D’s. 16 English was by far my best subject as I devoured books. I had a part-time job at a local coffee shop as a barista, working two nights a week. It was shit pay, and shit hours, but it was pocket money. With it, I was able to afford the small necessities of life. Not to mention the ten dollars my Mom gave me each week for various chores around the house. Sometimes she’d give me extra money for keeping quiet about her male visitors. All of this money went towards the car I was saving up for. I already had my driver’s permit, but no vehicle. With any luck, I’d be able to afford a car by the time I finished high school. My parents would rather jump off a cliff than let me borrow their car. I had a shift that evening, from four o’clock to eight, so I would walk there straight after school and change once I arrived. I was an hour into my shift when the bell on the door clanged loudly, signaling the arrival of another customer. It was a quiet evening, and I was working with my manager, a young woman in her early twenties with bubble-gum pink hair by the name of Estelle. ‘Hello Sir, what can I get you today?’ Estelle asked the customer. The customer walked towards the counter, and a familiar smell reached my nostrils. Usually, the coffee beans overpowered everything, but this scent was so strong it was almost intoxicating. ‘Can I please have a medium gluten-free skim latte to go, please?’ My attention snapped to the customer. It was exactly what I usually ordered. When I saw who it was, I dropped the cloth I was holding. 17 ‘Mr. Stone!’ I gasped, stooping to pick it up. Now I knew why the scent had been familiar. It was Mr. Stone’s unusual cologne. ‘Ah, hello Rose,’ he said as he pulled out his wallet. ‘I didn’t realize you worked here.’ Mr. Stone handed a bill to Estelle, which she took, giving him the exact change a moment later. ‘Uh, yeah,’ I said, my cheeks turning pink. ‘Two nights a week.’ ‘That’s great.’ ‘Funny … about your order,’ I said, grabbing a medium cup. ‘Is it?’ he said, thrusting the wallet back into his pocket. ‘Yeah, well … it’s what I usually have. It’s not a common order.’ Mr. Stone shot me that wide, dazzling smile. ‘Well … Let’s see how well you can make a coffee, then.’ I’d never taken such care with a coffee before. Once the order was complete I placed it on the counter with a shaking hand. I wasn’t sure why, but I wanted Mr. Stone to like it. He picked up the cup and brought the coffee to his lips, taking a sip. He smiled, licking the droplet of liquid that lingered on his bottom lip. I couldn’t help but stare. ‘Fantastic,’ he smiled. ‘One of the best I’ve had.’ ‘Really? I asked, clutching the cloth in my left hand. His approval was strangely gratifying. Mr. Stone smiled warmly and took another sip. ‘I may be back, Miss Goldman.’ I smiled. ‘I’d like that.’ Mr. Stone swallowed and held the coffee up. ‘Thanks, Rose. I’ll see you later, okay?’ And just like that he left the coffee shop without another word. 18 Estelle stood by my side, watching Mr. Stone get into his car and drive away. Estelle was probably one of the few people I tolerated. She taught me that it didn’t matter what anyone thought of me, as long as I was true to myself. She’d been terribly bullied in school because of her brightly colored hair and piercings. Her uniqueness was on-purpose though. I, on the other hand, had no choice. The rest of my shift passed without incident, and I left the café at eight o’clock on the dot, stepping out into the street-lamp lit pathway. I walked everywhere, as my house wasn’t far from the school, or the coffee shop. It would only take me ten minutes. 19 Monday – 15 days to go The following week I handed in my assignment on The Colour Purple, and was eager to find out my results. I’d tried really hard on the essay, only to be disappointed. When Mr. Stone handed back the assignment a week later, my face fell as I stared at the C+ on the top of the page. I’d been so sure that I’d get a B+ at least. Angry with myself, I stuffed the essay into my bag. ‘How’d you do?’ hissed Sadie, leaning over to me. ‘Okay,’ I mumbled. Sadie waved her essay in front of my face. ‘I got a B plus,’ she said. ‘I guess Mr. Stone is a tough grader.’ ‘You did better than me,’ I said sourly. I remained in a foul mood for the remainder of the lesson. My shift that evening was a dull one. We hadn’t seen a customer all evening. It was so quiet that my manager Estelle left me the keys and went home early, asking me to lock up. It wasn’t the first time this had happened. I’d closed the café many times before now. I spent the evening cleaning, and daydreaming. That was, until Mr. Stone arrived at the café at a quarter to eight, fifteen minutes before closing time. He wore the same, quirky attire as usual; mismatching shirt and pants that cut off at the ankles, and an old blazer. I could see his navy socks and lace-up boat shoes. ‘I’m not too late, am I?’ he asked, stepping into the shop. I stood up abruptly, wiping my hands on my apron. 20 ‘Uh, no, of course not,’ I said. ‘Gluten-free skim latte?’ ‘Yes, please.’ Mr. Stone put his hands into his pockets while I worked on his order, pacing the shop. When it was done, I slid it across the counter towards him. He pulled out his wallet, but I shook my head. ‘On the house,’ I said. Mr. Stone stopped rifling through his wallet and glanced up at me. ‘What?’ ‘No charge,’ I said. He stared at the coffee. ‘I have to pay,’ he said. I shook my head. ‘It’s fine.’ ‘No,’ he smiled politely and handed me a twentydollar bill. ‘I have to pay.’ I frowned and snatched the twenty-dollars from his hand, before thrusting the change back at him. ‘There,’ I said. ‘Are you all right?’ he asked, staring. I chewed on the inside of my lip, biting back the question I wanted to ask, but it spilled from me like molten lava. ‘Why did you give me such a shit grade?’ I asked. Mr. Stone blinked as if he didn’t understand the question. ‘I gave you the grade you deserved for the paper,’ he replied. ‘I think I deserved better,’ I said. I wasn’t sure why I’d taken it to heart. ‘I think you could do better,’ he replied, picking up the coffee. ‘Your information was correct, but your writing was disconnected to the feelings and thoughts of the characters in the novel. You lacked empathy.’ ‘Empathy?’ I repeated. ‘Is that it?’ 21 I was not good at understanding people and their emotions. Sometimes I felt like an entirely different species. ‘Goodnight, Rose.’ He turned on his heel and walked from the café, glancing back at me as he stepped onto the pavement. 22 Tuesday – 14 days to go ‘I’d like a thousand word report on why the rebellion was futile,’ Mr. Stone told our class the next day. The class erupted into protest. ‘But Sir!’ ‘We just finished the last essay!’ Mr. Stone held up a hand to silence the class, which surprisingly, worked. ‘I know, I know,’ he said with a smile. ‘I’m horrible. I understand, but you’ll thank me for it later, I promise. Now, I’d like you to devise a modern-day equivalent of the situation depicted and work it into the essay.’ I was still unexplainably annoyed about my last English grade. Until now, it had always been my best subject. ‘Why are you in such a foul mood?’ Sadie asked that afternoon. ‘I mean … fouler than usual.’ We were walking home together, but would go our different ways towards the end of the journey. I shrugged, not wanting to talk about it. I just wanted to get home. ‘I can’t wait to get home and start that essay,’ said Sadie. I’d always been better at English than her, but suddenly she had over taken me. ‘Why?’ I asked. Apparently people like it when you asked about things. ‘I love Mr. Stone’s class,’ she said with a sigh. ‘He’s so great.’ I clenched my jaw. ‘I don’t see it,’ I muttered. 23 ‘Are you joking? Everyone loves him.’ ‘He’s over rated,’ I decided, quickening my pace. Sadie dropped the topic after that. I wasn’t sure why I was so bitter about Mr. Stone’s class. He was polite, and charming, but so damn harsh when it came to teaching. I couldn’t help but want him to like me, though. After my usual afternoon routine I decided to make a start on the homework that had built up over the past week. I’d start with Mr. Stone’s essay. I was determined to get a B, at least. I wouldn’t settle for anything less. I spent hours on the work, starting, and restarting the essay. Soon, my bin was filled with scrunched up bits of paper. I couldn’t get it right. But then, suddenly, miraculously … an idea formed in my head. It was crazy … but I was going to do it, and Mr. Stone wouldn’t like it. 24 Chapter Three Tuesday – 7 days to go ‘When I call your name, please bring your paper to the front of the class,’ said Mr. Stone, pulling out the roster. ‘Maria.’ Maria jumped up from her seat and handed her homework to Mr. Stone, who checked her name off the list. ‘Sadie. Aaron. Emily.’ They each took their assignment to the front of the class and placed it on top of the pile. ‘Rose.’ I didn’t move. Instead, I crossed my arms and legs and stared at Mr. Stone. It took him a few moments to notice that I hadn’t done as instructed. ‘Rose,’ he repeated, looking up at me. All eyes turned in my direction. ‘Rose,’ Sadie hissed. ‘Take your essay to him.’ I smiled and stared at Mr. Stone. ‘I didn’t do the assignment,’ I said. Everyone was silent. ‘You didn’t do it?’ he asked. I shook my head. ‘I chose not to.’ Mr. Stone raised his eyebrows and interlocked his fingers. ‘You chose not to do it?’ ‘That’s right.’ Mr. Stone pursed his lips, seemingly unimpressed. ‘Suit yourself. You’ll see me after class.’ Pleased with myself, a leaned back in my chair, a smug expression on my face. 25 ‘What’s gotten into you?’ Sadie whispered to me as Mr. Stone continued collecting the other essays. ‘You’ll get detention.’ I smiled at her. ‘I don’t think I will.’ At the end of the lesson, the bell rang and the students filed out. I remained sitting in my seat until the last of them had left. Mr. Stone did not look up from his desk. Instead, he ignored me for a full minute. ‘Come here,’ he said, stacking the papers on his desk, still avoiding eye contact. I stood and picked up my bag, walking to his desk and sitting in the chair opposite. ‘Rose, you realize I’m going to have to give you a zero for this assignment?’ he asked, glancing up at me. He seemed surprised to see that I was grinning. ‘What’s so funny?’ ‘I chose not to do the assignment, Mr. Stone,’ I said, slowly and clearly. ‘Yes, you told me that,’ he said, disapprovingly. I couldn’t stand the way his emerald eyes bore into mine. He needed to understand why I hadn’t done the essay. ‘In the text, they rebel against the government, but their attempts are futile.’ ‘Yes, I know the text well,’ said Mr. Stone, crossing his arms. ‘For our assignment you wanted us to show you a modern day example of why rebellion doesn’t work. So-’ ‘You chose not to do the assignment,’ he finished my sentence, understanding in his tone. I nodded and prepared for the explosion that would follow. To my surprise, Mr. Stone’s face broke into a wide grin, his eyes sparkling. 26 ‘So, you see-’ I began to explain, but he held up a hand to silence me. ‘Oh, I understand,’ he said. ‘You’re very clever.’ I raised my eyebrows, shocked by his praise. ‘If I give you a zero-’ he began slowly. ‘-You’ll prove my point,’ I finished. ‘My rebellion will have been in vain, just like in the prose you assigned.’ Mr. Stone sat back in his chair and observed me, lacing his fingers behind his head. He watched me, a slight smile on his face. ‘Clever girl,’ he smirked. ‘Very brave.’ My chest felt tight at his approval. ‘So,’ I said slowly. ‘What are you going to do?’ Mr. Stone leaned forwards and scrutinized me. ‘I’ll forgive you just this one time,’ he said. ‘But don’t tell anyone, okay?’ ‘Because you know I’m right,’ I said. He laughed, his eyes creasing at the sides. ‘You’ve outwitted me,’ he admitted. ‘I’ll tell everyone you gave me detention.’ Mr. Stone laughed, and waved a hand at me. ‘Get out of here.’ I grabbed my bag and scampered from the room, my spirits high. Sadie was waiting for me in the corridor. ‘Did you get a zero?’ she asked at once. I shook my head. ‘Nope.’ ‘Detention?’ ‘Something like that,’ I said happily. I left it at that, pulling out my lunch and sitting amongst the other females within my group of ‘friends’. 27 Wednesday – 6 days to go I slept badly the night before, and was sad that I didn’t have English class today. I did, however, have my shift at the café to focus on the next day. Though the ominous clouds overhead indicated that I was going to have a wet walk home. I wasn’t sure why, but I had a sense of heightened anticipation throughout the entire shift, as though I was waiting for Mr. Stone to walk through the doors. Every time the bell clanged, my head snapped up. But I was disappointed each time. Soon, the storm that had been brewing overhead broke open, and it began to rain heavily. The rain pounded the shop-front, scaring away any potential customers that walked by. Estelle sighed and tucked a tendril of her pink hair behind her ear. ‘Well, there goes our business,’ she said. I mumbled in agreement, adjusting the headband that kept my bangs out of my eyes. ‘Maybe we should call it a day,’ she said, straightening up. ‘Oh no,’ I said pleadingly. ‘Don’t cut my shift short, Estelle. I really need the money.’ Estelle sighed and put her hands on her hips. ‘You’re going to be bored out of your mind, kiddo.’ ‘That’s okay,’ I said. ‘You never know, we might get a few people that are caught in the rain.’ ‘Fine, but I’m out of here. Don’t tell the boss, okay?’ I grinned. ‘Sure.’ 28 Estelle threw me the keys and left me in the café, alone. I loved the café at night, especially in a storm. The rain transfixed me as it hit the pavement. An hour passed, and I watched as people ran past the shop, ducking to get out of the rain. Many ran to their cars and hopped inside, driving away. Clang. The door opened just as I began to shut up shop. I’d already counted the till and placed the money in the safe. Not to mention the coffee machine was in pieces, being cleaned. A sopping wet man entered the café, shaking his umbrella in the door. Who else would it be, but Mr. Stone? I think I knew that he would arrive sooner or later. I could smell his cologne on the wind. ‘Hello, Sir,’ I said, watching him shake the water out of his hair. ‘Hello Rose,’ he said, putting his umbrella in the corner. ‘I was just about to close,’ I said, shutting the till and walking around the counter. ‘Damn.’ Mr. Stone placed his hands on his hips. ‘But you make the best coffee around here.’ I smiled a little bit. ‘Sorry.’ ‘Oh well,’ he sighed, picking up the umbrella again. ‘Next time, I guess.’ ‘Right,’ I agreed, sorry that the meeting was being cut so short. Mr. Stone rolled onto the balls of his feet, his lips pursed. ‘All right … well … I’ll see you later, I guess.’ ‘Yeah. See you later,’ I said with a tiny wave. I watched as Mr. Stone opened his umbrella and stepped out into the pouring rain. 29 Ten minutes later and I was closing the shop. Placing the keys in my pocket, I pulled the hood of my jacket over my head, shielding myself against the rain, but I was soaked within minutes. I’d barely walked halfway down the street, when a pair of blaring headlights illuminated the pathway ahead of me. I ignored the car as it pulled up beside me, but jumped violently when a horn sounded. I stared at the driver, slightly offended, but was relieved to see that it was Mr. Stone. ‘Hey!’ he called through the open passenger window. I leaned towards the door. ‘Hey, Mr. Stone.’ He drove an old, beat up Ford Escort. Its red paint was peeling and the seams were rusted. It looked as if it was ready for the junkyard. Everything about Mr. Stone was second-hand. ‘Get in!’ he called over the thundering rain. I shook my head. ‘No, I’ll get the inside of your car all wet!’ ‘Just do it,’ he ordered, reaching across and unlatching the door, letting it swing open. I obliged, jumping into the passenger seat and closing the door quickly so no more water would get into the car. ‘You’re drenched,’ Mr. Stone commented as I began to wind up the window. ‘Sorry,’ I mumbled, removing the sopping Jacket and stuffing it into my bag. ‘Don’t be sorry,’ he laughed. ‘You’re going to catch a cold. Don’t you have anyone to pick you up after work?’ 30 I shrugged. ‘My parents are busy,’ I said as I pulled my brown hair from my face and tied it into a messy bun at the back of my head. Mr. Stone watched me as I did this, his hands on the wheel. We hadn’t moved from the curb since I’d gotten into the car which vibrated rather violently as it idled. I wasn’t sure the car would make it to my house. ‘Where do you live?’ he asked. ‘I’ll take you home.’ ‘It’s only a few blocks from here,’ I said. ‘On Maple Street.’ ‘That’s near me,’ he replied, putting the car into first gear with a loud crunch and pulling away from the curb. We sat in silence as he drove. I watched the windscreen wipers go back and forth, as though they were playing an absurd game of tag. They screeched loudly with each swipe as the perished rubber scraped against the windscreen. I wanted to say something intelligent, but I knew nothing I said would be good enough. ‘It’s interesting what you told me,’ Mr. Stone said suddenly, ‘That first day in class.’ I tried to recall what he was talking about. ‘What?’ He frowned as he drove, glancing sideways at me. ‘You said that no one likes you.’ ‘So?’ ‘Well that doesn’t seem true.’ ‘It is. Everyone thinks I’m a freak.’ ‘I’ve seen you sitting with that group of girls at lunch time.’ ‘They tolerate me,’ I said. ‘But they don’t actually like me.’ ‘Why not?’ ‘Maybe I smell bad.’ I’d been accused of smelling like wet dog before, but I was extremely hygienic. 31 Mr. Stone sniffed the air mockingly. ‘You don’t smell bad,’ he reassured me. I wanted to tell him that he smelled amazing, but thought it would be inappropriate. ‘You seem to have quite a sense of humor. After that, and the essay-’ ‘I wasn’t trying to be funny,’ I replied, shifting uncomfortably. My work shirt was soaked through, and clinging to my body like plastic-wrap. Mr. Stone glanced at me, but quickly focused on the road ahead. It was a wonder he could see at all; the rain was so heavy, it was like a grey veil had been placed over the windshield. ‘I think you’re an intelligent girl,’ he said after a minute. ‘You just seem distracted most of the time.’ I didn’t respond. I just sat there, with my hands curled in my lap. ‘Is this your road?’ he asked, turning onto Maple Street. ‘Yes, number eleven.’ Mr. Stone pulled up in front of my house and peered through the window. The lights were off, and the house was dark. ‘Is anyone home?’ he asked, checking the time on his dashboard, which read eight-fifteen. ‘Probably not,’ I said. ‘But I have keys.’ It seemed he wanted to say something else, but he kept his mouth shut. I sat there for a few seconds as the awkward silence stretched onwards. ‘Well, thanks for the lift Mr. Stone.’ ‘See you at school, Rose.’ I got out of the car and slammed it behind myself, running up the driveway without glancing back at Mr. Stone’s car. Once inside, I hurried to the window and peered through the curtains, watching him drive away, until his headlights vanished down the street. 32 I had been correct in my assumption; no one was home. Just the way I liked it. Just the way I was used to it. 33 Chapter Four Sunday – 2 days to go After the attack, I never cried. Nor did I play with the other children. I was absorbed in my own world, contained entirely within my head. I didn’t need to interact with others to have fun. Apparently I was unnerving; I’d sit perfectly still, my eyes glazed over. My parents had even taken me to a psychologist to find out if there was something wrong with me mentally. The shrink decided that I was perfectly fine - to an extent. Of course, my parents knew that I was not normal. So I often hid my daydreaming, and only did it when I was alone. However, I slipped up quite often, especially during class. I wasn’t sure if I was imagining things, but I always felt as though Mr. Stone’s eyes were upon me whenever my attention was focused elsewhere during class. I’d look up in the hopes of catching him, but was always disappointed. Soon, I was looking forward to his classes; looking forward to seeing him. Mr. Stone was delightful, and was the first person I’d ever actually liked. 34 Monday – 1 day to go I was sick again. It had been twenty-eight days since my last ‘episode’. ‘That time of the month’ my mother referred to it, but the sickness had nothing to do with my period. I broke into cold sweats, and shook violently. I’d vomit until my stomach was empty, and I wouldn’t be able to eat at all. This was the only time my parents were around to take care of me. It got worse at night. I’d scream and thrash, completely delusional with fever. The first time this happened I was nine, and my parents took me to the hospital. It hadn’t been long since I’d left after my attack. The doctors said my temperature was a record high; I should have been dead, or at least brain-dead. I had no diagnosis and they expected me to die within the hour. They advised my parents to take me home and make sure I was comfortable, which they did. What a load of shit. I experience this living hell every single month, and it doesn’t get any easier. Luckily for me the worst of it only it lasts between fourteen to eighteen hours, though I can feel the effects beginning a day before, and it usually takes another full day for me to recover. I would be forced to miss three days of school, and two shifts at the café. My teachers were used to my absence. At first they’d assumed I was bunking-off, but a letter from my parents quickly set things straight. 35 Tuesday – 0 days to go ‘Mom, it’s starting,’ I croaked. ‘It’s all right sweetheart. ‘It’ll be over before you know it.’ She held my hair back while I vomited into a bucket, splashing chunks everywhere. ‘Make it stop,’ I begged in between heaves. ‘I wish I could sweetie.’ Sweat drenched my brow, and my clothes clung to my body. I felt cold, but my temperature was well over one-hundred-and-six degrees. I shook violently as my mother stroked my hair. ‘Stop fucking touching me,’ I snapped at her. She was used to my foul mouth when it came to ‘my time of the month’. ‘Come on sweetie, it’s time to take you downstairs.’ She was right. I couldn’t hold on much longer. My father carried me into the basement where we had a makeshift room for this specific occasion. The room had been made soundproof, reinforced with steel and a heavy door when I was a child and the sickness began. ‘Mom, I’m cold.’ My teeth chattered as my Dad placed me on the steel-framed bed. The time was getting closer. I could feel my skin prickling and I knew the worst was about to come. ‘You have to do it now, Mom,’ I wheezed. 36 ‘Let’s get these on you then,’ said my mother, taking my hand. She secured the restraints around my wrists and tightened them so I could not get free. My father secured my ankles. Soon, I was strapped down to the bed, unable to move in any direction. ‘Wh-what’s the time?’ I asked. My mother checked her watch. ‘A few minutes before sundown.’ ‘It’s starting,’ I said through gritted teeth. My parents didn’t need telling twice. They left the basement so they didn’t have to witness the worst of my affliction. 37 Monday – 23 days to go The following week I eagerly awaited my shift at the café, in the hopes that Mr. Stone would turn up. When it came close to closing time, I always offered to stay back and clean up to Estelle’s delight. Mr. Stone arrived late, as usual. ‘Am I too late again?’ he asked, stepping through the door. ‘No,’ I shook my head and walked around the counter with a coffee in my hand. ‘I already made you one.’ Mr. Stone raised his eyebrows as he took the cup. ‘You made this for me?’ I shrugged. ‘How’d you know I was coming?’ he asked. ‘I was hoping.’ He scrutinized me for a moment, before smirking. ‘Ah. You made it for yourself, didn’t you? We have the same coffee.’ ‘Nope.’ I held up a second cup. ‘This is mine.’ ‘Oh.’ Mr. Stone glanced at his cup before looking around. ‘So, are you finished for the night?’ I walked past Mr. Stone and flipped the sign on the door so it read ‘closed’ from the outside. ‘Now I am,’ I said with a smile. He smiled and shifted a little awkwardly, the cup of coffee held loosely in his hand. I moved across the café and sat in one of the booths, sipping my drink. ‘Aren’t you going to join me?’ I asked. 38 Mr. Stone looked out of the café window at the dark street outside. ‘Uh … I thought your shift was over. Aren’t you going to close up?’ ‘I can have a coffee if I like,’ I said. ‘Why don’t you join me?’ He stood in the middle of the room for several seconds deciding what to do. He must have decided that coffee with his student wasn’t so bad, because he sat opposite me a moment later. I held my coffee tightly in my hands and stared at Mr. Stone as he sipped his rather nervously. He sat hunched over with his elbows on the table, his eyes darting outside as though he feared we were being watched. ‘What’s the matter?’ I asked. ‘Nothing,’ he said a little too quickly. ‘I just … it’s strange sitting in here alone.’ ‘With me?’ I asked. He threw me a glance. ‘Well, some people might get the wrong idea.’ ‘It’s only coffee,’ I said. He exhaled loudly, his shoulders loosening up. ‘You’re right.’ As he drank his coffee I observed what he was wearing today. It was no different to the usual. He wore a tweed jacket with leather elbow patches. It was a little too big for him. The shirt underneath had an ugly paisley pattern on it. I did not hide my gaze as I looked around the table to see his pants, which were a type of brown velvet. He wore the same lace-up boat shoes as usual, this time with no socks. ‘What?’ he said a little embarrassed as I scrutinized his attire. 39 ‘You dress so strange,’ I said, leaning back against the booth and observing him. He smiled and sipped his coffee. ‘Do I?’ ‘Yeah … it’s eccentric. Like a mad professor.’ Mr. Stone chuckled, his emerald eyes twinkling, reflecting the streetlights outside. ‘Don’t you like the way I dress?’ I frowned, considering it for a moment. I liked it very much, indeed. ‘I think it suits you,’ I said. ‘Would you like to know a secret?’ he asked, leaning forwards. ‘I’m not good at keeping secrets,’ I replied. Mr. Stone raised an eyebrow, his expression unreadable. ‘I do all my shopping at the thrift-store.’ I feigned a look of shock. ‘Really? I would never have guessed.’ He laughed. ‘All right, no need to get smart.’ Perhaps Mr. Stone is poor, I thought. After all, he was a little rough around the edges, not to mention his car was about to fall apart. It would be rude to ask though. ‘I promise not to tell a soul,’ I said, tracing an ‘X’ over my heart. Mr. Stone rolled his eyes and drained the rest of his cup. ‘So, um … sorry that I missed two of your classes last week.’ Mr. Stone placed his empty cup on the table. ‘Did you?’ he asked. That hurt. ‘You didn’t notice?’ ‘I had a couple of days off last week,’ he admitted. ‘Is everything okay?’ I asked. He waved a hand. ‘Just the common cold,’ he said. ‘I’m afraid it defeated me.’ ‘Yeah, me too,’ I lied. ‘Must be going around.’ 40 Mr. Stone gave me a strained smile. ‘So have you always lived in Halfway?’ I nodded. ‘Born and raised. What about you?’ ‘I was born here, but moved away when I was eighteen to go to college,’ he said, leaning on the table and looking out of the window. ‘Why’d you come back?’ I asked. ‘Do you wish I hadn’t?’ He smirked. The corner of my mouth twitched as I tried to hide my smile. ‘After I graduated from college I got a job at a high school in the city, where I taught for six years,’ he said. ‘I liked it there.’ ‘So why’d you leave?’ ‘I got sick,’ he said simply, ‘during a visit with my parents here in Halfway. They thought I was going to die.’ This story sounded all too familiar to me. ‘After I got better they asked me to stay in Halfway. I guess they were scared of losing me.’ ‘Understandable,’ I said. ‘But I ended up losing them,’ he said stiffly. ‘They both died a month after I returned.’ ‘I’m sorry.’ ‘It’s fine. They were getting on in age, I suppose.’ Something told me that Mr. Stone did not want to talk about this. ‘But that was five years ago,’ he said. ‘Five years ago?’ I repeated. ‘Did you teach at all during that time?’ Mr. Stone shook his head. ‘Why not?’ I asked. ‘What did you do for five years?’ Mr. Stone shifted uncomfortably. ‘It’s … late.’ ‘What? It’s only eight-thirty.’ 41 ‘I’ve got a lot of homework to grade,’ he said. ‘What do I owe you for the coffee?’ ‘Nothing,’ I said. ‘I’ve already emptied the till.’ He sighed and slid out of the booth. ‘Next time, then.’ I wasn’t sure why I was so crestfallen at the prospect of him leaving. Mr. Stone fastened a button on his jacket, seemingly stalling for time. ‘Would you like a ride home?’ he asked. My heart shot into my throat. ‘But … it’s not raining.’ Mr. Stone buried his hands in his pockets and rocked on the balls of his feet. ‘It’s dangerous at night. You can never be too careful.’ I stood up too and slung my bag over my shoulder. ‘All right, then.’ We exited the shop together, and he watched as I turned out the lights and locked the door. We walked to his car, and to my surprise he opened the passenger door for me. It took several attempts for the car to start, with Mr. Stone muttering apologies under his breath as he turned the key in the ignition. ‘Did you get this at the thrift-store, too?’ I asked, trying not to smile. He ignored my jibe, and exhaled with relief as the car roared to life. ‘Yes, good girl,’ he said, patting the dashboard. 42 We pulled away from the coffee shop and drove along the darkened streets. I didn’t say anything for most of the way. Mr. Stone had the radio turned right down so the classical music was almost indistinguishable, but still he drummed his fingers on the steering wheel and hummed to himself. It was as if he was from another time. I’d never met anyone like him. Classical music, old clothing, and a beat-up car; something told me that Mr. Stone was not like other men. Being so close to him, I could smell his cologne. I inhaled deeply, the scent calming me. ‘What is that cologne you’re wearing?’ I asked, suddenly. Mr. Stone’s grip tightened on the steering wheel. ‘I’m not wearing any cologne,’ he said. ‘Why? Do I smell bad?’ ‘No,’ I said. ‘You smell good.’ ‘Really?’ I nodded. I watched as he drove past my turn-off, and didn’t say anything. He took the long route to my house, through the backstreets. I didn’t mind; I felt safe. Maybe he was lonely, or perhaps he’d just forgotten the way. Regardless, I didn’t direct him. ‘Are you married?’ I asked after a long silence. ‘No,’ he replied stiffly. ‘Have you ever been?’ He took longer to answer this time. ‘I was engaged once.’ ‘What happened?’ His jaw tensed. ‘It’s not important.’ ‘Did it end after you got sick?’ I asked. He ignored me and I dropped the subject after that. 43 When we finally pulled up in front of my home, the house was dark once more. He didn’t ask about it this time. Instead, he looked straight ahead, unblinking. We hadn’t spoken for the last ten minutes. ‘Thanks for the lift,’ I said, clutching my bag in my lap. I reached for the door handle and let myself out of the car. ‘Goodnight,’ he said. Once I’d closed the door behind myself I leaned into the window. ‘I work Monday and Wednesday nights,’ I said quickly. ‘If you ever want to talk.’ Mr. Stone stared at me, his eyes darting across my face. I wasn’t sure why I had said that so I turned on my heel and quickly marched away from his car, towards my front door. Mr. Stone had already driven away by the time I’d reached for my keys. 44 Chapter Five Tuesday – 22 days to go I had to attend mandatory counseling at school once a month. My teachers seemed to think I was depressed and would do myself harm. I wasn’t sad; I was empty. I barely spoke during the sessions with the counselor, Mrs. Harvey. She was a hundred-and-eight year old moth, with enormous spectacles, and smelled of cabbage and cats. However, if I didn’t go a note was sent home to my parents. I didn’t see why they forced me; I wasn’t a threat to the other students. Not while I was healthy, anyway. I took days off school when I was … sick. I knocked on the counselor’s door on Tuesday evening, hearing shuffling on the other side. A moment later Mrs. Harvey answered the door, squinting at me through her bottle-glass spectacles. ‘Ah, Miss Roland, welcome.’ ‘It’s Goldman,’ I corrected her, stepping inside the office. ‘Yes, that’s what I said.’ I sat down in my usual chair and waited for Mrs. Harvey to take her seat, which took a while, as she didn’t walk very fast. ‘So how are you then, Miss Goldman?’ Mrs. Harvey asked, lowering herself slowly into her chair. ‘Fine,’ I said. ‘How is your school work going?’ ‘Fine.’ 45 ‘Excellent. I noticed you had a few days off school the other week. Are you feeling better now?’ ‘Yes.’ Mrs. Harvey chewed on the inside of her cheek. ‘Mmmh … I see. How are your parents?’ I shifted uncomfortably. ‘Fine, I guess.’ ‘You guess?’ ‘I don’t know.’ ‘Why not?’ I shrugged. ‘They work.’ ‘You don’t talk to them after work?’ she asked. ‘Sometimes,’ I said. ‘All right. What about your friends? Boyfriends?’ I folded my arms across my chest. ‘I don’t have a boyfriend.’ ‘No one takes your fancy?’ she asked. I thought about Mr. Stone and electricity shot through my body, making me jerk. This did not go unnoticed by Mrs. Harvey. She smiled, showing her pearly-white dentures. ‘I’ll take that as a yes.’ ‘You can take it any way you like, Mrs. Harvey.’ ‘Rose, I know you try to make yourself emotionally unavailable because you are afraid of getting hurt-’ ‘That’s not right at all,’ I interrupted. ‘Isn’t it?’ Mrs. Harvey asked. ‘Then why do you refuse to open yourself up to friendships and relationships?’ ‘I’m not worried about getting hurt,’ I said. ‘I’m worried about hurting others.’ Mrs. Harvey peered at me over her spectacles. ‘Do you sometimes imagine yourself hurting others?’ I sighed exasperatedly. ‘No, nothing like that.’ ‘Then what?’ ‘I’m tired of this conversation,’ I said. ‘I think I’ll go.’ 46 One thing I noticed about Mr. Stone was that he always wore the same lace-up boat shoes. They were worn, and the canvas was frayed so I decided to buy him a new pair. I wandered through many shops along the main street of town, but nothing seemed very ‘him’. Finally, I came across a thrift-store I’d never entered before. My mother and father did not like to shop in places like these because they considered themselves above it. I loved it. I walked straight to the shoe-section and looked for something that screamed Mr. Stone. There wasn’t a lot of variety. Most of the shoes were of the cowboy variety. If not that, then worn joggers that smelled funny. Then I saw them, a pair of classic English shoes made of brown leather. They looked like something an old professor might wear, and they looked almost brand new. A bit of a polish and they’d shine up nicely. They looked to be the right size too. I grabbed them and checked the sole for a price tag. Five dollars. I quickly purchased the shoes. 47 Thursday – 20 days to go I decided to hang back after English class to give Mr. Stone the shoes that had been stuffed inside my backpack. I packed my things more slowly than the rest of the class, until it was only Mr. Stone and I in the classroom. He was dusting off today’s lesson from the blackboard, so he had his back to me. ‘Hey,’ I said, slinging my bag over my shoulder and weaving through the desks until I reached him. Mr. Stone looked over his shoulder as he put the duster down, his mouth curling into a smile as he realized who had spoken. ‘Hello, Rose,’ he said, wiping his hands on his wornout jeans, leaving dusty handprints on the thighs. ‘What can I do for you?’ ‘I wanted to talk to you,’ I said, perching myself on the edge of his desk and crossing my legs. Mr. Stone’s eyes traveled along my calves before snapping to my face, his expression guilty. ‘About the lesson?’ he asked, a little too quickly. ‘No,’ I smiled, opening my backpack and digging around. I pulled out the thrift-store plastic bag containing the shoes and handed it to Mr. Stone. ‘What’s this?’ he asked, holding the bag. ‘Open it,’ I prompted. Mr. Stone untied the handles of the bag and peered inside. ‘Shoes?’ he asked, looking up at me. ‘For you,’ I nodded. 48 He pulled them out of the bag and inspected them. ‘You got these for me?’ I smiled. ‘You always wear the same shoes, and I saw these and thought they would suit you.’ ‘They’re really nice,’ he said, touching the leather. ‘Probably a bad thing.’ ‘Why?’ I asked. ‘I can’t have nice things,’ he smirked. ‘They don’t last long.’ I rolled my eyes. ‘Just try them on, will you?’ Mr. Stone looked troubled. ‘Rose … I can’t accept gifts from students.’ ‘But I’m not just any student, right?’ I gave him a smile, which Mr. Stone returned. ‘No,’ he said slowly. ‘It can be our little secret,’ I said. ‘I promise I won’t tell anyone.’ Mr. Stone grinned and sat down in his chair, before pulling off his shoes and slipping on the brown leather loafers. ‘Do they fit?’ I asked at once. ‘Yes, they do,’ he said, standing up and taking a few steps in them. ‘Do you like them?’ I pressed. He looked down at his feet. ‘I do.’ My chest swelled with pride. ‘I thought they were very you.’ ‘Do I look like a mad professor now?’ he asked, smirking. ‘You did, anyway,’ I laughed. ‘I hope you didn’t spend much on them, Rose. They look a little expensive.’ ‘I spent a fortune,’ I lied. ‘A whole five dollars at the thrift-store.’ 49 Mr. Stone threw his head back and laughed. ‘You can find some amazing things at the thrift shop.’ ‘You’re telling me. I bought an entire wardrobe for twenty dollars.’ He smiled warmly. ‘Thank you very much, Rose.’ ‘You’re welcome.’ ‘Now, get out of here and go to lunch.’ I grinned. ‘See you at the café on Monday?’ I asked. I smiled guiltily. ‘It’s a date.’ 50 Monday – 16 days to go The shop was busy and we had extra staff working that evening. Estelle said something about an event in town, so it seemed we were getting a little extra business. I was happy when the café was filled with customers; it meant the shift passed quickly. At six o’clock Sadie Deveraux entered the café, grinning widely at me. ‘Hey Rose,’ she said, bouncing towards the counter. ‘Hey,’ I replied. I didn’t have much time to chat as I was currently working on several coffees at once. ‘It’s busy in here for a change,’ she noted, looking around. ‘Yeah.’ I wiped my brow with the back of my hand. ‘Did you want a coffee?’ ‘A hot chocolate, please. I don’t drink coffee.’ I added Sadie’s order to the list and gave it to her on the house. Estelle wouldn’t mind; it was only a few cents worth of ingredients. ‘What brings you here anyway?’ I asked her. ‘There was a show on in town,’ said Sadie. ‘Aaron Ford asked me to go with him.’ ‘Aaron asked you?’ I raised an eyebrow. ‘I didn’t know you two were so close.’ Sadie rolled her eyes. ‘We’re not, but I took pity on him.’ 51 Sadie was an average looking blonde girl who was quite popular with the boys at school. However, I believed this was only because she’d developed rather large breasts at an early age. At only eighteen years old, she already wore a D cup bra. She didn’t tried to hide it either, often wearing low cut tops. I, on the other hand, was average. Not big, not small. I didn’t mind. Clang. Another customer entered the shop. I looked up, hoping to see Mr. Stone, but of course it wasn’t him. I’d been getting my hopes up all evening. My disappointment must have shown. ‘Are you waiting for someone?’ Sadie asked, looking over her shoulder at the door. ‘No.’ I shook my head quickly. ‘Well, I’d better get going,’ she said, checking her phone. Clang. I looked up and my heart jumped into my throat. Mr. Stone. I was about to say ‘hello’ to him, but Sadie beat me to it. ‘Mr. Stone!’ she waved frantically. ‘Hey!’ Mr. Stone’s eyes fell on me first, but then slid to Sadie. ‘Ah, hello Sadie. How are you?’ ‘Great!’ she beamed, clutching her hot chocolate with both hands. Sadie watched as Mr. Stone ordered his coffee with Estelle. ‘Can I please have a medium gluten free skim latte please?’ ‘Hey, that’s really weird,’ she said, standing next to him. ‘That’s the exact same thing that Rose gets.’ ‘Is it?’ Mr. Stone pulled a crisp bill out of his wallet and passed it to Estelle. He knew perfectly well that it was. Sadie nodded. ‘Yeah. How weird. I don’t drink coffee though.’ 52 ‘I thought you were leaving?’ I asked Sadie as I began to make Mr. Stone’s coffee. I hoped she would leave. She shot me a furious look. ‘No, I was just about to have a seat,’ she said. ‘Would you like to join me, Mr. Stone?’ He glanced at me before looking at Sadie. ‘Um … I was just about to be on my way, actually.’ ‘Oh, don’t be silly!’ Sadie rested her hand on Mr. Stone’s arm. ‘Sit with me!’ I slid Mr. Stone’s coffee along the counter to him, my jaw set tight. My eyes darted between the two of them, waiting for his response. He gave me one last glance before nodding at Sadie. ‘Sure.’ My skin prickled with jealousy as I watched Sadie and Mr. Stone share a booth, sipping their drinks. Sadie laughed and toyed with her hair as she chatted away happily. He listened, smiling politely, but I caught him glancing towards me a couple of times. They talked for over half an hour, long after their beverages had been consumed. I was too busy to eavesdrop on what they talked about. Eventually, the shop became quiet, until it was only Estelle, Sadie, Mr. Stone and a few other lingering people in the café. ‘Well, I’d better get going,’ I overheard him say to Sadie. ‘Lots of essays to grade, after all.’ She looked visibly crestfallen. ‘Oh, all right. Um. Can I get a lift home, Mr. Stone?’ He paused, halfway through buttoning up his blazer. ‘What?’ ‘It’s getting dark,’ said Sadie, pointing outside. ‘And I’d have to walk home.’ ‘I’m not sure that-’ he began, but Sadie interrupted. 53 ‘Please? It’s dangerous at night.’ Sadie used the same excuse that Mr. Stone had to take me home. His jaw tensed, and I saw a vein throb in his temple. ‘All right, sure.’ I watched as they left together, and Mr. Stone glanced back at me before leading Sadie to his car that was parked on the street. He didn’t open the passenger door for her like he had for me. At least that was something. I burned with jealousy as I watched him drive her away. It made me dizzy to see it. ‘Rose?’ Estelle waved a hand in front of me. ‘Rose, I need a caramel latte.’ ‘Oh, right. Yeah, sorry.’ I shook my head and focused on work once more. I couldn’t help but feel that Sadie had stolen my time with Mr. Stone. My time. The thought rang in my head like bells. Had I really become so possessive over a man I barely knew? Not to mention he was a teacher! What had got into me? 54 Friday – 12 days to go My homework had built up over the last few days, and I was very behind in everything. I knew Maria, a ‘friend’ in many of my classes stayed in the library after school hours to study, so she asked if I wanted to join her. I agreed, as I didn’t have work that afternoon. It was terribly boring. We sat in silence, scribbling away. She helped me with a few of the questions. Maria was a straight ‘A’ student. ‘What a way to spend a Friday afternoon,’ I grumbled. ‘Have you spoken to Sadie recently?’ Maria asked, flipping through her math book. ‘No.’ Honestly, I’d been avoiding her for the last few days. I was mad at her, but she wasn’t to know that. ‘She’s been telling everyone that Mr. Stone gave her a ride home on Monday.’ My grip tightened around my pen. ‘Oh.’ ‘She said he couldn’t stop staring at her tits.’ ‘She’s lying,’ I said at once. ‘How do you know?’ asked Maria. ‘C’mon,’ I rolled my eyes. ‘You know Sadie. She’s always flaunting them. It’s hard to not look at them.’ Maria smiled sheepishly. ‘You’re right, I guess. I hope she doesn’t do anything stupid.’ ‘What do you mean?’ I asked, putting my pen down. Maria shrugged. ‘You know what she’s like. If she wants something, she gets it.’ This annoyed me greatly. ‘Well Mr. Stone isn’t an idiot. I bet he can see right through her.’ 55 Maria shrugged. Clearly she wasn’t as interested in the topic of Mr. Stone as I was. ‘I have to go,’ said Maria, stacking her books. ‘I have clarinet practice in half an hour.’ ‘Oh, all right. Thanks for your help,’ I said, remaining in my seat. I watched as Maria stuffed her textbooks into her bag before slinging it over her shoulder. ‘See you later Rose. Bye Mrs. Finnick,’ she added to the librarian, a sweet old lady in her sixties. So I was left in the library. Slowly, the other students began to pack up and leave until there were only a few stragglers left. ‘The library will be closing in ten minutes, dear,’ said Mrs. Finnick, bustling past with an arm full of books. ‘Okay,’ I said. There was no more I could do. I began to pack up my things, stuffing my pen and whiteout into my pencil case. Now it was only myself and the librarian left, but she was currently out of sight, stacking books upon shelves. I could hear her feet shuffling along the carpet somewhere at the back of the library. The doors opened, and Mr. Stone entered with a book in his hands. I watched him as he placed it into the ‘returns’ chute at the front desk. I wanted to call out to him, but I was still embarrassed about our last encounter. He must have felt my eyes upon him because his gaze suddenly slid towards me. The grin that broke across his face was heart melting. He was usually smiling but this was different; he looked genuinely pleased to see me. He crossed the library, walking towards the desk I was sitting at. ‘Catching up on homework?’ he asked. 56 I nodded, swallowing hard, as if something was stuck in my throat, preventing me from talking. ‘What are you working on?’ he asked. I looked down at the textbook that was sprawled in front of me. ‘Math,’ I said. ‘Ah. I’m afraid I can’t help you there,’ he smiled. ‘Math was never my strong suit.’ ‘Me either,’ I sighed, leaning back in my chair. ‘I’m terrible at it.’ ‘I’m sure you’re not that bad,’ he said, leaning on the back of a chair. I rifled through my papers, pulling out my most recent math test. I handed it to him and he looked down at the grade written in big red letters. ‘D minus,’ he read. ‘Okay, so maybe you are terrible at it.’ I laughed. ‘It just doesn’t stick with me,’ I admitted. ‘Maybe if you didn’t daydream so much,’ he said, handing the test back to me. ‘I don’t daydream,’ I lied. He cocked an eyebrow, his expression sardonic. ‘You get this glazed look over your eyes all the time. Sometimes I worry you’re having a stroke.’ I rolled my eyes and continued packing up my books. As I slung the bag over my shoulder, Mr. Stone looked around to make sure we were alone. ‘Can I give you a ride home?’ he asked. My knees felt weak. ‘Are you sure that’s wise?’ ‘Everyone has gone home for the day,’ he replied. ‘I’ll drive around the corner and you can meet me there.’ There was something about his desire for secrecy that made my skin prickle. ‘Okay,’ I agreed. 57 I left the library before Mr. Stone, who exited a few paces behind me. He walked towards the teacher’s car park as I exited through the front gates. 58 Chapter Six As I walked along the school’s road I felt as if I was in a dream, or a visitor in another person’s body. I couldn’t feel my legs as I walked. Perhaps I was floating. I had to check my feet to make sure they weren’t transparent. Mr. Stone’s car rumbled past and turned the corner where I knew he’d be waiting for me. I glanced around; the school’s street was almost deserted. Only a few students lingered out the front of the school but they hadn’t paid me any attention. His car idled beside the curb, and I quickly ran to it, jumping inside and closing the door. I felt as though I was breaking the law, simply by being with him. He pulled away at once and sped down the street a little too fast for my liking. I gripped the door-handle, feeling extremely tense. ‘You took Sadie home on Wednesday,’ I said as we trundled along. ‘I know. I was there,’ he replied. I didn’t smile at his joke. I was jealous, but I didn’t want him to know that. ‘What did she say to you?’ I asked. ‘Nothing important,’ he replied a little too quickly. ‘Yeah right,’ I said, my tone dripping with sarcasm. ‘What was I supposed to do?’ he chuckled. ‘The girl wanted a lift home-’ ‘You could have said no.’ ‘And let her walk home in the dark? Any decent person would have obliged.’ I glared at him, and for the first time since I’d got in the car, he glanced my way. Seeing my expression seemed to slacken his resolve. 59 ‘She talked about class,’ he said finally. ‘And how much she enjoyed the way I taught.’ ‘She likes you,’ I said at once. Mr. Stone shifted uncomfortably, but did not respond. ‘Did she flirt with you?’ I asked. He chewed the inside of his lip. ‘I think so.’ ‘You think so?’ I repeated. ‘I don’t know,’ he said, a little annoyed. ‘I don’t have a manual on the way girls mind’s work.’ ‘Well, what did she do?’ I asked. ‘She kept doing this.’ He indicated to his chest, trying to represent breasts. ‘She kept pulling her top down to reveal more … cleavage.’ I almost laughed at how awkward he was. What grown man couldn’t talk about breasts? ‘She does that,’ I said. ‘She’s very popular with the boys.’ ‘She’s just a girl,’ said Mr. Stone. ‘A child.’ A child. Sadie was two months older than I. Did he think I was a child too? ‘She’s had sex,’ I said. ‘Most girls in my grade have.’ ‘Have you?’ he asked. I stared at him in disbelief. ‘I shouldn’t have asked that,’ he said at once. ‘No,’ I said. ‘I’m sorry.’ ‘No … I mean … I’m a virgin.’ Mr. Stone glanced at me quickly before focusing on the road again. ‘You’re not like the other girls,’ he said. ‘You’re different.’ ‘Am I?’ I asked, my fist curling around my backpack. Why was he torturing me like this? 60 He nodded, and I could see beads of sweat forming on his brow. He was not comfortable with me, or this conversation. He looked like a frightened puppy, trapped in a room with a violent owner. His silence made me feel dizzy. I wanted to reach over and place my hand on his, but I was a coward. I wouldn’t be able to handle his rejection. Before I knew it, we were at my house, and I was disappointed to find that both of my parent’s cars were pulled into the driveway. ‘Looks like someone is home,’ said Mr. Stone, shrinking in his chair. ‘Don’t worry,’ I said. ‘They never pay me much attention.’ ‘You don’t talk about your parents very fondly,’ he said with a frown. I shrugged. ‘They’re … busy.’ Busy cheating on each other, I thought. Mr. Stone leaned across me and opened the glove compartment. I watched as he dug through the assortment of unusual things in there; a bow tie, sunglasses, breath-mints, crumpled receipts, pens, and a notebook. He grabbed the notebook and tore out a page, scribbling something upon it. He handed the page to me and I looked at what he’d written. ‘It’s my cell phone number,’ he said. I stared at the digits as though they were the most valuable things I’d ever seen. ‘If you ever need someone to talk to,’ he said. ‘Thank you.’ I pocketed the paper. ‘I’ll … see you on Monday,’ said Mr. Stone, chewing on his lip. ‘Thanks for the lift,’ I said. ‘Anytime,’ he replied. Be careful, I thought. I may take you up on that offer. 61 I hopped out of the car and gave him a last wave before running up the garden path. When I entered my house I could hear talking coming from the dining room, so I went to find my parents. They were sitting together, which was an unusual sight in itself, and they appeared to be in deep discussion. ‘Hey,’ I said, standing in the doorway, smiling. ‘Oh, hello Rose.’ My mother’s smile was strained. ‘What’s going on?’ I asked, walking over to the dining table and picking an apple out of the fruit bowl. I looked to my father, who I hadn’t spoken to in a few days. He had large bags under his eyes, but he too was smiling. ‘Why don’t you sit down?’ said my father, pointing to an empty chair. ‘Your mother and I would like to talk to you.’ I froze with the apple halfway to my mouth. ‘What have I done?’ ‘Nothing,’ my mother reassured me. ‘Sit.’ I did as I was told and slid into the vacant seat, looking between my parents. ‘There’s something your mother and I would like to discuss with you, Rose,’ said my father, interlacing his fingers upon the tabletop. ‘What?’ I looked at him. ‘Has someone died?’ ‘No, it’s nothing like that,’ said my father. ‘It’s difficult to say, so I’ll just come right out with it.’ He took a deep breath before continuing. ‘You probably saw this coming, but your mother and I have decided that it is best if we go our separate ways from now on. Of course, this doesn’t mean we love you any less, but it will affect your living arrangements from here on in.’ I stared at my father, before looking at my mother. 62 ‘You’re getting a divorce?’ I asked her. ‘You seem surprised, dear,’ said my mother. I wasn’t shocked, not really. I knew they’d both engaged in affairs right from the beginning of their marriage. I’d just assumed neither cared. ‘When did you decide this?’ I asked. ‘We decided it a couple of months ago,’ my father admitted. ‘Months?’ I repeated. ‘It took you this long to tell me?’ My father leaned back in his chair. ‘We needed to sort through some things before everything was made final. I’ve spent the last few weeks meeting with real estate agents, and looking for somewhere to live.’ ‘You’re moving out?’ I asked. ‘But … this is your house too.’ ‘We are going to sell this house, Rose,’ said my mother. ‘And split everything between us.’ ‘But that means I have to move too,’ I said, becoming panicked. ‘I don’t want to move.’ ‘Don’t jump to conclusions, Rose,’ said my father. ‘Your mother has decided to move into a two-bedroom apartment closer to work as she is happy with her job in the city.’ My mother’s office was a forty-five minute drive away from our current home. ‘Into the city?’ My mouth hung open in disbelief. The joys of my ride home with Mr. Stone were completely wiped from my mind. ‘I, on the other hand will be moving out of state to take a promotion I’ve been offered,’ my father finished. ‘Out of state?’ They both nodded in unison. 63 ‘We feel you are old enough to make your own decisions, Rose,’ my father continued. ‘I know it’s hard with your … um … illness, but we want to make the transition as easy as possible for you. So it’s up to you where you live. Of course, you can visit the other parent on weekends-’ ‘But I want to live here, in this town,’ I said tapping my finger on the tabletop. ‘I have a part-time job, and friends at school-’ ‘We understand that it’s inconvenient,’ said my mother. ‘But as you know your … condition has put a lot of strain on our marriage, and we feel it’s for the best.’ ‘So it’s my fault?’ I asked. ‘No, sweetheart. It’s not your fault. You know that.’ ‘If I could get better, I would,’ I said angrily. ‘You think I like this? You think I … I like what I become?’ ‘No, of course not,’ my mother said quickly. ‘But maybe it will be easier for us to handle your condition if your father and I take it in turns to-’ ‘No!’ I said, standing up, tears stinging my eyes. ‘I want to stay here!’ I didn’t give my parents a chance to respond. I stormed from the room and marched down the hallway towards my bedroom where I slammed the door angrily several times. Tears now streaming down my face, I flopped face-first into my pillow and sobbed for a good half-an-hour. I wasn’t crying because my family was being torn apart, I was crying because I was going to be uprooted from my hometown, just when things seemed to be getting better. I cried for several hours, until my eyes were red and puffy. Eventually, I fell asleep. 64 Chapter Seven Saturday – 11 days to go When I awoke in the early hours of Saturday morning I was confused as to why I was still wearing shoes, and clothes. It took several minutes of the previous evening to return to my memory. Bleary eyed, I dug around in my pockets for my cellphone, to check the time. Instead my hand closed around the piece of paper Mr. Stone had given me the previous evening. I unfolded it and stared at the digits. I didn’t hesitate. I found my phone and instantly saved his number to my contact list under ‘S’ for Stone. Would he mind if I called him? After all, he’d said I could if I needed to talk. But was it too soon? I stared at his name on my phone for several minutes before deciding against it. It was nine o’clock in the morning, so I got up and poured myself some cereal in the kitchen. My father’s car was gone, which meant my mother was still home, as they rarely went anywhere together anymore. I was right; I heard the toilet flush and my mother emerged wearing only her silk dressing gown. ‘Morning sweetheart,’ she said, running a hand through her disheveled hair. I ignored her and stuffed a spoonful of cereal into my mouth, leaning against the kitchen counter. ‘I’m sorry about last night,’ she continued, standing a few feet away from me. I paused halfway through another mouthful. ‘You’re sorry?’ I asked, disbelievingly. ‘Yes, of course.’ 65 ‘That’s all you have to say to me?’ I said with raised eyebrows. ‘What do you want me to say, Rose? You know we haven’t been happy for a long while.’ ‘Since my attack,’ I interrupted. My mother pursed her lips. ‘Don’t make this about you,’ she said. ‘I didn’t,’ I said. ‘You did.’ ‘Rose, your father and I wish to go our separate ways. Lots of couples get divorced, it’s not uncommon. These things happen.’ ‘I don’t want to leave Halfway,’ I said. ‘It’s safe here. It’s quiet.’ ‘You’ll be safe in the city with me,’ said my mother. ‘I’ll take care of your condition.’ ‘Like you took care of me when I was twelve? That day you and dad stayed out the whole night and forgot that I was sick?’ She didn’t like it when I talked about that. They’d apologized countless times for their carelessness. But I couldn’t forget. I’d woken up in the woods, only twelve years old, completely naked with no recollection of the night before. My fever had taken me during the night. ‘I’ll never let that happen again,’ my mother said. ‘You can’t promise that,’ I said. ‘All you think about is yourself.’ ‘One time!’ she yelled angrily. ‘I wasn’t there one time!’ ‘That’s all it takes,’ I said, my nostrils flaring angrily. ‘One mistake. I will not move to the city. There are too many people. Too much going on-’ ‘Fine,’ my mother snapped. ‘Stay here then. See if I care.’ And with that she stormed from the room. 66 ‘Oh, really mature!’ I yelled after her. ‘Just walk away.’ It was Saturday, and as usual I had no plans. No one ever asked to see me. I was surprised, however, when Estelle sent me a text-message that morning. Party tonight, kiddo. I’ll pick you up at eight. Estelle was probably the only person I could tolerate, but I still couldn’t imagine myself hanging out with her away from work, let alone at a party. I sent a polite message back. Uh, not really my thing, Estelle. Thanks, though. After that, I went for a quick shower, got dressed, and plaited my hair. Checking my phone, I found that Estelle had left me another text I wasn’t asking. See you at eight. Would she really show up without warning? Not only that but Estelle was a lot older than me, and was sure to attend a party full of adults, with alcohol. I bit down on my lip and thought carefully about it. After the argument with my mother I was feeling rebellious; she’d never allow me to go to an adult’s party with alcohol, but at that moment I didn’t care. Fuck it, I thought. I’m going. Perhaps the worry would snap my parents to their senses. See you at eight, I sent back to Estelle. Dress older, Estelle replied. 67 I was a ball of nerves by seven thirty. I did not do well in crowds, and had a tendency to be rude, or dislike almost everyone I met. I was not a social person. I was a different species. My parents weren’t aware that I was going out; I’d been hiding in my room for the last hour while I got ready. What did girls wear to parties? I never wore makeup; I didn’t see the point, but I knew people liked to dress up when they attended these things. Being a bit of a tomboy, my wardrobe was limited to t-shirts and jeans. However, I was a similar size to my mother so I decided to scour her wardrobe while she was in the living room. I rifled through her dresses, which were plenty, until I came across one that wasn’t too revealing. It was red and stopped just above the knees. The neckline wasn’t too low-cut, and the sleeves came to the elbows. I refused point-blank to show my legs so I thieved a pair of black stockings and stuffed them into my pocket. I didn’t own any cosmetics, so I also stole some foundation, mascara, and eyeliner. Feeling bold, I also took a stick of red lipstick. By eight o’clock I was ready, and extremely selfconscious. I felt ridiculous wearing the red dress and red lipstick. I’d attempted to do my hair, but it was so unruly, I left it as a wavy, disheveled mess. At five past eight a horn sounded in the street, and I knew it was Estelle waiting for me. I took a deep breath and left my bedroom, clutching a tiny handbag my mother had bought me on a previous birthday. 68 I slipped out of my bedroom, and could hear the television blaring in the sitting room. I crept down the hallway with my shoes in my hand; they had a slight heel, and I didn’t want to be heard as I walked across the floorboards. To my surprise I reached the front door successfully and was able to pry it open without any noise. Once outside I ran down the garden path to meet Estelle in her violently purple car. ‘Woah!’ Estelle looked me up and down as I jumped into the passenger seat. ‘What?’ I said a little defensively as put on the shoes I’d been carrying. ‘You look hot,’ she said approvingly. ‘Red suits you.’ ‘Uh … thanks,’ I said, tucking my hair behind my ears. ‘Do I look older?’ I asked. ‘At least eighteen,’ she said with a wink. ‘So, um, where is this party?’ ‘It’s at a friends house,’ said Estelle, putting her car into gear and pulling away from my house. I was extremely nervous. ‘I’ve never been to a party before.’ ‘Never?’ Estelle asked, raising one of her penciled eyebrows. ‘Well, once when I was ten, I went to a party at chuck-e-cheese because my mother made me. It didn’t go so well.’ ‘Hon, that’s not a real party.’ I shrugged. ‘It’s something.’ Estelle laughed. ‘I can tell you don’t go out much. That’s why I decided to bring you along.’ ‘Are you sure it’s okay that I attend?’ ‘Yeah! There will be heaps of cool people there.’ 69 ‘I’ll be younger than everyone,’ I said. Estelle was twenty-five, so I assumed her friends would be a similar age. Estelle laughed. ‘Maybe in physical years, but not mentality.’ ‘What’s that supposed to mean?’ I asked. ‘You don’t act like a normal seventeen year old girl,’ she said, glancing sideways at me. ‘And my friends certainly don’t act their age.’ ‘Don’t leave me alone, okay? I won’t know anyone.’ Estelle gave me a knowing look. ‘I’ll introduce you to everyone.’ ‘You won’t be drinking, right? I’ll be able to get home, won’t I?’ Estelle nodded. ‘I don’t drink and drive, sweetheart.’ Relieved, I leaned back in the passenger seat and allowed myself to be taken to the party. When we arrived I knew at once that it was a bad idea. The music was loud, and many people were on the front porch, drinking and smoking. The smell of marijuana reached my nostrils; I recognized the smell from the girl’s bathroom at school. Sadie had been caught smoking it before. ‘Maybe this isn’t a good idea,’ I said, clutching my handbag and staring at the house. Estelle squeezed my knee comfortingly. ‘Trust me, kiddo. Okay? You’re going to have a great time.’ ‘If I don’t … will you take me home?’ ‘I’ll be at your beck and call,’ she promised. I wasn’t used to wearing heels. Even though they were only two inches high, I felt like a Velociraptor. 70 Extremely self-conscious, I followed in Estelle’s shadow as she led me towards the house party. Everyone seemed to know her, and greeted Estelle cheerily. It was a small house with dated furnishings, and a thick cloud of cigarette smoke hung in the air. ‘Hey Estelle!’ A man in his early twenties with tattoos and long, black hair gave her a high-five. ‘Who’s the kid?’ ‘Hey Spider, this is my friend Rose,’ said Estelle, snaking an arm around my waist. ‘A date?’ the man called Spider asked, eyeing me. ‘You wish,’ Estelle sneered at him and steered me away. ‘You stay away from her, okay?’ Spider raised his hands in defeat. ‘As you say.’ Estelle dragged me towards a table laden with beverages where she poured herself a cola. She offered me an alcoholic drink but I refused. ‘Who was that guy?’ I asked. ‘An ex,’ replied Estelle, ‘and a sleaze bag.’ Next, Estelle pulled a packet of cigarettes from her pocket and put it between her lips. ‘Want one?’ she asked, holding out the pack. I stared at the cigarettes for a moment before quickly shaking my head. There was far too much temptation at this party for my liking. What had I got myself into? ‘C’mon, kiddo,’ Estelle said, lighting her cigarette. ‘You’re at a party. Live a little.’ ‘Maybe next time,’ I lied. Estelle shrugged and put the packet back into her pocket before taking a long drag and blowing the smoke out of her nostrils. It was a strange sight with her septum piercing. ‘I’m the youngest person here,’ I said, shifting uncomfortably. 71 ‘I don’t think so,’ said Estelle, peering through the packed house. ‘They look about your age, don’t they?’ I followed her gaze to see where she was pointing, and was shocked to see Sadie sitting on the couch, deep in conversation with a strange male. ‘I know her,’ I said, staring at Sadie. ‘Has she been to the café?’ Estelle asked, blowing smoke out of the corner of her mouth. I nodded. ‘Thought she was familiar. She comes to most parties.’ I watched Sadie as she sipped her drink and accepted a joint from another female. ‘Aren’t you going to say hello?’ asked Estelle. I moved towards Sadie. ‘Rose!’ Sadie gasped, jumping up. ‘What are you doing here?’ To my surprise she looked pleased to see me. Perhaps it was the marijuana. ‘I was invited by Estelle,’ I said, pointing over my shoulder to where Estelle stood at the drinks table. ‘What are you doing here?’ Sadie waved a hand dismissively, which threw her off balance so she was forced to steady herself on the sofa. ‘I get invited to all the parties,’ she told me. It seemed Sadie’s male companion was growing tired of her lack of attention so he wandered off to find another willing female to receive his affections. ‘Looks like you lost your friend,’ I said, nodding after him. ‘That’s okay,’ Sadie said, looking at something over my shoulder. ‘I’ve found someone better.’ And with that she stalked off to pursue another companion. 72 ‘Here,’ Estelle joined me, thrusting a drink into my hand. ‘Drink up.’ ‘What is it?’ I asked. ‘Just cola,’ she promised. It didn’t take long for Estelle to abandon me, leaving me standing alone, and awkward in a corner of the room. Not long after, I was feeling dizzy and ill from all the smoke so I decided to get some fresh air. I sat on a bench in the backyard. Spider, Estelle’s ex-boyfriend made a beeline for me as soon as I sat down. ‘Hello sweetheart,’ he said, smiling and sitting next to me. ‘You feeling all right?’ ‘Yes, it’s just so smoky in there.’ ‘Enjoying yourself?’ He asked, looking me up and down approvingly. His gaze made me feel ill. ‘It’s okay, I guess.’ Spider leaned towards me and inhaled deeply. ‘Do you know where Estelle is?’ I asked, feeling anxious. ‘Estelle? Yeah. She’s over there smoking a joint with my brother.’ Spider pointed through a window into the house where I could clearly see Estelle, drinking and smoking. ‘But you don’t need her. I’ll keep you company.’ Spider put an arm around my shoulders. Panic flared inside me and I jumped up at once. Estelle was under the influence of drugs and alcohol. How was I supposed to get home? I ran into the house and quickly found Estelle in the kitchen where I slapped the joint out of her hand. ‘What are you doing?’ I demanded, grabbing her drink too. ‘Woah,’ Estelle looked at me with extremely bloodshot eyes. ‘What’s the matter?’ 73 ‘You’re supposed to be sober,’ I said angrily. ‘I thought you were going to drive me home!’ ‘I will,’ said Estelle. ‘I’ll be fine to drive.’ ‘Like hell you will,’ I said. ‘Don’t worry, darling. You’ll be fine,’ said Spider, coming up behind me and snaking an arm around my waist. ‘You can crash at my place for the night. I only live around the corner.’ I shrugged out of his grip. ‘No thanks.’ ‘Come on sweetheart,’ Spider crooned, leaning towards me. ‘Back off Spider, she’s only seventeen!’ Estelle snapped. ‘That’s fine. I like a bit of fresh meat-’ I pushed myself away from Estelle and Spider. I needed to find a familiar face. Sadie; she’d look after me. I didn’t get far before Spider cornered me again. ‘Hey, doll. Where are you going?’ he asked, his hands on either side of my head. ‘I-I don’t feel well,’ I said. ‘I might go home.’ ‘Aw, baby. Don’t go. I thought we could get to know each other.’ He leaned towards me and I could smell the smoke on his breath. ‘No,’ I said firmly, pushing against his chest. ‘I don’t want-’ ‘Rose?’ A familiar voice called my name. A hand clamped down on Spider’s shoulder before he kissed me. Spider turned around to see who the intruder was. ‘Wait your turn, mate,’ he said to the unknown interrupter. ‘Step away from the girl, please,’ said the man. That voice. ‘I said wait your turn, buddy.’ 74 Thwack! The stranger punched Spider right on the nose, sending the black haired boy to the floor in a crumpled heap. I yelped with fright and looked up at my savior. ‘Mr. Stone?’ I breathed. It was him. He stood before me, his chest heaving as anger seemed to course through his veins. There could be no mistaking that mismatched attire. ‘Christ, Rose. What are you doing here?’ he asked, staring into my eyes. ‘You … you punched him!’ I gasped, stepping over Spider, who was groaning in pain on the floor. Mr. Stone grabbed me by the arm and began to pull me out of the house. ‘This is no place for you,’ he said. ‘Estelle brought me,’ I said, quickly, tripping over my own feet. The partygoers created a path for us to walk through as we headed for the exit. ‘What were you thinking?’ Mr. Stone snapped. ‘You could have been hurt, or drugged. Or worse-’ ‘I’m sorry,’ I said, unsure as to why I was apologizing. I’d done nothing wrong after all. ‘Thank you, though.’ ‘What for?’ ‘For stopping him. I think he was going to kiss me.’ ‘I expected more from you, Rose.’ ‘Where are we going?’ I asked, hurrying to keep up with him. ‘I’m taking you home,’ he said as we stepped onto the lawn. ‘No!’ I stopped in my tracks, my eyes wide. ‘I can’t go home. Not yet.’ ‘Well you can’t stay here,’ he said. ‘There’s alcohol and drugs everywhere.’ ‘What are you doing here then?’ I asked. 75 Mr. Stone sighed. ‘I live next door, Rose. They invited me so I wouldn’t complain about the noise to the police. You’re lucky I arrived when I did.’ ‘You … you live next door?’ I asked. ‘Can’t we go there?’ Mr. Stone’s spine stiffened and his nostrils flared. ‘That’s not a good idea,’ he said. ‘Why not? Please, Mr. Stone ... I don’t want to go home just yet.’ Mr. Stone licked his lips nervously and glanced around. ‘All right … just for an hour though, okay?’ Mr. Stone took my hand and led me to the left, towards a small house. We crossed over the garden of the party until we were on his property. ‘This is your house?’ I asked, looking at it. It was small, with an overgrown lawn, and a beatup garage, but that was definitely his car in the driveway. We walked up the garden path until we reached his porch. The fly-screen was hanging off its hinges, but the oak door behind it seemed solid. He opened the screen-door and unlocked it before leading me into the house. Mr. Stone’s home was far nicer on the inside. It seemed he had tried to make the best out of a bad situation. There was still no doubt in my mind though that he was not a rich man by any means. ‘Come in here and sit down,’ he said, leading me into the sitting room where he threw his keys and wallet onto the coffee table. I took a seat on the sofa and stared at him. ‘Do you want me to call your parents?’ he asked. ‘No!’ I said at once. ‘No, they don’t know I’m out.’ 76 ‘You went without permission?’ he asked, pinching the bridge of his nose. ‘What if something had happened to you? What am I saying? Something did happen to you. Some long-haired sleaze-ball tried to … to-’ ‘Spider,’ I said. ‘He wanted me to go to his house with him.’ ‘Yeah, I bet he did,’ Mr. Stone growled. I’d never heard him talk like that before. ‘I should march back over there and grab that little shit by the throat-’ ‘Don’t be mad,’ I pleaded, staring at him with wide eyes. Mr. Stone looked distressed, with one hand balled around a tuft of his own hair. ‘What if I hadn’t gone?’ he asked. ‘What would have happened?’ ‘I don’t know,’ I muttered, staring at my knees. ‘How did you plan on getting home?’ he asked. ‘Estelle was supposed to take me.’ ‘That pink haired girl from the café?’ he asked. ‘Yeah,’ I rubbed my arm, feeling foolish. ‘But she ended up drinking and smoking-’ ‘And then what was your plan?’ he said, crossing his arms. I felt like my father was scolding me. ‘I don’t know, all right? I said thank you. What else do you want?’ Mr. Stone’s posture relaxed and he heaved a sigh. ‘I was just worried about you, that’s all.’ I leaned back in the sofa and closed my eyes, breathing deeply. I knew going to this party would be a mistake. This was why I hated going out. ‘Do you want a tea or coffee?’ he asked. ‘A coffee, please,’ I said. ‘I’ve only got instant coffee. Is that okay?’ he asked. ‘That’s fine,’ I said. It was better than nothing. 77 Mr. Stone retreated to the kitchen where I heard the tap running, and a kettle being placed on a stove. My eyes fell to his wallet, which sat on the coffee table in front of me. I quickly glanced over my shoulder to make sure he wasn’t coming back, before reaching over and grabbing it. I flipped the wallet open and rifled through the contents. The first thing I found was his driver’s license. Thomas William Stone. Strange, I’d never known his first name. He’d always been Mr. Stone to me. Seeing his date of birth I was quickly able to calculate his age at thirty-two. ‘Find anything interesting?’ Mr. Stone asked as he re-entered the room. I could hear the kettle still boiling in the kitchen. ‘Sorry,’ I said quickly, throwing the wallet back onto the table. ‘It’s fine,’ he said, picking it up and pocketing it. ‘There’s nothing too revealing in here.’ ‘I didn’t mean to pry,’ I said. ‘I just … I didn’t know your first name.’ ‘Didn’t you?’ he asked. I shook my head. ‘My name is Tom. Pleased to meet you, Rose.’ He held out a hand, which I took. He squeezed my hand gently as he shook it. I couldn’t help but smile. ‘Hi Tom,’ I said. ‘You’re thirty-two?’ ‘Is that old?’ he asked. ‘No,’ I said. ‘It’s fifteen years older than you,’ he replied. ‘Almost twice your age.’ ‘Not forever,’ I said. ‘When you’re forty I’ll be twenty-five.’ 78 ‘You’re making me feel old,’ he said disapprovingly. ‘When you’re fifty, I’ll be thirty-five,’ I continued. ‘Sixty and forty-five. See? It’s not such a big difference.’ ‘It’s big enough. I guess I’ll just have to wait for you to catch up to me,’ he joked. ‘What are you waiting for?’ I asked, leaning forwards. I hadn’t meant for it to sound provocative. I quickly averted my gaze, realizing how inappropriate it had sounded. Mr. Stone perched himself on the edge of the sofa. ‘I don’t think I’ve ever seen you in a dress before.’ I looked down at the red number I was wearing. ‘Yeah … it’s not really me, is it?’ ‘You look very nice,’ he smiled, his eyes crinkling at the sides. I stared at Mr. Stone, my heart as light as a feather. He stared back too, but the kettle whistling noisily interrupted us. ‘That’ll be the water ready,’ he said, jumping up and walking briskly into the kitchen. I waited in the sitting room while he prepared the coffees, bringing me the drink in a chipped Christmas mug. ‘Thanks,’ I said, taking a sip. It was awful, but I drank it anyway. I was too used to the coffee at the café. ‘So why did you go to the party?’ Mr. Stone asked, sitting next to me on the sofa, which sunk and creaked under his weight. ‘I needed to get out of the house,’ I said. ‘Away from my parents.’ ‘Trouble at home?’ he asked. ‘You could say that,’ I replied. ‘I’m here if you need to talk, Rose,’ he offered. 79 ‘Thank you,’ I said, ‘for being with me.’ Mr. Stone looked down at his mug, his expression guilty. ‘Rose … you can’t tell anyone about this, okay?’ I nodded. ‘I know.’ I don’t know what made me do it, but I reached over and placed my hand over his. I waited for him to move away, but he didn’t. Instead, he stared at our hands for a moment before entwining his fingers with mine. My throat felt dry, and my skin prickled with anticipation. I couldn’t believe it. He was holding my hand, his thumb gently caressing my pinkie-finger ever so lightly. I heard him gulp audibly, his Adam’s apple bobbing like a snake swallowing a bird. He was terrified. Stop it, I thought to myself. This is so wrong. Mr. Stone beat me to the punch. ‘I’ll take you home,’ he said, releasing my hand and standing up quickly. I nodded and placed my half-empty mug on the coffee table, slightly disappointed. I didn’t want to leave. ‘Okay,’ I said, also standing. We walked to his car, which was parked in the driveway. I could hear the party next door was still in full swing. On the front porch was Estelle, who spotted me as I opened Mr. Stone’s car door. ‘Rose!’ she said, calling after me. ‘What are you doing? I’ve been looking for you!’ I ignored her and got into the car. ‘Are you all right?’ Mr. Stone asked, sliding into the passenger seat and starting the engine. ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘I don’t think I’ll be attending parties with Estelle any time soon.’ ‘I approve,’ Mr. Stone smiled as he put the car into reverse and backed out of the driveway. 80 ‘Unless you live next door,’ I smiled, giving him a quick sideways glance. Mr. Stone allowed himself a guilty smile before shifting into first gear and rumbling down the road. I watched him as he drove; the streetlamps passed over his face, illuminating every line. He allowed me to watch him throughout the entire journey without saying a word. When we arrived at my house I leaned over and kissed Mr. Stone on the cheek. He bowed his head and stared at the steering wheel. ‘Thanks Tom,’ I said softly before hopping out of the car and tiptoeing towards the house. 81 Chapter Eight Monday – 9 days to go Mr. Stone, no … Thomas, paid me extra attention during the next English lesson. He called upon me to answer almost every question, and praised me excessively when I got it right. I couldn’t help but smile. It felt as if I had a friend for the first time. Each and every time I saw him looking at me, a guilty expression crossed his face, as though he’d been caught doing something embarrassing. I was equally as guilty. While we were meant to be working quietly, I raised my hand to ask for assistance, and Tom knelt by my desk, his body very close to mine. I could feel the electricity passing between us. His hand rested on my desk as he ‘explained’ the latest essay to me. Of course, I understood it perfectly well, and he knew it. It took me all of the courage I could muster to gently touch his hand with my pinkie-finger. I saw goose bumps erupt all over his skin at the feather-light touch. I didn’t move, and the inch of skin remained pressed against Mr. Stone’s hand. It was so subtle, but so erotic I could feel my loins screaming. He was so close I could hear him breathing. The only other sound in the room was the scratching of pens as the other students worked. No one else had noticed his proximity to me as he helped me with the essay. However, I thought I saw Sadie watching me out of the corner of her eye. I was right. Come lunchtime, Sadie cornered me in the playground, a falsely sweet smile on her face. 82 ‘Hey, Rose. I missed you at the party,’ she said. ‘Yeah, I left kind of early,’ I admitted. ‘I know, your pink haired friend was looking for you.’ ‘Yeah … I’ll see her tonight at the café, I guess.’ To be honest, I didn’t really want to see Estelle. I was annoyed at her for drinking when she’d promised not to. However, I was also thankful, as it had given me more time with Thomas. ‘I saw you leave with Mr. Stone,’ said Sadie, watching my reaction carefully. I didn’t give her the satisfaction. I shrugged. ‘Yeah, I was stranded so he offered to take me home.’ ‘How nice of him. You know he’s given me a lift home before too?’ She smiled smugly. My jaw tensed. ‘Yeah … yeah, I know. He’s nice like that, isn’t he?’ Sadie nodded. ‘I’ve got a bit of a crush on him, to be honest.’ Her steel gray eyes darted between my own amber ones, analyzing my expression. I smiled. ‘Yeah, I thought so.’ ‘What do you think I should do to get him to notice me?’ Sadie asked, sitting down on the bench and patting the space next to her. I sat down awkwardly. ‘Erm, I don’t know, Sadie. I’ve never had a boyfriend, remember?’ Sadie rolled her eyes. ‘Come on, Rose. Help me out here. You’re smart, like him.’ ‘He’s a teacher … you shouldn’t pursue it,’ I said cautiously. Sadie waved a hand as if it didn’t matter. ‘Oh, don’t be silly. No one will find out.’ I licked my lips and shifted nervously. ‘I don’t think Mr. Stone would fall victim to your … uh-’ I couldn’t find the right word to describe it. 83 ‘Affections?’ Sadie smirked. It was as if she knew something was going on between Mr. Stone and I, and sought to make me jealous. Not that anything was going on, or ever would. Regardless, it was working. ‘I was thinking of asking Mr. Stone if I can get extra credit,’ Sadie continued. ‘You know … so I can be alone with him after class.’ ‘Oh.’ I burned with jealousy. When I arrived at the café for my shift with Estelle, she apologized profusely for Saturday night. I begrudgingly forgave her and got on with my shift. She knew I was still annoyed, so she did not push the subject too much. ‘So … who was that man you left with on Saturday?’ she asked, wiping down the tables. ‘My teacher,’ I said. ‘He lives next door.’ ‘That cute one that always comes in here?’ Estelle asked. I chewed on the inside of my lip. ‘Yeah.’ ‘Be careful,’ she said. I raised my eyebrows. ‘Be careful?’ ‘He’s an older man, and a teacher at that. You don’t know what he’s up to. He could be one of those predators you see on dateline.’ ‘He’s not like that.’ I said. ‘We’re just friends.’ Estelle gave me a pitying look. ‘Oh, honey. Men don’t have female friends unless they want something.’ ‘Mr. Stone is different. He’s kind, and mature.’ Estelle put her hands on her hips. ‘So why does he only come here when you’re working?’ ‘Does he?’ I asked, feigning disinterest. Estelle nodded. ‘Uh huh. He never shows up when it’s any of the other girls. Monday’s and Wednesdays, that’s it.’ 84 I shrugged. ‘He said he likes my coffee.’ ‘Rose, you’re smarter than that. I can see that you like him. Just promise me you’ll be careful, okay?’ ‘Like you have such good taste in men,’ I snapped. ‘Your friend Spider decided he wanted to have a go at me. You’re the one dating sleaze bags, not me.’ After that, my friendship with Estelle was fractured. We were polite to each other, but not as close as we’d once been. But Estelle was right. I did like Mr. Stone. I was falling for him. Fast. I couldn’t help it. I was drawn to him and I feared that it was becoming increasingly obvious. He was a good man and I did not wish to complicate his life with my childish notions of love. He was responsible, and would spurn my advances at once. I could feel it in my gut. So I endured the torture without speaking a word of it. Meanwhile, my parent’s divorce had not left my mind since they’d told me about it, though I hadn’t said anything to anyone yet. They hadn’t even noticed my absence on Saturday night, and I’d been able to return to my bedroom with them none the wiser. Who was I meant to talk to about my issues at home? Would Mr. Stone open his arms and embrace me when I confessed my distress? The thought of his arms around me left me momentarily brain dead. Numerous times I considered using the number he’d given me. I wanted to hear his kind voice, speaking soothing words of comfort. 85 Tuesday – 8 days to go I couldn’t believe Sadie. I wanted to grab her by the hair and slam her stupid face against the desk. I’d never imagined hurting someone so badly before. She was doing everything within her power to make sure Mr. Stone’s attention was on her for the entire lesson, which included asking him if she could help him with anything to earn extra credit. I was surprised I didn’t spontaneously combust when she asked him. ‘Yeah, of course Sadie. Just hang back after class and we can work something out,’ Mr. Stone told her. My skin burned at the thought of them being alone together. I wouldn’t allow it. At the end of the lesson, I hung back too. ‘What are you doing?’ Sadie asked me with narrowed eyes as I remained in my seat. ‘I’m interested in extra credit, too,’ I lied. It was so obvious what I was doing, I wasn’t sure why I bothered to lie about it. With a smirk, Sadie flicked her hair back and walked to the front of the class, where Mr. Stone was wiping the day’s work off the board. She perched herself on the edge of his desk, her legs dangling back and forth. ‘Right – ah, Rose. You’re interested in extra-credit too?’ ‘Sure, why not?’ I said, waving a hand. Get off his desk you slut, I screamed inside my head. 86 ‘It was my idea,’ Sadie said quickly, leaning forwards so her bosom hung out of her blouse. ‘Well, that’s great. It’s great you’re both taking some initiative in class.’ Mr. Stone crossed the room to his cupboard and pulled out two copies of ‘Great Expectations’ by Chares Dickens. ‘Have either of you read this?’ he asked, handing Sadie a copy, and placing the other on my desk. ‘No,’ said Sadie, pulling a face as she looked at it. ‘Yes,’ I said. ‘Really?’ Mr. Stone seemed impressed. ‘Can you summarize for me?’ I licked my lips nervously. It had been years since I’d read it. ‘Um, it’s a coming of age story, isn’t it? About an orphan boy who is adopted into a blacksmith family?’ ‘Right,’ Mr. Stone smiled at me. Sadie glared. ‘I can’t wait to read it,’ she said pointedly. ‘Great!’ Mr. Stone clapped his hands together. ‘Well … if you can write a report summarizing the plot, and its themes … let’s say … eight hundred words?’ ‘Easy,’ I grinned. It really would be a piece of cake. Sadie, however, looked miserable. Clearly this encounter had not gone to plan. ‘Excellent,’ said Mr. Stone. ‘Well, you better be off to lunch, you two.’ ‘Thanks Mr. Stone,’ I said, getting up from my seat and slinging my bag over my shoulder. Sadie slid from Mr. Stone’s desk and took a few steps, only to drop her book. ‘Oops!’ She bent over in front of Mr. Stone and I to retrieve the novel. My jaw almost hit the ground. She wasn’t wearing any knickers. 87 He saw it too. Mr. Stone looked away, embarrassed, his face beetroot-red. I literally began to shake with anger. What a slut! 88 Thursday – 6 days to go I was a mess. My father was meeting with his real estate agent that evening, and my mother was out on a date with a co-worker. What was worse; my father didn’t seem phased by this at all. I sat in my room, upset and panicky. I didn’t want to leave Halfway; I’d miss him too much. Thomas. I needed him. I wanted him. I wanted him more than anything in the world, and he needed to know it. I couldn’t hold on to this secret any longer. It boiled inside me like poison. But how would I do it? I stared at Mr. Stone’s name in my phone for ages, contemplating on whether I should call him or not. What if he was busy? No. I wouldn’t call him. I’d text him instead, that way he could deny my offer if he wished. Can we go for a drive? I asked. He responded almost instantly, sending butterflies exploding through my stomach. See you in 5 minutes, it read. I wasn’t sure how, but I knew that Mr. Stone would drive to see me in the middle of the night if I asked him to. Perhaps that was vain of me to assume. 89 I slipped out of the house while my father was still on the phone and waited in the street for Mr. Stone to pick me up. When he rumbled to a groaning halt by the curb he could tell instantly that I was upset. ‘Oh, no,’ he said as soon as I got into the passenger seat. ‘What’s the matter, Rose?’ ‘Get me away from here,’ I said to him. He drove and I didn’t ask where we were going. Ten minutes passed in silence until we were on the outskirts of town, on an old road that was surrounded by forest. He picked up the mud with his tires as he pulled over on the side of the road. ‘You’re not going to murder me and ditch my body in the forest, are you?’ I asked. He laughed. ‘No, nothing like that. It’s calm here. I like it.’ I looked out at the forest. ‘I hate it.’ Mr. Stone raised his eyebrows. ‘Why?’ ‘I was attacked by a wild animal when I was nine while hiking in the woods with my parents,’ I said. ‘Shit. Sorry, I didn’t mean to-’ ‘It’s fine.’ I said. ‘It was a long time ago.’ He gave me a pitying look. ‘You look upset,’ he said. I nodded and stared at my hands in my lap. I could feel the burn of tears in the back of my throat, but sniffed them away. ‘My parents are getting a divorce,’ I told him. ‘I’m sorry to hear that,’ he said. ‘Were you expecting it?’ ‘I guess I should have,’ I replied. ‘They’ve been having affairs since I was nine.’ ‘Wow, okay. What took them so long?’ ‘I suppose they haven’t really been together for years. Not in the romantic sense, anyway.’ 90 ‘That’s sad,’ he said. ‘It must have been tough growing up.’ It had been, but not for the reasons he imagined. I relayed the conversation I’d had with my mother and father that night. His brow furrowed as I talked, and he looked deeply concerned. ‘They said … my … my condition-’ ‘Condition?’ Mr. Stone repeated. I had already said too much. ‘I get sick.’ I chose my words carefully. ‘A lot. My mother said it put a strain on the marriage.’ ‘That doesn’t sound very fair,’ he said. ‘Blaming you for something you can’t help.’ I shrugged. ‘I don’t want to leave Halfway,’ I said. ‘Things are just starting to get better. It’s safe here. It’s small, and quiet. I’m finally coming to terms with my illness …’ ‘When you say illness,’ he said slowly. ‘What do you mean?’ ‘It’s a long story,’ I said. ‘But don’t worry … it’s not contagious.’ It was a half-truth, at least. He was safe as long as he wasn’t around me during an episode. If I bit him, or scratched him during that time … it was another story. Mr. Stone reached over and grasped my hand, squeezing gently. I was sure he only meant it as a friendly gesture, but goose bumps erupted over my skin at his touch. ‘Thank you Mr. Stone,’ I said softly, ‘for being here with me. It really means a lot. Not many people would drop everything to comfort me.’ ‘Of course,’ he said. ‘I’d do anything.’ My stomach did cartwheels. Was he implying what I hoped? 91 Mr. Stone looked down at our hands, uncertainty flashing across his eyes. ‘But please don’t mention this to your friends, Rose. It would be considered, uh … unethical for-’ ‘I understand.’ He smiled warmly, his eyes twinkling. ‘Thank you.’ ‘Unethical, like Sadie’s stunt after class on Tuesday.’ Mr. Stone visibly shuddered in disgust; this made me very happy. ‘It’s so sad,’ he said, ‘when young girls extort themselves like that. Is her self esteem really so low that she needs to flash her own teacher?’ I shrugged, pleased that he disapproved. ‘Sadie has always been … adventurous.’ ‘Well, she is certainly not my type,’ Mr. Stone smirked. ‘I think I’m going to have to watch my back.’ ‘It seems so,’ I said with a smile. ‘She is quite adamant to have you for herself.’ ‘I’m just glad you were there,’ he chuckled. ‘God knows what she would have done if we’d been alone.’ Jealously bubbled in the pit of my stomach at the very thought. ‘So you didn’t enjoy the view?’ I pressed. Mr. Stone pretended to gag, and I laughed a little too loud. ‘Absolutely not. I was mortified.’ ‘She’s eighteen, you know?’ ‘Irrelevant,’ he waved a hand. ‘Well, I’m glad you disapproved. Most men would have taken advantage of such a situation.’ ‘I am not most men,’ he countered, cocking one eyebrow and giving me a look to die for. We smiled at each other for several moments, our eye contact lasting far longer than should be allowed for a student and teacher. ‘No, you aren’t,’ I agreed. 92 ‘My taste in women is far better than Sadie Deveraux, I can assure you.’ ‘Is it just?’ I asked, my lips curling into a smile. ‘Do tell.’ Mr. Stone’s smile faltered. ‘I like my women to have a mind of their own – to be witty. Like you.’ My throat closed up. Like me? ‘You’re an amazing girl,’ he said suddenly. His use of the word girl made my stomach twist painfully. ‘Am I?’ I asked. ‘Of course.’ ‘A girl?’ He smiled knowingly. ‘An amazing woman,’ he corrected himself. ‘No one has ever told me that before,’ I said. ‘I don’t believe that,’ he smiled. ‘You’re clever, and beautiful, and damn witty.’ Mr. Stone’s jaw tensed as he realized what he was saying. ‘Beautiful?’ I asked, the word escaping as nothing more than a whisper. ‘Don’t you know?’ he asked. My heart thundered as I stared at him. Oh please, my mind begged. Please tell me what is going on in that head of yours. ‘D-don’t I know what?’ I asked. ‘Don’t you know what you’re doing to me?’ He said as though I was torturing him. ‘What?’ My skin stung and my head swam with the possibilities. ‘Rose, I-’ He paused to collect his thoughts. ‘I’ve felt this … this pull towards you since day one. I can’t explain it.’ 93 He didn’t need to explain it, because I felt it too. His eyes, his smile and his scent had me drawn in. I placed a shaking hand over his, which was still on the steering wheel. He looked at our hands for a moment before allowing me to thread my fingers through his. I could feel his pulse in between each of my fingers. Mr. Stone inhaled deeply. ‘Christ,’ he muttered, shutting his eyes tightly. ‘What’s the matter?’ I breathed. ‘That … that scent. The way you smell-’ I suddenly became very self-conscious. Bullies at school often accused me of smelling like wet dog. I sniffed my shirt, but I smelled perfectly normal. ‘What is it?’ I said defensively. ‘I showered this morning-’ Mr. Stone laughed, and I felt my cheeks burn with embarrassment. ‘No,’ he said with a small smile. ‘You smell amazing.’ ‘I do?’ ‘Absolutely. You always do.’ I never wore perfume, only regular home brand antiperspirant. ‘It makes me dizzy,’ he confessed. ‘It’s intoxicating.’ ‘What do I smell like?’ I asked, rather flushed. Mr. Stone licked his lips like he could taste me in the air. ‘Sweet,’ he said. My cheeks burned crimson, and I wished he would look at me. I couldn’t believe this was happening. ‘I want to kiss you so very badly, Rose,’ Mr. Stone said under his breath. ‘But I can’t … and it’s killing me.’ My heart hammered so loudly against my ribcage that I was sure Mr. Stone could hear it from where he sat. 94 Suddenly, I felt powerful. He wanted me … and it terrified him. ‘Mr. Stone,’ I breathed, but he still didn’t look at me. ‘Tom.’ A small groan escaped him as though his name leaving my lips was taboo. ‘Look at me,’ I said, my eyes fixated on him. ‘I can’t,’ he said, shaking his head. Without hesitation I unbuckled my seat belt and leaned towards Mr. Stone, taking his chin in my hand and forcing him to look at me. He flinched, thinking that I was going to slap him. But he couldn’t have been more misguided. I kissed him. Hard. I didn’t want to give him the opportunity to lean away and prevent it from happening so I pressed my mouth to his forcefully. My first kiss. He froze, shocked by my sudden action. His hands remained on the steering wheel as he gripped onto his own self-control. I moved my mouth against his, willing him to kiss me back. It was only when my tongue brushed against his lips that he responded. Mr. Stone groaned, his hands falling away from the steering wheel and wrapping around my waist. I’d stolen what little restraint he had left. He gripped me tightly as though I was the last thing in the world. He deepened the kiss, and I opened my mouth to allow him entrance. As our tongues met, chills ran down my spine and fireworks exploded in the pit of my stomach. I forgot who, and where I was; my skin was on fire. When I broke away we were panting, and his lips were pink and swollen. His eyes darted across my face, studying each freckle and imperfection. 95 Suddenly, the realization of what had happened struck Mr. Stone and he leaned away from me, threading his fingers through his hair like he always did when stressed. ‘Shit,’ he muttered under his breath. ‘Shit, shit shit.’ I watched him calmly, my eyes following his lips as he spoke. ‘That shouldn’t have happened,’ he said, pinching the bridge of his nose between his thumb and forefinger. The look on his face was enough to break my heart. He hated himself. ‘I’m sorry,’ I said, even though I wasn’t sorry at all. Mr. Stone looked at me with wide eyes. ‘Why are you sorry?’ he said. ‘I brought you here … I told you I wanted to kiss you. This is my fault.’ He thought he was some kind of manipulative predator. ‘Will you kiss me again?’ I asked. He shook his head, biting his bottom lip. ‘No. No, I can’t. Absolutely not. It’s wrong.’ I ignored him and leaned forwards. He hesitated for only a moment before unbuckling his seatbelt with fumbling fingers and meeting me half way. We held each other tightly; Mr. Stone moaned through the kiss, breathing heavily into my open mouth. I wrapped my arms around his neck and thread my fingers through his hair, gripping tightly. I didn’t want to let go. ‘Incredible,’ he muttered against my lips. My stomach writhed with affection for the man. ‘Absolutely incredible.’ I wasn’t sure how long we kissed for. It could have been seconds, or perhaps several hours. However long, it didn’t seem enough. Eventually it had to end, and Mr. Stone said he would take me home. I agreed, reluctantly. 96 Through out the drive he seemed disoriented. I, however, was on top of the world. My parents would have to drag me out of Halfway. 97 Chapter Nine Friday – 5 days to go I spent the following morning in a daze of happiness and disbelief. I kissed Mr. Stone and he kissed me back. I couldn’t stop thinking about him; his hands, his lips and the way he groaned into our kiss as though it was all too much for him to bear. I could almost feel his arms around my waist, like his ghost was embracing me. He’d left an imprint on me that I couldn’t forget. I couldn’t wait for school, and I imagined him watching me longingly from across the playground, or subtly touching my hand or knee during class. English was just before lunch, so I could hang back in the classroom and maybe steal a kiss or two. Things don’t always go as planned. Mr. Stone was not his usual, cheery self that day. He snapped at the students, and shouted when someone talked without raising their hand. ‘So, by the end of this novel, these women are no longer powerless; can anyone tell me why?’ Mr. Stone asked, holding up the book we were currently studying. I’d read it from beginning to end twice to try and impress him. I threw my hand in the air, eager for his attention. His eyes glazed over me without so much as a hesitation. No one else put their hand up. He ignored me completely. 98 ‘They are no longer powerless because they have joined forces and are forging their own lives,’ he said matter-of-factly. ‘Together, these women free each other. And what theme does that represent?’ No one said anything. Once again, my hand shot into the air. A few people looked at me curiously as I was ignored again. ‘Female solidarity,’ Mr. Stone said slowly and clearly. ‘The theme of independence, which is what your next assignment will be on.’ I might as well have been invisible. ‘What’s got into him today?’ Sadie whispered to me during the lesson. I shrugged and frowned. ‘Maybe he’s having a bad day. He’s not usually this grumpy-’ ‘Rose,’ snapped Mr. Stone. ‘Stop talking whilst I am.’ I stared at him. ‘I was just-’ ‘Don’t talk back,’ he said. ‘I wasn’t, I was only-’ ‘Detention,’ he said. ‘I … what?’ ‘Detention,’ he repeated. ‘See me after class.’ ‘You’re joking, right?’ I asked. ‘Absolutely not.’ I shut my mouth at once and spent the rest of the lesson confused. Was the detention an excuse to keep me back after class? Did he want to steal a kiss while no one was around? The bell rang to signal the beginning of lunch, and Sadie muttered an apology to me before scampering from the room. I stayed in my seat. Once the room was empty, Mr. Stone turned to me, his face impassive. What had got into him? ‘You’re going to write lines,’ he told me at once. ‘I will not talk during class.’ 99 ‘Tom,’ I said, almost laughing as if it was some kind of joke. ‘What’s the matter with you?’ ‘You will address me as Mr. Stone,’ he said. ‘You’re not serious are you?’ I asked. ‘Very serious.’ ‘What the hell has got into you?’ I demanded. This didn’t go down well with him. ‘I am your teacher, Rose,’ he snapped. ‘You can’t talk to me like that.’ I understood. Mr. Stone wanted to re-establish his dominance in the classroom after our kiss. ‘I’m sorry, Sir,’ I said, sarcastically. ‘Since when did you make anyone write lines?’ He didn’t answer. Instead, he placed a sheet of paper in front of me and tapped it with his index finger. ‘Lines,’ he said. ‘Now.’ I stared at him as he walked back to his desk and sat down. He began marking homework at once. ‘You’re really making me do this?’ I asked. He ignored me. I swallowed hard, and slowly lowered myself into my seat, staring at the stark-white sheet of paper in front of me. ‘How many times?’ I asked through gritted teeth. ‘Until you fill the paper,’ he told me without looking up. With a shaking hand I grabbed my pen and began to write. I will not talk during class. I will not talk during class. I will not talk during class. Soon, the words didn’t seem like words at all. They became strange and foreign like they’d been invented at random. Thankfully, it didn’t take long, but the lunch break was almost over by the time I’d finished. 100 Once the paper was filled, I grabbed my bag and marched to Mr. Stone’s desk. I slammed the filled sheet on his desk, making him jump a little. ‘There you go, sir,’ I said, my nostrils flaring. ‘Can I go now?’ Something in Mr. Stone’s eyes made me believe that he felt bad for forcing me to write lines, but he didn’t say anything. Instead, he waved a hand to dismiss me. I stormed from the room, my heart pounding furiously in my chest. I wasn’t sure why I was so angry; I guess I’d thought he would treat me differently. I was nothing more than a stupid little girl to him. I ran straight to the girl’s bathroom where I spent the entire next period. Panic was beginning to set it. Maybe Mr. Stone regretted the kiss. Perhaps he didn’t want me anymore. The thought of his rejection was enough to paralyze me. How foolish I’d been to think that he’d want a child like me. The kiss had meant nothing. After washing my face in the sink I decided what I had to do. I needed to set this straight. I went back to the classroom but found that he had gone so I headed straight for the teacher’s lounge. It was a risky move, and was sure to infuriate him, but he couldn’t refuse a meeting with a student in front of the other teachers. Once I was outside the teacher’s lounge, I knocked on the door with a shaking hand. It took a few seconds before the head of the English department, Mrs. Kim, answered the door. ‘Hello,’ I said at once, feeling rather foolish. ‘Is Mr. Stone available? I just … I need to talk to him about my last assignment.’ ‘Sorry, he just left for the day, actually.’ 101 ‘Left?’ I repeated. ‘Where did he go?’ Like I have a right to know his whereabouts, I thought bitterly. Mrs. Kim pursed her lips and looked over her spectacles at me. She could tell I’d been crying. ‘He wasn’t feeling well. Sorry, what was your name again?’ ‘Um … Maria,’ I lied. ‘Thanks.’ I scampered away before she could ask me any more questions. ‘Mr. Stone was acting so weird today,’ Sadie muttered to me during next period. She was wearing a particularly low-cut blouse today. ‘Yes,’ I agreed. It was hard to talk. My throat had closed up and the back of my nose stung as tears threatened to spill. ‘Did you see when he looked down my top?’ said Sadie, throwing me a radiant smile. He hadn’t even given Sadie the time of day. ‘Stop deluding yourself,’ I snapped. ‘What?’ Sadie narrowed her eyes at me. ‘Mr. Stone hasn’t looked at you once all day,’ I said through gritted teeth. Sadie laughed. ‘You’re acting jealous.’ I was still angry about the detention as I walked home, half expecting Mr. Stone’s beat up car to come rumbling up beside me. But it didn’t. I stepped onto Maple Street, watching my feet as I walked along the pavement. I kicked a stone for several meters, muttering under my breath. Two houses away from my own home, I looked up, expecting to see Mr. Stone’s car parked in front of my house. It wasn’t. 102 Chapter Ten Monday – 2 days to go Thomas hadn’t contacted me all weekend. Not only that he hadn’t looked at me or talked to me in class that day. I was hurting on the inside; it was torture. I was still furious about the detention, but more so I was lovesick. How could he kiss me, and then ignore me completely? During lunch, Tom was on grounds duty, so I tried to corner him whilst his back was turned. It didn’t work. As soon as he saw me approaching, he froze with his mug of instant coffee halfway towards his lips. He looked like a deer caught in headlights. ‘Mr. St-’ I’d barely gotten his name past my lips before he turned on his heel and walked away from me. I’d never felt pain like it before, even during my episodes. It was two days until I was due for another episode. I had the event circled in my calendar. I was already beginning to feel the onset of the sickness, but it wasn’t too unbearable yet. At least I was able to attend my shift that evening, anyway. Estelle seemed to sense that something was wrong. ‘Hey, are you okay?’ Estelle asked me when it was close to closing time. ‘I’m fine,’ I said as I wiped down the counters. ‘You’ve been really tense all day. More so than usual, I mean.’ ‘It’s nothing,’ I assured her. 103 ‘Are you getting sick again?’ she asked. I nodded. Estelle was very understanding of my illness, and didn’t ask questions. ‘Why don’t you go on home if you’re feeling sick? I’ll finish cleaning.’ ‘Are you sure?’ I asked. I was beginning to feel clammy, after all. Estelle nodded. ‘Go on.’ ‘Thanks,’ I said, grabbing my bag and jacket. ‘See you, kiddo,’ Estelle waved, watching me exit the shop. I could tell she was still feeling guilty after last weekend’s escapades. It was cold outside. Winter had decided to make an early appearance, and my breath created a mist in front of my face. Burying my hands underneath my armpits I began to walk down the street, hunched against the cold, but I didn’t get very far. Parked outside the coffee shop was Mr. Stone’s car. He was outside too, leaning against the driver’s side door, watching me. He looked paler than usual, and wore an oversized coat that was frayed around the cuffs. I took a deep breath and considered walking up to him and punching him in the face, but I decided against it. If he could ignore me, then I’d ignore him. I turned on my heel and started walking the opposite way down the street. It was the wrong direction to get to my house, but I didn’t care. ‘Rose!’ he called at once. I quickened my pace. ‘Rose!’ I could hear him running to catch up with me, his shoes slapping against the pavement. ‘Go away!’ I shouted over my shoulder. He caught up with me quickly, his long legs covering more distance than my own short ones. 104 ‘Will you stop for a moment?’ he said breathlessly. ‘Fuck off,’ I snapped, folding my arms across my chest. It was two days before an episode so I was bound to be grouchy. He didn’t know that though. He stepped in front of me, preventing me from walking any farther. ‘Please listen to me,’ he breathed, his hands on my shoulders. ‘Why should I?’ ‘I know you’re mad at me, Rose, but can we please talk somewhere in private?’ He glanced around as if afraid someone was hiding in the bushes. ‘Please. There’s so much I want to tell you.’ I chewed on the inside of my lip. He looked a mess; his hair was ruffled, his face unshaven, and large bags circled his eyes. My anger was replaced with pity. ‘You look like shit,’ I said bluntly. The corner of his mouth twitched, hiding a smile. ‘You look lovely,’ he countered. I took a deep breath. ‘Where do you want to go?’ Mr. Stone nodded towards his vehicle. ‘Just sit with me in the car for a chat, and then I’ll take you home.’ I allowed myself to be steered towards his car, and let Mr. Stone open the passenger door for me. It was nice and warm inside, and he turned the car on so I could place my hands in front of the vent, which blew out hot air. ‘I’m very sorry,’ he said, turning to face me at once. ‘You made me cry,’ I admitted. ‘I didn’t mean to.’ I crossed my arms once my fingers had been sufficiently defrosted. ‘Well?’ ‘Rose, you must understand the position I am in,’ he said, running a hand over his unshaven face. ‘I can’t … I shouldn’t have kissed you-’ 105 ‘I kissed you,’ I interrupted, annoyed. ‘We kissed each other,’ he corrected. ‘But I allowed myself to enter that situation with you and it was irresponsible of me to take advantage of-’ ‘You didn’t take advantage of me,’ I said at once. ‘Will you let me finish, please?’ he asked. I grumbled, but fell silent. ‘I’m your teacher, which means this … us … it could never work. I could lose my job - hell, I could go to jail for this … for you.’ It took all the inner strength and will power I possessed not to cry in front of Mr. Stone. I didn’t want him to think I was a little girl who sobbed when she didn’t get her way. But I was losing control of the conversation and I could feel him slipping away with each passing second. I had to say something, anything … ‘Don’t you … want me?’ I asked. ‘It’s not a question of whether I-’ He paused to collect his thoughts. ‘I don’t think you understand the position I’m in. I have betrayed your trust. You deserve someone your own age-’ ‘Don’t give me that bullshit,’ I snapped. ‘I just meant-’ ‘I care about you,’ I said slowly and clearly. ‘I like you. I want you.’ He stared at me. ‘We cannot do this, and I’m putting an end to it before I hurt you.’ ‘You’re hurting me now,’ I said, pointing at my chest as though it might rip open at any moment. ‘I’m no good for you, Rose. I’m too old, and too poor-’ ‘I don’t give a damn how old you are, or if you wear second hand clothes and your car is falling apart,’ I said, my voice rising. ‘I want you!’ 106 ‘You’re just a confused school girl-’ ‘I’m not confused!’ I said, the anger growing inside me. I had to control my temper when I was so close to that day. ‘I’ve felt a pull towards you from day one, and I know you’ve felt it too. You said so yourself.’ ‘I was mistaken,’ he said. I could hear the lie in his voice. ‘I’m a fool, infatuated by the idea of – of-’ He was trying to convince me that it had all been in his head, but I wasn’t an idiot. ‘So that’s it?’ I said, my chest painfully tight. ‘You tell me you want to kiss me, and then a few days later you suddenly don’t want me anymore?’ ‘I should never have said it. I’m sorry I confused you. It’s wrong.’ ‘Because you’re my teacher?’ I asked. ‘You’re seventeen,’ he said with emphasis. ‘It’s dangerous. I’m dangerous.’ ‘I can look after myself,’ I said. I too could be described as dangerous. ‘Please, Rose,’ Mr. Stone was begging now. ‘I can’t do this.’ ‘Fine,’ I said, tears now brimming my eyes. ‘I won’t bother you again. I just want one last thing and then I’ll drop the whole thing.’ ‘What’s that?’ he asked. ‘Kiss me,’ I said, a tear sliding down my cheek. ‘No,’ he shook his head. ‘Kiss me,’ I demanded. ‘I can’t,’ he croaked weakly. I leaned towards Mr. Stone in the hopes it might slacken his resolve. I wasn’t sure if it would work, but I had to try. I wanted him, and I wanted him to need me. Mr. Stone’s hand cupped my face, and I could see myself reflected in his deep green eyes. He brushed his thumb along my cheek, wiping away the tear. 107 ‘Why are you torturing me?’ he breathed. A whimper escaped me as he closed the distance between us, brushing his lips ever so slightly against my own. He was soft, and gentle as he caressed my face. I placed my hand on his chest and curled my fingers around his shirt. It was over too soon, and he pulled away while my eyes were closed, and my lips were parted. I hung in the no-mans-land between us, waiting for his lips to return to mine, but they didn’t. Mr. Stone cleared his throat. ‘We should … we should get going.’ On the drive home it felt like my soul had been fractured into a thousand tiny pieces. I was in love with my teacher, Mr. Stone, and I couldn’t have him. I knew it was love. What else could be so painful? When we pulled up in front of my house, Mr. Stone spoke to me in a robotic voice. ‘Don’t come by my house during the week, okay? I won’t be home.’ And with that, I was dismissed. 108 Chapter Eleven Wednesday – 0 days to go I couldn’t visit Tom, even if I’d wanted to. I was sick again, but this time it was different. On the day of my illness there was no one to be found in my household. My mother and father were out, and had not left a note saying where they were. Not only that, but their cellphones had been switched off too, so I couldn’t reach them. The hour of my episode was drawing nearer; I could feel it. I was drenched in a cold sweat, and my very bones felt like they were on fire. I should have reminded them of the date. No. How could they forget such a thing? I argued back and forth with myself, delirious with fever. Maybe they’d be home in time, before it happened. If they didn’t … who would restrain me? It had happened once before, when I was twelve. My parents didn’t come home the night of my affliction and I was alone throughout the entire ordeal. I was loose. Overcome with fever, and crawling out of my skin, I’d escaped onto the streets. I don’t remember any of it, of course. I never do. The next morning I’d been found covered in dirt in the woods, several miles from home. How could they allow it to happen again? Sure, my parents were often away, but never at this time. 109 The sun was setting and I could barely stand up straight. I staggered into the basement where my makeshift bedroom was. I tried, and failed to chain myself to the bedposts like my mother and father did. It was hopeless. I managed to shackle my ankles, but could not restrain my own hands. Each restraint required the use of two hands. I needed help. Thinking quickly, I slipped my belt off and put my wrists into the loop. I pulled the long end with my teeth until it was painfully tight. It wasn’t completely secure but it would have to do. The pain surged and I cried in agony. My very skin was on fire. Bile forced it’s way up my throat and I vomited on myself. My flesh rippled, and the hairs on my arms stood on end. I checked my watch and saw that it was two minutes until sundown. It was beginning. Crack! Crack! Crack! Every bone in my body was breaking, and then fusing back together. I howled in pain, but my cries went unheard in the soundproof basement. Soon, the screams would no longer be human. The monster was taking over. 110 Thursday – 29 days to go The winter sun shone weakly upon my skin. At first, I was confused as to why I was looking up at the bare forest trees, but the memory of the previous night came flooding back all too soon. My body was stiff and ached, yet the pain was nothing compared to the cold. I tried to sit up but my head was throbbing. I groaned and rolled onto my side. From here I could observe some of my environment. I was most certainly in a forest, but I couldn’t be sure where I was exactly. The woods covered miles upon miles of ground. It was very easy to become lost in the Halfway woods. A fine layer of frost covered the soggy leaf-strewn ground that I lay upon. Mulch and dirt coated my body like a second skin. I looked down to discover that I was completely naked apart the leaves and other miscellaneous debris that clung to me. I sat up with a groan; everything ached. My messy hair was long enough to cover my breasts, but I needn’t worry about being seen; I was completely alone. This was both a good and bad thing. I could be miles from home, and I was freezing, and naked. Running a hand through my hair, I pulled leaves and twigs out of it. I couldn’t imagine what I must look like. 111 Getting to my feet, my muscles burned as if I’d run a marathon, which I reminded myself, I probably had. I had no memory of the previous night as usual, but my body was feeling the after-effects. It was the second time I’d broken loose during an episode. I could hear a loud, buzzing sound nearby. I looked for the source and almost cried out in fear and disgust. It was a head. A deer’s head. Its body was nowhere to be seen. Flies buzzed around the decapitated head, blood and guts soaking the forest floor. ‘Oh god.’ I put a shaking hand to my mouth and wiped my chin. Dry blood flaked away from my face. What have I done? I took a few steps backwards before treading on something extremely large, and soft. Someone groaned under my foot. I yelped and jumped backwards, searching for whatever had made the noise. There was a man, lying face down on the forest floor, covered in leaves, dirt and twigs. No wonder I hadn’t seen him; he was almost completely camouflaged. He too was butt naked. He groaned again and began to get up. I quickly backed away from the stranger, tripping over a fallen branch and landing on my bottom with an ‘Oof!’ Without hesitation, I jumped to my feet and hid behind the closest tree. My first instinct was to run, but then I thought that this naked stranger might be hurt. Perhaps I had brought him here during my episode; therefore it would be my responsibility to make sure that he had not been harmed. 112 The stranger got to his feet and staggered slightly, his back to me. He was tall and well built, with a firm buttock. His body was covered from head to toe in soggy leaves and twigs. I felt my face flush with embarrassment; I’d never seen a naked man before. I watched him try to brush the debris from his arms as I peered out from behind the tree. I edged around the trunk a little bit to get a closer look … Crack! I lost my footing and stepped on a twig, which snapped loudly. With a gasp, I concealed myself completely behind the tree as the man turned on the spot, searching for the source of the noise. ‘Hello?’ he said at once. ‘Who’s there?’ His voice was hoarse, as though he’d been yelling all night and lost the use of it. I took my chances and peered around the tree again. He would have been unrecognizable for the dirt that smeared his face, but I’d know those emerald eyes anywhere. It was Mr. Stone. He hadn’t spotted me, but he’d heard me moving. ‘Who’s there?’ he demanded. ‘Show yourself!’ Shit. What do I do? I thought to myself. ‘I know you’re there!’ he yelled, advancing on the tree I was hiding behind. ‘Okay,’ I said hoarsely. ‘I’m coming out.’ I stepped out from behind the tree, my long hair covering my breasts, and my hands hiding my womanhood. I tried in vain to conceal the ugly scars that were scattered across my body as a result of the attack I’d suffered as a little girl. 113 Mr. Stone froze on the spot, like prey. His eyes were wide and his mouth hung open. His eyes darted from my face, to my exposed body, and back again. ‘Rose?’ he breathed, barely able to believe what he was seeing. Realizing that he too was completely naked, he clapped his hands over his genitals to hide them from me. I nodded, fear inhabiting every inch of my body. ‘Shit. I mean … what … how?’ he stammered, unsure of which question to ask first. He was confused, and I knew he’d have a million questions for me. Dry blood was smeared across his mouth and chest, but Mr. Stone didn’t look hurt. In fact, there wasn’t a scratch on him. Was it the deer’s blood on him, too? Or had I brought him here during my episode? I couldn’t remember. ‘You … you-’ he stared at the scars over my ribs, and the claw marks on my thigh. He looked afraid. I quickly hid behind the tree again, poking my head out. ‘Stop staring,’ I choked, my voice hoarse. ‘Rose, how did you get here?’ he asked, hurrying over to the tree I was hiding behind. He remained on the opposite side, but leaned around it so he could see my face. ‘I’m sorry Mr. Stone,’ I said, my voice breaking. ‘I had an … an episode. I-I don’t remember what happened. This is all my fault.’ ‘Did you … did you follow me here?’ he asked, trying to comprehend the situation. ‘Wh-what?’ I stammered. ‘No … I just … I woke up here.’ ‘You’re covered in blood,’ he said. ‘Are you hurt?’ I shook my head. ‘N-No. It’s from the deer.’ I pointed to the decapitated carcass that lay on the ground. 114 Mr. Stone stared at the animal before snapping his attention back to me. ‘I don’t understand.’ ‘I’m sorry,’ I said, tears sliding down my cheek. ‘My p-parents weren’t home to restrain me-’ ‘Restrain?’ Mr. Stone repeated, looking alarmed. Suddenly, understanding dawned upon his face. ‘My god, Rose.’ My bottom lip trembled as I struggled to keep it together. ‘I didn’t mean for this to happen,’ I said. ‘You were attacked by a wild animal when you were a little girl, you said so yourself. You hate the forest.’ He seemed to be talking to himself, rather than me. I gulped. He was piecing it together. I could hear the cogs turning in his head. ‘Y-you said you get sick often,’ he continued. ‘You were absent from school last month … during … during.’ That’s it. He knew my secret. My parents and I had struggled for years to keep it hidden from the people of Halfway, but because of their carelessness I had escaped and run amok. I waited for Mr. Stone to say it; that dreaded word I refused to even think about. The very phrase made me sick to my stomach. ‘You’re … you’re-’ Mr. Stone’s pupils were dilated. ‘Say it,’ I snapped, tears brimming my eyes. ‘You’re like me,’ he breathed. 115 Chapter Twelve ‘I … what?’ What he’d said had taken me completely off guard. ‘You’re like me,’ he repeated, a crazed grin spreading across his face. ‘Rose, it all makes sense now.’ ‘You mean … you’re a-a-’ He nodded fervently. ‘We’re both werewolves, Rose.’ I flinched at the word. ‘Don’t say it,’ I scolded him. ‘I hate that word.’ He didn’t seem to care; Mr. Stone was far too excited. I couldn’t see why; this affliction was nothing to be happy about. ‘Oh, Rose, I’m so relieved,’ he said, letting out a laugh that sounded strangely like the bark of a dog. ‘Why?’ I asked. He put a hand over his heart. ‘Christ, I thought I’d kidnapped you and brought you here.’ I shook my head. ‘No … Well, I don’t remember, but I suspect I came here myself. It’s happened once before.’ ‘Just the once?’ he asked. I nodded. ‘My parents usually restrain me on the full moon so I can’t escape,’ I said. Mr. Stone nodded. ‘I tried that once. I bought a cage for myself which I kept in the basement.’ He allowed himself a smile. ‘Can you imagine my friend’s shock when they discovered it? They thought I was keeping hostages down there.’ I couldn’t help but smile. ‘Didn’t the cage work?’ Mr. Stone shook his head. ‘I’ve tried everything, but I always wake up in the forest.’ ‘You must be stronger than me,’ I said, ‘to break out of a cage.’ 116 He shrugged. ‘In the end I gave up on trying to control it. Now I come here before the transformation so I am away from the public. My car is parked on a road just north from here.’ I looked around at the density of trees that surrounded us. ‘How do you know where we are?’ I asked. Mr. Stone pointed at the sun’s position in the sky. ‘I’ve learnt how to navigate. I had to really. I wasn’t given much choice.’ I couldn’t believe it. Mr. Stone was like me; he too carried the same illness that took over my body every month on the full moon. I thought I was alone. ‘My god, Rose. This makes so much sense,’ he was smiling again. ‘The attraction, the smell, everything.’ I nodded, my throat dry. ‘I felt a pull towards you,’ I said. ‘Your scent,’ he closed his eyes and inhaled deeply. ‘I could smell you from a mile away.’ My cheeks burned with embarrassment. ‘Like a dog?’ I asked. ‘Pardon the pun.’ I hadn’t experienced it to this extent. ‘I’d know exactly where you were in the school. Not all the time; some days the scent was stronger than others.’ ‘Really?’ ‘Absolutely. Even at that party the other week. I wasn’t going to attend at first, but then I caught this whiff on the air, and I was compelled to go. I knew it was you.’ ‘You could smell me that strongly?’ I asked, shocked. He nodded. ‘It was … torture. You don’t know how hard it was to control myself around you.’ 117 ‘You make it sound like you wanted to attack me,’ I said. ‘I almost did,’ he smiled guiltily. ‘I though I must be some kind of sexual predator, preying on school girls.’ The thought of Mr. Stone ravishing me sent chills through my spine and left me light headed. It must have shown, too, because he quickly added; ‘I’d never in a million years touch a student, of course. I love teaching. But with you … it was different. I just wanted to … to-’ Mr. Stone’s face burned scarlet. ‘What?’ I pressed, eager to hear more. ‘I wanted you so badly,’ he finished lamely. ‘I wanted … no, needed you.’ That’s all I’d wanted to hear for the past few weeks. The moment he said it my knees felt weak. ‘It was instinct,’ he continued. ‘You hear about dogs that travel for miles when they smell a female on heat; they’ll do anything to get to her. That’s how I felt, and it was driving me crazy.’ ‘You’re saying you know when I’m ovulating?’ I asked, trying not to laugh. He chuckled. ‘That’s one way to put it.’ ‘That’s why the kids call me wet dog,’ I said, suddenly scowling. ‘They think I smell like a … a-’ ‘Werewolf?’ he provided. I nodded. He smiled. ‘The others, they don’t understand. We smell strange to regular people.’ The way he referred to normal people made me feel like a freak, but I knew he hadn’t meant it that way. ‘I used to drench myself in cologne to try and mask it, but it never worked,’ he said, resting his forehead on the bark of the tree trunk. 118 I understood completely; I too had given up on trying to mask the scent of the wolf on me. ‘You smell amazing to me,’ I said softly. ‘I should have known we were the same.’ ‘All those times we were confined together in the car, or classroom, I was worried that I’d end up taking advantage of you because of the scent. It was an assault on my senses, and I found it hard to control myself around you.’ ‘I wouldn’t have minded,’ I whispered, a smile playing my lips. He smiled and closed his eyes, taking a deep breath. ‘I’m so relieved, Rose. You have no idea the torture I’ve endured these past few months. Here I was thinking I’d lost my mind.’ ‘Me too,’ I said through chattering teeth. ‘I’ve always been alone during these times … I’ve had no one to talk to about this for so many years.’ It was as if a great weight had been lifted from my chest. ‘Shit, you must be freezing,’ Mr. Stone said, his eyes wide. ‘I’m so sorry. Let’s get you out of here before your toes fall off.’ I looked around. ‘How far is your car?’ I asked. He pursed his lips. ‘A mile or so.’ I blinked. ‘Um … I’m naked.’ ‘Right … yeah.’ He seemed to be thinking hard. ‘Uh … why don’t you follow behind me? I promise not to look.’ I nodded fervently. Mr. Stone got his bearings before setting off and heading in a northerly direction towards his car. Only when he was several paces ahead of me did I emerge from behind the tree, and tiptoed through the forest in his wake. 119 I was overly alert, hearing every twig crack and bush rustle. I kept Mr. Stone in my sights as he led me through the forest. I couldn’t help but stare at his bottom as he marched ahead of me, thinking how firm it looked. Realizing this, I chuckled. ‘What are you laughing at back there?’ he called over his shoulder. He kept his promise; he didn’t peek. ‘Nothing,’ I called back, my voice still slightly hoarse. ‘Just enjoying the view.’ ‘Behave yourself!’ he called back to me. We walked for half an hour, covering almost a mile. I wasn’t sure how Mr. Stone knew where he was going, but I trusted his judgment. Soon, the trees began to thin, and I could hear roadnoise ahead. ‘We’re close!’ he called. ‘Stay where you are, okay?’ I’ll bring you a blanket to cover yourself with.’ I did as he asked and hid myself amongst some bushes as Mr. Stone walked the last few yards alone. I couldn’t see the clearing, yet I knew it must be close. He was gone for several minutes, and for a moment I feared that he had left me in the forest. Thankfully, I heard him traipsing towards me a few minutes later. He appeared through the trees wearing a pair of grey jeans, and holding a bundle of fabric in his arms. ‘I keep a spare change of clothes in the car for this event,’ he smiled. ‘Unfortunately, only one shirt, but you can wear it.’ He covered his eyes as he approached me and held out the shirt, accompanied by a blanket. I quickly took them both in my freezing hands and slipped the paisley shirt over my head. It was far too large, but it covered all of my private parts. I wrapped the blanket around myself, thankful for some warmth. ‘Thank you,’ I said, stepping out from the bushes. 120 Mr. Stone opened his eyes and looked me up and down. ‘It’s like a dress,’ he smiled at me. ‘It suits you.’ There was something strangely satisfying about wearing his shirt. ‘Let’s go,’ he nodded towards the clearing. ‘We need to get cleaned up, I think.’ Cleaned up was an understatement. We needed a scrubbing as both of us were covered in mud, leaves, twigs, and blood. ‘Which of us killed the deer?’ I asked as we walked to the forest’s edge. I could see the road now, and Mr. Stone’s old car. He shrugged. ‘It wouldn’t be the first time I’ve found a dead animal near me.’ ‘Maybe we caught it together,’ I said, sheepishly. ‘As a pack,’ he gave me a wink. I was glad when I got into Mr. Stone’s car and he turned the heater on as high as it would go. I kept my hands in front of the vent, trying to defrost myself. ‘Are you feeling okay?’ he asked, doing a U-turn on the road and heading towards Halfway. I nodded. ‘I feel … relaxed.’ He laughed. ‘Maybe because you were able to run free instead of being chained up.’ ‘It’s dangerous to run free,’ I said. ‘People can get hurt.’ Mr. Stone glanced sideways at me before focusing on the road ahead. ‘I know. That’s how we became what we are, I guess.’ I nodded. ‘I was hiking at sundown with my family,’ I said. ‘The creature … it jumped out of the bushes.’ I shuddered as I recalled the attack. ‘It must have been terrifying for a young girl,’ he said. 121 ‘I remember its yellow eyes, and blood-stained teeth … the putrid breath on my face as it tackled me to the ground.’ Mr. Stone reached over and placed his dirtencrusted hand over my own. I took a deep breath and continued. ‘I tried to crawl away, but it dug its claws into my leg and dragged me back.’ I hitched up the long shirt to reveal the scars on my thigh. Mr. Stone glanced at them. Slowly, he released my hand and gently trailed his fingers along the raised scars, sending goose bumps erupting over my skin. No one had ever seen them before, let alone touched them. I found the scars repulsive, but the way he caressed them was strangely intimate. Warmth erupted from his touch and spread like wildfire through my body. ‘What happened next?’ he asked, keeping his eyes on the road, his hand never leaving my thigh. ‘Its jaws closed around my ribs,’ I said, ‘breaking two of them. I’ve still got the teeth marks. I believe it would have killed me had I been alone. My father grabbed a fallen branch and clubbed it over the head. It ran away after that.’ ‘You’re lucky to be alive,’ Mr. Stone said. ‘Not many people are attacked by a w–’ ‘Don’t say it,’ I said, closing my eyes. ‘A … monster,’ he said purposefully, ‘and live to tell the tale.’ ‘I know,’ I said. ‘But sometimes I wish I’d died, rather than live with this affliction.’ He sighed. ‘Don’t say that. It’s not so bad, really. I mean … it’s only once a month.’ ‘My parents call it my time of the month.’ 122 He chuckled and threw me a dazzling smile. He was still handsome despite the filth. ‘I’m glad you were there when I woke up,’ I said softly. ‘I wouldn’t have known what to do otherwise. I probably would have walked downhill until I found a road, and flagged down a motorist.’ ‘Naked?’ he asked with raised eyebrows. ‘What choice would I have?’ I asked. ‘That’s a quick way to get molested,’ Mr. Stone said, his brow creased. ‘I’m glad I was there too.’ ‘Do you think we found each other whilst we were … changed?’ I asked. ‘I’m sure of it,’ he smiled. ‘I suppose we were drawn together.’ Suddenly, a horrible possibility dawned upon me. ‘You don’t think we … you know…’ I said, my eyes wide. ‘What?’ He frowned, seeing my panicked expression. ‘You don’t think we behaved as animals would in nature?’ I implied. ‘You know, animal instinct and all that?’ ‘Oh … OH!’ Mr. Stone swerved the car a little, before collecting himself. ‘No … I don’t think so.’ ‘How can you be sure?’ I asked. Mr. Stone inhaled deeply, and I knew he was testing my scent, which made me uncomfortable. ‘I just know.’ ‘You mean I’m not on heat?’ I said, my tone mocking. ‘Don’t say it like that,’ he sighed. ‘You know what I mean.’ I chuckled. Of course I wasn’t offended. I was glad I finally had someone to talk to about my illness. We drove for half an hour until we were back in Halfway. The dashboard indicated that it was six o’clock in the morning. 123 ‘Wow,’ I muttered. ‘I traveled a long way.’ ‘We can run faster when in our alternate form,’ he said. The way Mr. Stone spoke of his affliction seemed as though he had come to terms with the monthly events that plagued his life. I, on the other hand tried my best not to think about it, and completely disconnected myself from the thing that I became once a month. I suppose that was the difference between us; he had embraced it. Perhaps he’d been dealing with it a lot longer than I. ‘My muscles ache,’ I said. ‘I usually have a nice soak in the bath after a full moon,’ he replied. ‘I suppose you want me to drop you off at home so you can clean up?’ I shook my head quickly. ‘No!’ Mr. Stone stared. I didn’t want to say it out loud, but I was ecstatic that we shared this secret together. Our monthly affliction would be my ticket to Mr. Stone’s affections. How could he deny me when we were so clearly meant to be together? As a pack. ‘It’s just … there’s so much I want to talk about. Can we go to your place? Please?’ I asked. Any excuse to be with him would do. Mr. Stone nodded. ‘All right. But … won’t your parents wonder where you are?’ I scoffed and folded my arms across my chest. ‘They probably haven’t even noticed I’m gone. After all, they didn’t even remember what day it was.’ ‘I’m sure they have a good reason,’ he said. ‘You don’t know them,’ I looked out of my window. ‘I wish I could do something to help,’ he said, gripping the steering wheel tightly. ‘You already have.’ 124 As we pulled into Mr. Stone’s driveway I had a great feeling of anticipation bubbling away in the depths of my stomach. I followed him to the front door, still wrapped in my blanket, and Mr. Stone was still wearing his jeans. If anyone saw us, we’d look quite the pair. Anyone would think we’d spent the night together, which, I reminded myself; we probably had. Once the door was open I stepped over the threshold, trying my best not to drop mud over the carpet. I turned back to Mr. Stone, feeling rather anxious as I shrugged the blanket from around my shoulders. He took it from me and threw it into a corner to be washed. I stared at his chest as he did this, my mind fuzzy. He wasn’t a hairy man by any means; the curls on his chest were light and trailed towards his navel. He was pale, but fit. Mr. Stone must have noticed my lingering gaze, because he crossed his arms over his chest, seemingly self-conscious. ‘Erm … would you like to take a shower?’ he asked. ‘Together?’ I said, without thinking. I cringed internally. ‘As much as I’d like-’ Mr. Stone cleared his throat nervously, ‘Uh, no. By yourself.’ ‘Right, yeah,’ I gave my head a little shake. ‘Good.’ ‘There are towels in the bathroom,’ he said, leading me down the hall. The bathroom was extremely dated; it felt like I’d stepped into the seventies. Locking the door behind myself, I stripped off Mr. Stone’s shirt and stepped into the shower. 125 I turned the water on so it was extremely hot, but it felt amazing. I looked at my feet as the dirt made the water turn brown. Leaves fell out of my hair and clogged the drain. A razor sat in the soap dish so I grabbed it and quickly shaved under my arms, and legs. Once I was squeaky clean I turned off the faucet and stepped out, wrapping a fluffy white towel around my body, and another one around my head. Steam issued off my skin from the heat of the shower. A knock came on the door. ‘Yes?’ ‘Rose, I’ve left some clean clothes outside the bathroom door,’ Mr. Stone called. ‘I think they will fit you. They’re too small for me, anyway.’ I reached for the door handle and unlocked it, pulling it open. Instinctively, Mr. Stone averted his eyes for my own benefit. I chuckled. ‘It’s fine,’ I said. ‘I’m covered.’ He turned to look at me, his eyes traveling over my wet skin. Chewing on his lip, he thrust the clothes into my arms. ‘There,’ he said, taking a step back. ‘You can get dressed in my room if you want.’ ‘Thank you, Mr. Stone,’ I said, stepping around him. ‘I think we’re beyond formalities, Rose,’ he said. I grinned at him over my shoulder. ‘Tom,’ I corrected myself. 126 Chapter Thirteen Once I was inside Mr. Stone’s bedroom I closed the door and listened to the sound of him showering. Positive that I wouldn’t be caught, I began to walk around his bedroom, inspecting the items on his dresser. I sniffed his cologne but I didn’t like it. I much preferred his natural scent. Other items on the surface included an old silver-plated fob watch with someone else’s initials graved into the back, and his wallet. Checking to make sure the shower was still running, I opened the top drawer of his dresser and peered inside. I wasn’t usually one to snoop, but I wanted to know everything about Tom. There was nothing out of the ordinary here; socks and boxer-briefs. I moved some of the socks aside to find an unopened box of condoms, but that wasn’t what caught my eye. A small velvet ring-box was stowed at the back of the drawer. I reached in, picked it up and opened it without hesitation. A petite diamond engagement ring was nestled inside. Hadn’t he mentioned before that he’d been engaged once? I’d never found out what had happened. Perhaps his fiancé had discovered his secret. I heard the shower turn off in the bathroom so I quickly stuffed the ring-box back inside and closed the drawer. I sat on the edge of Tom’s bed and rubbed my hair dry with the towel, watching myself in the full-length mirror opposite while Mr. Stone was in the bathroom. 127 Part of me considered shedding the towel and staying naked until he walked into the room. Would he stare at me like he had in the forest? Or would he ask me to cover up and leave? I was conflicted, and knew he would be too. Mr. Stone was attracted to me; he’d confessed it. But he was still in two minds about it. His logical mind reminded him that he was my teacher, and had to respect the boundaries. On the other hand, however, we were drawn to one another because of animal instinct. Who else could be perfect for him, if not another of the same species? By the sounds of it, I was the only female of my kind within miles. I heard Mr. Stone exit the bathroom and walk across the hall. He rapped his knuckles on the bedroom door quietly. ‘Are you decent?’ he asked. ‘Yes,’ I lied. Mr. Stone opened the door wearing nothing but a towel, which was wrapped loosely around his waist, showing his pelvis. I stared at his perfection; his dusty brown hair was combed back, and water glistened on his chest. I could even see the thicket of curls above his pubic region. If the towel was a few inches lower … He paused in the doorway. ‘You’re not dressed yet.’ I shook my head. ‘No, I’m not.’ ‘Didn’t the clothes fit?’ I shrugged. ‘I haven’t tried them yet.’ He rested his weight on the door handle, looking out of place in his own home. ‘You’re doing this on purpose, aren’t you?’ he asked. ‘Yes,’ I replied. ‘Aren’t you?’ ‘What?’ I nodded towards the loose towel, and he quickly grabbed the hem and pulled it higher. I smiled. 128 ‘You’re still fighting it,’ I said. He stared at me, and I expected Mr. Stone to deny it. To my surprise, however, he nodded. ‘Why?’ I asked. ‘You’re seventeen,’ he said. ‘I’m eighteen in a couple of months.’ He shook his head and looked at the ground. ‘Still a child.’ ‘I haven’t been a child since I was attacked,’ I said. ‘In dog years I’m one-hundred and nineteen.’ ‘That makes me two-hundred and twenty-four.’ We both laughed, and my heart fluttered at the sight of those creases beside his eyes. ‘Maybe … when you are eighteen,’ Mr. Stone said, walking across the room, ‘When I am not your teacher, and you are an adult-’ ‘I’m an adult now,’ I said, standing up from the bed to meet him in the middle of the room. ‘I thought we’d got past this student, teacher thing in the light of the new … information about each other.’ We stood a few feet apart from each other, but it felt like miles. ‘Rose,’ he said, staring at me with sympathetic eyes. ‘You know how much I adore you. You have no idea how much it hurt me to say those things … to send you away. I did it to protect you from what I really was. Befriending a werewolf is extremely dangerous,’ he said. ‘We are prone to bouts of anger. You know that.’ ‘So … you want me?’ Mr. Stone’s mouth twitched, and his nostrils flared. I had him backed into a corner. ‘I want you. Very much.’ ‘That’s all I wanted to know,’ I said. 129 I dropped the towel that was wrapped around my body, letting it fall to the floor in a heap around my feet. Mr. Stone stopped talking immediately and stared at me with his mouth hanging slightly open. Raising his fist, he covered his mouth. I could see his jaw tense, and the muscles in his neck pop. I could see my reflection in the mirror. I wasn’t a stick-thin girl by any means. I had meat on my bones, and I was okay with that. ‘Curvy’ was the word. I was embarrassed, and self-conscious; no one had seen my body in its entirety before. ‘You’re beautiful,’ he said, dropping his arms to his sides. ‘Please … you don’t need to do this.’ He bent down and picked the towel up and pushed it into my hands. ‘No.’ I threw the towel into the corner of the room. Mr. Stone closed his eyes and clenched his hands into fists. ‘What do you want?’ he asked. ‘You,’ I said. ‘I want you.’ He gulped, and I watched his Adam’s apple jump in his throat. He tried very hard not to look at me but it was difficult when I was standing right under his nose. It was cold in his bedroom, and my nipples were stiff due to arousal. The bulge underneath his towel was all too obvious. ‘You’re the only one who understands,’ I said, reaching for his hand and placing it over my ribs. He looked down and ran his thumb over the raised scars that were mere inches from my breast. They formed a crescent moon along my ribs where the beast’s jaws had clamped down upon my body. At the same time I raised my own hand and traced the scars across Mr. Stone’s chest. ‘We’re the same,’ he agreed, touching my marks like he’d done in the car on the way here. 130 Slowly, and ever so gently, Mr. Stone’s touch became firmer, and he held me by the waist, drawing me closer. This is it, I thought to myself. Now is the time. He encircled me in his arms until I could feel his warmth and hear his heartbeat. My naked breasts pressed against his stomach as I wrapped my arms around his neck and stared into those green eyes. ‘Are you real?’ he asked softly, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. I nodded, unable to speak. Mr. Stone cupped my face in his hands. His skin burned white-hot against my own, making my head spin. ‘Rose,’ he sighed, his warm breath cascading over my face. I couldn’t take it anymore. I needed him. I went onto my toes and kissed his mouth softly and slowly. Mr. Stone enveloped me in his arms and kissed me with such enthusiasm that I was momentarily lifted from the ground. I smiled into the kiss, and he chuckled. ‘Where have you been all my life?’ he murmured against my lips. How cheesy, I thought. Like a romance movie. ‘Well I wasn’t born for the first fifteen years of it,’ I laughed. This was apparently the wrong thing to say. Mr. Stone groaned and relinquished his hold on me. ‘Oh, Rose. You’re right.’ ‘No, no,’ I said, panicked, trying to keep him close. ‘I was only joking. I’m sorry.’ He sighed and unhooked my wrists from around his neck before backing away and sitting on the edge of his bed. Embarrassed, I grabbed the towel from the corner and covered myself up. 131 ‘No, I’m sorry,’ he moaned, placing his face in his hands. ‘What am I doing? I can’t allow myself to be a slave to natural instinct.’ I was frustrated with myself. What a stupid thing to say to him, I thought. Sitting next to him on the bed, I turned to face him. ‘Kiss me,’ I said to him, my stare unwavering. ‘Please.’ His expression was stony, and it made my heart freeze. Finally, he caved and he pressed his lips to my mouth, his bottom lip overlapping mine. It was as if he couldn’t resist my instructions. He was a slave. I held the sides of his face as he kissed me, and he ran a hand along my thigh, feeling the scars that were like brail upon my skin. He was reading the story of my life. I pushed my tongue past his lips, invading his mouth, but he accepted it willingly. Our tongues met and intertwined as his hand slipped under my towel and he gripped my hip tightly. I couldn’t help but let a moan escape my mouth as we kissed. My body was burning for him; I’d never felt anything like it before. The warmth spread from my toes to my loins, stirring an unfamiliar sensation within my stomach. Far more experienced than I, Mr. Stone pressed the weight of his body against me and laid me upon his bed, my wet hair sprawled underneath my head. He covered my body with his own, like a blanket keeping me warm and safe. I gasped, my eyes wide, when I felt his arousal pressing against my stomach - a rigid rod between our bodies. ‘I’m sorry,’ he breathed, looking down at me, his neatly combed hair now in disarray. 132 I shook my head. ‘It’s okay,’ I said. ‘I just … didn’t expect…’ ‘Would you like to stop?’ he asked. I shook my head; I’d never been so sure about anything in my life. He kissed me again, softer this time and I groaned against his mouth, arching my back so my body pressed against his. Mr. Stone’s lips moved from my mouth and traced the line of my jaw. My breath came out in short gasps as his teeth found my earlobe, taking the flesh and pulling gently. ‘I-I want-’ I stuttered, unable to form coherent sentences. I wrapped myself around Mr. Stone, pulling him closer with my legs. His fist curled around the bed sheets until his knuckles turned white. ‘Stop me,’ he breathed in my ear. I could see his pulse throbbing violently in the nape of his neck. I ignored him and arched my neck, allowing him further access to my flesh. He kissed my throat and dragged his teeth along my shoulder. I didn’t want him to stop. I’d waited too long. Gently, Mr. Stone unwrapped the towel that was fastened around me, and let it fall away from my body. He stared unashamedly at my breasts, his gaze sweeping downwards. His hands slowly began to explore me with a feather light touch. I responded in a strange, animalistic way that I’d never experience before. I allowed a soft purr to leave my lips as if he was taming the beast inside me. 133 I looked up at his soft face and saw the restraint in his eyes; he was holding back for my sake. He leaned closer, our lips an inch apart. The anticipation was more erotic than the act itself, but finally Mr. Stone’s mouth came down in a warm, lingering kiss. My fingers thread through his hair as I inhaled the smell of his skin, fresh after the shower. We breathed as one as his fingertips traced along my neck, before he gently encircled my throat. Carefully, he moved my head back to expose the length of my neck where he brushed his lips. As his mouth explored, his hand caressed my stomach with a delicate touch, leaving me trembling beneath him. My breath stuttered across my lips. ‘T-Tom,’ I whispered, delirious with desire. I felt like a woman in his arms, not a girl. He cupped my breast, his palm brushing over my erect nipple. I shuddered beneath him, his slightest touch sending waves of pleasure trembling through my body. I couldn’t help but whine piteously as he tortured me with his light touch. ‘Oh, sweetheart,’ he chuckled as his lips moved to my earlobe. Sweetheart. I loved the way he said it. I was utterly and completely his. The noises I made seemed to spur him on. Mr. Stone gently suckled on my earlobe, his warm breath washing over me. I could feel his throbbing erection through the towel that was still around his waist, pressing against my pelvis. Did I dare remove it? I feared the wrong move would put an end to our intimacy. 134 Then, Mr. Stone raised himself onto his hands and towered above me, staring down at my body and drinking it all in. His gaze was admiring, and I felt my cheeks flush pink. As his eyes roamed over my body, everything inside me screamed with desire. ‘Oh, Rose,’ he exhaled. ‘Please ask me to stop.’ ‘Do you want to?’ I asked. He shook his head slowly. I asked myself the same question; did I want to stop? Absolutely not. But was I ready to go the whole way with Mr. Stone? With a shaking hand I curled my fingers around the edge of his towel, pulling it loose. Mr. Stone watched me with tortured eyes, his teeth biting into his bottom lip. ‘Are you sure?’ he asked. I answered his question by letting it fall away. I averted my eyes, embarrassed to look at him. ‘It’s all right,’ he said. I looked down at his manhood; it was the first time I’d ever seen an erect penis before. I wanted to touch it, but I was scared. It stood between our bodies, strong and rigid. I reached towards him and ran my fingers along the shaft with a shaking hand. Mr. Stone closed his eyes and made a low guttural noise, like a growl. To my surprise the skin was silky like velvet. ‘It’s smooth,’ I murmured, closing my hand around the width of it. ‘Is it just?’ his voice shivered across his lips. I nodded, feeling rather childish. 135 It was blazing hot against my cool skin, and I could feel it twitch as though impatient. Unsure, I began to massage it back and forth in my palm. It must have been the right thing to do, as Mr. Stone’s lips found mine again, in an eager kiss. ‘Oh, you pearl,’ he chuckled against my mouth. He allowed me to touch him for a few moments, before he began to trail his lips down my body so I could no longer reach his manhood. He brushed his kisses over my stomach, savoring every inch of my pearlescent skin. I could feel him getting gradually lower, and it made my stomach churn with nerves. I inhaled sharply when Mr. Stone slipped his hand between my thighs and parted my knees so he could gaze upon my flesh. I was exposed like I’d never been before, on display for his pleasure. ‘You sweet girl,’ he crooned, absorbing every detail of my most private area. ‘You gem.’ ‘Don’t stare,’ I squeaked, making a lame attempt to cover my womanhood. ‘It’s embarrassing.’ ‘You’re beautiful,’ he said, a smirk playing his lips. For a moment I thought I saw a flash of the animal behind his eyes, but it quickly vanished. I looked down at him, his face mere inches from my womanhood. I knew what he was going to do, and it terrified me, but I also wanted it more than anything. I curled my fingers around his hair; the anticipation was almost too much to bear. ‘I want you,’ I breathed, the blush creeping up my neck. He obeyed me, and gently cupped my womanhood with his hand. He could feel how damp I’d become already; the heat radiated from my sex. ‘You’re so wet, Rose,’ he said approvingly. ‘It’s your fault,’ I accused. 136 A shiver ran down my spine as his searching fingers slipped between my folds. With just a slight brush my hips moved upward, begging him for more. He paused for a moment, enjoying the control he had over me. I ached for him. Mr. Stone was going agonizingly slow on purpose. Slowly he began to massage me, his hand cupping my mound firmly, causing my body to burn with desire. I tried to grind against his hand, prompting him to go faster, but he resisted. I allowed my thoughts to slip away until the passion began to overflow, and I was trembling with pleasure. Lowering his mouth to my warmth, he kissed me there, allowing his tongue to dart out and taste me. He groaned, his free hand gripping my hip tightly. ‘God, you’re so sweet, Rose.’ I blushed furiously and writhed against the bed. ‘What are you doing to me?’ I hissed through clenched teeth. I was going mad. Mr. Stone let his tongue part me as he searched for the sensitive, swollen bud. My breathing became sharper, and my toes curled around the bed sheets as the pleasure engulfed my body. The sensation was building as his tongue explored my sex. I trembled beneath him, my fingers threading through his hair as I bucked to meet his mouth. I squirmed and moaned his name, begging for more. My hands on the back of his head, I pushed him downwards, desperately seeking more pressure. I cried out as I reached the point of no return; my mind flooded, washing away every thought until I was left blissfully unaware of my surroundings. Wave after wave of pleasure crashed over me, and I lost control of my mind and body. 137 Mr. Stone held me tightly as the orgasm rocketed through me, reaching my toes and fingers. I felt like I was imploding; I’d never experienced anything like it before. As the orgasm receded, my eyes searched for him, unfocussed and wanting. I was breathless, speechless, and extraordinarily weak from the intensity of the pleasure he had bestowed upon me. ‘T-T-T-’ I stuttered fiercely as the aftershock lingered over me, sending convulsions through my body. ‘Tom … Oh, god.’ Mr. Stone crawled back up my body to meet me, a triumphant smile on his face. He lay beside me and enveloped me in his arms so I was nestled in the crook of his neck. ‘You incredible girl,’ he murmured, holding me tight. ‘I’ve never. Fuck. Never had. Never felt. God.’ I couldn’t find the words. He chuckled, and I could feel him exhale against my hair. ‘It seems you enjoyed that, my love.’ My love. The words made my head spin. ‘Well, aren’t you smug?’ I teased, nuzzling against his neck. Mr. Stone tilted my chin upwards and kissed my lips softly. I could taste myself upon his mouth, but it was not unpleasant. I wanted to stay here, forever. 138 Chapter Fourteen It was not meant to be, not at that moment, anyway. The phone in his kitchen rang loudly, breaking the illusion of a world in which only the two of us existed. Mr. Stone gave an exaggerated sigh. ‘Typical,’ he muttered as he began to get up from the bed. ‘Don’t answer it,’ I groaned, reaching for him. ‘It might be work,’ he said, jumping up. Reality shifted into place. ‘Work?’ I repeated. ‘You’re going to school today? The morning after an episode?’ Mr. Stone laughed as he quickly pulled on a pair of boxer-briefs, followed by jeans. ‘You’re cute, Rose.’ I huffed, pulling the towel over my body. ‘Why?’ ‘You avoid describing what you really are.’ He was referring to my refusal to say, or even think that horrible ‘W’ word. The phone continued to ring. ‘Don’t answer it,’ I begged. ‘You need to recover after last night.’ It was true; despite the overwhelming happiness I felt about the current situation, there was no denying the fact that I was exhausted. ‘They’ll just call my cell phone if I don’t answer,’ he said, walking towards the door and opening it. I sulked as Mr. Stone hurried to answer his homephone, and tried very hard to listen to the conversation, but only caught a few words. ‘Mm … yeah, I can. Sure. No, no, it’s no problem. Okay, see you soon.’ By the time he returned I was nestled amongst the blankets of his bed. ‘Well, don’t you look comfortable,’ he said with a smile. 139 ‘You’re going to work, aren’t you?’ I asked, checking the clock on his bedside table, which read eight o’clock in the morning. School started in half an hour. ‘They can’t find a substitute,’ he replied, opening the second drawer of his dresser and pulling out a longsleeved shirt with a pin-stripe pattern. I watched Mr. Stone get dressed in his usual quirky attire; today’s outfit included a bow tie, and a tweed suit-jacket with leather patches on the elbows. I couldn’t help but feel slightly abandoned. Our intimacy had ended so abruptly with a phone call, and I was feeling bitter about it. ‘I can drop you home on the way to work, assuming you’re not going to school today,’ he said, straightening his bow tie. ‘I never go the day after an episode,’ I said. ‘Everything aches.’ ‘Me too,’ he replied, spraying some cologne on his neck. ‘You act like it’s no big deal … what we go through,’ I said, picking at a loose thread on the blanket. ‘There’s nothing we can do about it, Rose, so we might as well learn to live with it.’ I wanted to make him stay, but wasn’t sure what card I should play to guilt-trip him. ‘So that’s it? Love me and leave me?’ I asked. Bingo. He turned to me, his expression soft. ‘Oh, no, my sweet. You know it’s not like that.’ ‘You’re in an awful hurry to get rid of me,’ I said, my expression miserable. Mr. Stone crossed the room and slid into the bed next to me. ‘I’m sorry,’ he whispered, kissing me softly. ‘You know I’d like to stay here with you and finish what we started.’ 140 ‘So why don’t you?’ I asked, tugging his bow tie loose. ‘I don’t want to go home.’ ‘Your parents will be worried about you,’ he sighed, kissing my forehead. ‘And I can’t have anyone spotting you in my house.’ He was right, but it didn’t make me feel any better. I felt like his dirty little secret that needed to be hidden away from sight. ‘Can I see you tonight?’ I asked. ‘We’ll see,’ he said. ‘We should both get an early night.’ Frustrated, I threw my legs over the side of the bed and stood up. Mr. Stone watched me as I walked across the room naked and picked up the garments he had given me to wear. I dressed silently in the second hand clothes that were far too long in the legs and arms for me, but they’d have to do until I got home. ‘All right, let’s go,’ I said, heading for the bedroom door. ‘Hang on a second,’ Mr. Stone said, jumping up from the bed and grabbing me by the arm. ‘You’re not upset with me, are you?’ I shook my head quickly and averted my gaze. ‘Rose,’ he said, his tone stern, like a teacher’s. He tilted my chin up so I was looking at him. ‘The world doesn’t stop because of our little problem. I have to work to pay the bills, and I can only do that if we remain a secret. Do you understand?’ I nodded. ‘Yes.’ He gave me a smile. ‘Good girl.’ I received a lingering kiss on the mouth before Mr. Stone took me home. 141 When I returned to my house my mother’s car was in the driveway, but my father’s was absent. I said goodbye to Tom, and walked up the garden path. My mother was at the front door before I’d even made it half way. ‘Rose!’ she cried, her cheeks stained with black teartracks. It looked like she’d been crying all night. Her makeup was smudged across her face. She watched as Mr. Stone drove away, his face shielded by sunglasses. My jaw set tight, and my eyes focused on the ground, I walked towards her, anger bubbling under the surface of my skin. My mother embraced me tightly as I reached the front door. She was still wearing her clothes from the previous day. Needless to say, she looked extremely distressed. I did not hug her back; instead my arms remained limp at my sides. ‘Oh, Rose, we were so worried! We didn’t know what had happened to you!’ My mother ushered me inside and sat me down on the sofa where she handed me a glass of milk. Looking around, I noticed that the house was in disarray. Had I done this during my transformation? Curtains were slashes, vases were broken, and the carpet was torn up. There was so much I wanted to say to my mother, but at that moment I felt it was best to ignore her. Perhaps the guilt would be too much for her to handle. ‘Your father is out right now looking for you,’ she said before gasping. ‘Oh! Goodness, I have to call him.’ She fumbled with her cell phone and speed-dialed my father. ‘Hello? Yes, she’s here! I’ve got her. She came home! I don’t know … someone dropped her off.’ 142 I heard my father’s panicked voice on the other end, but his words were indistinguishable. ‘Okay. Rose? Who brought you home?’ my mother asked, covering the receiver with her palm. I ignored her and drank my milk. Seeing that I was in no mood to talk, my mother returned to the phone. ‘No, no, ask her when you get home. She needs to eat and rest.’ My mother snapped her phone shut and looked at me, clutching her chest. I stared at her, my expression impassive. ‘I’ve been going crazy all night,’ she said, fresh tears falling down her face. ‘Your father has been driving around since the crack of dawn, trying to find you.’ I stood up from the sofa. ‘I’m going to bed,’ I said. ‘Wait! Sweetheart, please don’t be mad at us,’ my mother begged, grabbing me by the wrist. ‘It will never happen again, I promise!’ I snatched my arm away from her. ‘You said that last time, when I was twelve.’ The anger was beginning to spill over. I would not be able to contain it for long. ‘I didn’t mean. I forgot-’ she stammered. I would not take pity on her distress. ‘You weren’t there for me.’ I said. ‘I woke up naked in the forest, freezing, and filthy. And it’s your fault.’ ‘I’m sorry,’ she said, her eyes wide. ‘You’re just lucky I found someone nice enough to take care of me,’ I said, glaring at her. ‘Who?’ my mother asked, her gaze falling upon the ill fitting clothes for the first time. ‘Who found you?’ My nostrils flared. Did I dare tell her the truth; that there was another like me out there? No. I wanted to keep that bit of information to myself. 143 ‘A hiker,’ I lied. ‘He found me beside a decapitated deer’s head. ‘He let me shower at his house, and gave me these clothes.’ I plucked the collar of the shirt I was wearing. ‘Sweetheart, that was very dangerous! He could have been a rapist! Imagine finding a young, naked girl in the woods! He probably though you were hopped up on drugs! Accepting a ride home with a complete stranger is very irresponsible. Something could have happened to you-’ I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. ‘Something could have happened to me?’ I repeated, aghast. ‘Mom, something did happen to me! And you weren’t there to prevent it!’ ‘I didn’t mean – I had to work late, and I lost track of time-’ ‘You mean you were fucking your co-workers?’ I yelled at her. She slapped me. Hard. Shocked, even by her own reaction, my mother clapped her hands over her mouth and stared at me with wide eyes. ‘Oh, Rose, I’m so sorry-’ I held up a hand to silence her. ‘Save it,’ I said. ‘You’re mad if you think I’m going to live with irresponsible parents like you and Dad.’ ‘You need us to take care of you every month,’ my mother said. ‘No, Mom,’ I said. ‘I need you to take care of me all of the time.’ And with that I went to my bedroom and locked the door behind myself. Rummaging through my wardrobe I quickly found a sports bag I’d never used. I put it on my bed and began to throw various clothes into it. 144 ‘Rose?’ my mother rapped her knuckles on my door. ‘I think we need to talk about what you said.’ ‘Go away,’ I demanded, stuffing a pile of underwear into the bag. ‘What are you doing in there?’ she asked, trying to doorknob. ‘Open the door.’ ‘Fuck off!’ I yelled, throwing t-shirts and jeans into the sports-bag. ‘Don’t talk to me like that, Rose!’ my mother yelled, furiously trying to open the door. ‘Wait until your father gets home!’ ‘I won’t be here!’ I bellowed, zipping up the bag and grabbing my cell phone. I unlocked the door and wrenched it open. My mother stared at me for a moment before noticing the large bag in my hand. ‘What are you doing?’ he demanded. ‘I’m leaving,’ I said, pushing past her. ‘You most certainly are not,’ she said, following me down the hall. ‘You don’t have a car.’ ‘I’ll walk,’ I said. ‘I traveled miles last night.’ ‘Where are you going to go?’ my mother demanded. ‘We don’t have any family nearby, and you certainly don’t have any friends.’ ‘I’ll be a lot better off without you,’ I hissed, reaching the front door. ‘You’re acting childish!’ my mother said. Of course I was acting childish; I knew that. I ignored her and hurried along the garden path. My mother bellowed at me. ‘You’ll be back within a couple of hours,’ she said. 145 I marched away from the house, with my mother screaming at me. Neighbors poked their heads out of doors and windows, wondering what the commotion was. I ignored them all and rounded the corner so they couldn’t see me anymore. I walked for fifteen minutes, until I reached a local park, where I sat down on the swing set, my body aching. I was exhausted after the episode last night. My mother was right; I had no friends or family I could stay with. I couldn’t go to Mr. Stone’s house; he’d never allow it. Storm clouds were forming overhead, and I could hear thunder in the distance. Just my luck; of course it was going to rain. I checked my watch; it was still several hours till Tom finished work. I almost called him, but changed my mind at the last second. I called Estelle instead. The phone rang three times before Estelle picked up. ‘Mmmh? Hullo?’ ‘Sorry, Estelle. It’s Rose. Did I wake you?’ ‘Huh? Oh, yeah. It’s okay. What’s up?’ ‘Are you busy?’ She paused. ‘Uh … busy sleeping.’ ‘Besides that,’ I rolled my eyes. ‘I’ve got my shift at the café at four … but apart from that, nothing. Why? What’s wrong?’ I licked my lips nervously. ‘Estelle … do you think you can pick me up?’ ‘Oh … yeah, okay. When?’ ‘Now.’ Thunder rumbled overhead, and I shivered. ‘Now?’ she repeated. ‘Where are you?’ I looked around. ‘I’m at the park on the corner of Helena Way.’ 146 ‘I thought you were sick? What are you doing outside? It’s freezing.’ ‘I’ll explain when you get here,’ I said. ‘Please?’ ‘All right, all right.’ I heard Estelle shuffling about on the other end. ‘Give me five minutes to get dressed, and I’ll be there soon, okay?’ ‘Thank you so much,’ I breathed. ‘Yeah, yeah. See you soon.’ After Estelle hung up I began to swing back and forth on the swing-set. It took twenty minutes for her to arrive. As soon as she pulled up on the corner I jumped off the swing, grabbed my bag and ran to the car. ‘Hey,’ I said, opening the door. ‘Can you pop the trunk open?’ ‘What’s in the bag?’ she asked at once. ‘It’s all my stuff,’ I said. ‘Your stuff?’ she said with wide eyes before I ran to the back of the car and threw my bag in. ‘I thought I was just picking you up!’ ‘You are,’ I said, slamming the trunk shut before jumping into the passenger seat. ‘Why do you have all your things in it?’ Estelle asked. ‘I’m leaving home,’ I told her, closing the passenger door. ‘Leaving home? Girl, you’re only seventeen. Where are you going to go? You can’t stay at my place. I’m renting with three other girls, there’s no room-’ ‘Don’t worry,’ I said, waving a hand. ‘I’m not staying with you. I just need somewhere to hang out until Tom finishes work at four.’ ‘Tom?’ she repeated. ‘That teacher?’ I nodded, and Estelle stared at me, a weary look in her eyes. 147 ‘Are you sure that’s a good idea?’ she asked cautiously. I sighed exasperatedly. ‘Can you please let me hang out at your place until four?’ Estelle sighed. ‘All right … but I don’t agree with this.’ My phone was ringing off the hook the entire day. My mother and father left over thirty voice messages, and fifty text messages. I ignored them all. I’d had enough of their superficial life, and wanted nothing to do with it. Mr. Stone was the only real person in my life at the moment. He’d help me; I knew it. I tried calling him during the lunch hour at school, but he didn’t pick up his phone. Understandable, I thought. Maybe he keeps it off during school hours. I decided to leave him a voice message to listen to when he finished work. ‘Um … hey, it’s me, Rose. I need a favor … can we meet tonight? I won’t be at home, so if you can pick me up at Estelle’s place I would really appreciate it.’ I left her address for him before hanging up. Hopefully he would call me back as soon as he finished work. It was an uncomfortable few hours at Estelle’s little house. Many people visited through out the day, including sleaze-bag Spider, who didn’t seem to recognize me as that woman-dressed-in-red at the house party. True, I looked a mess; my hair was frizzy and my clothes (or rather, Mr. Stone’s) didn’t fit. ‘Oh, it’s you,’ said Spider when he realized who I was. ‘What are you doing here?’ ‘She won’t be here long, and neither will you,’ said Estelle, who was getting ready for her shift at the café. It was three o’clock; the time Mr. Stone would finish work at school. I was anxiously waiting for him to call me back. 148 Estelle and Spider retreated into the kitchen together while I sat in the living room watching awful television shows. I could hear every word they were saying. ‘You got the stuff?’ Spider muttered. ‘Yeah.’ There was much rustling and shuffling about. ‘Four ounces.’ I could hear a plastic bag being shaken, and the rifling of money. Was I really hearing a drug exchange? I knew Estelle smoked weed every now and then; there was a huge glass bong on her bookshelf, but I had no idea she sold the stuff. Did she grow it too? ‘Great. Hey, what’s with the kid? Is she buying too?’ ‘No,’ Estelle replied. ‘She’s doing the teen thing and leaving home.’ Spider chuckled. ‘She can stay with me if she likes.’ Estelle made a disgusted noise. ‘Ugh. You idiot.’ At that moment my phone began to vibrate, making me jump. I had been so absorbed in eavesdropping; I’d forgotten that I was expecting a call. At first I thought it would be my parents again, but I was ecstatic to see that it was Tom. I answered it almost immediately. ‘Hello!’ I said, far too breathlessly. ‘Hey, what’s going on? You sounded upset in your voice message.’ ‘Yeah … um … are you able to pick me up?’ ‘I’ve got a lot of homework to grade,’ he said slowly. For a moment I feared he was going to say no. ‘Please?’ I asked, my voice breaking. ‘It’s urgent.’ He seemed to sense the desperation in my voice, because he agreed. ‘Okay, okay. I’ll pick you up on my way home.’ ‘Thank you,’ I said. ‘See you soon.’ 149 ‘I … yeah. See you.’ I’d almost said I love you before hanging up the phone, as a reflex. What a disaster that would have been. Just as my phone call ended, Estelle and Spider emerged from the kitchen. ‘Hey, kid,’ Spider said, standing in front of the television and watching me. ‘Hey, you,’ I smirked. I had not forgotten the move he had played on me at the party. ‘How’s your face?’ Spider glared. ‘I had a black eye for days. You can tell your friend that if I run into him, I’ll return the favor. I chuckled. ‘Stick around, tough guy. He’ll be here to pick me up soon.’ ‘Maybe I will-’ ‘All right, all right,’ Estelle said, shoving Spider towards the door. ‘Get out of here.’ ‘Bye Spider,’ I said with a laugh, waving at him. He scowled as he was marched from the room. Once he was gone, Estelle came and sat by me on the sofa. ‘Why are you hanging out with this teacher so much?’ she asked. I shrugged. ‘He’s a nice guy … he’s my friend.’ ‘Is that all?’ Estelle asked, her dark eyes searching mine. I wanted to talk about my complicated relationship with Mr. Stone so desperately, but I worried that no one would understand. After all, he’d asked me to keep it a secret. ‘Yes, that’s it.’ I lied. ‘A completely plutonic friendship.’ 150 Chapter Fifteen Estelle went to get changed into her work uniform while I remained in the sitting room, eagerly awaiting Tom’s arrival. I jumped up from the sofa when I heard a car horn sound on the street. Peering through the window, I was ecstatic to see Mr. Stone waiting for me. ‘He’s here, Estelle!’ I bellowed, running across the living room and grabbing my bag. Estelle hurried into the room and peered through the window too. ‘Gosh, he is adorable,’ she said. ‘Thanks for letting me hang out here,’ I said. ‘I’ll see you at work on Monday, okay?’ ‘Okay. Be careful!’ I agreed and quickly left her house, towing my heavy bag along with me. When Mr. Stone saw me carrying it, he jumped out of the car to help. ‘What’s all this?’ he asked, meeting me halfway up the drive. ‘I’ll explain everything in the car,’ I said as he took the bag and carried it for me. ‘Thanks.’ I went onto my toes to kiss his cheek, but he leaned away, his expression apologetic. ‘It’s heavy,’ he said in an attempt to take control of the conversation. ‘What’s in here? Potatoes?’ ‘Something like that,’ I smiled. I let Mr. Stone carry the bag to his car where he placed it in the back seat as I buckled myself in. I waved goodbye to Estelle who was watching us from her sitting room window. ‘How was work?’ I asked as Mr. Stone slid into the driver seat. ‘A nightmare,’ he sighed wearily. ‘I’m exhausted.’ 151 He did look extremely tired; large, dark circles were under his eyes. ‘Me too,’ I said, reaching over to take his hand. I couldn’t be sure if he did it on purpose, by he slid his hand out of the way before I managed to touch it. ‘Let’s go,’ he said, and together we rumbled down the street. ‘I missed you,’ I said, watching him for a response. He scoffed. ‘It’s only been a few hours, Rose.’ ‘I know.’ I felt foolish. ‘So what’s with the bag?’ he asked. ‘It’s all my stuff,’ I said. ‘All your stuff?’ Mr. Stone raised an eyebrow. ‘You going somewhere?’ ‘I can’t stay with my parents anymore, so I left.’ Mr. Stone swerved the car, narrowly missing another vehicle in the opposite lane. ‘You what?’ I scratched the back of my head nervously. ‘Um, yeah. I thought … I could-’ ‘You thought you could stay with me?’ he asked. ‘I’ve got nowhere else to go,’ I said, with wide eyes. ‘My parents don’t have time for a – a - a … werewolf daughter. I want to stay with you, and be free when the full moon comes. We can be together, like a – a -’ ‘Like a pack?’ he finished my sentence for me. I nodded. ‘Don’t you want that?’ He sighed, exasperated. ‘Of course, Rose. I’ve wanted to share this with someone for many years now … but you have to go home to your parents. At least until you’re eighteen.’ I knew he was right, but refused to admit it. Mr. Stone saw my watery eyes and caved at once. ‘I’m sorry,’ he said, reaching over and holding my hand. 152 ‘Can’t I stay, just for a couple of nights? Until things at home mellow out?’ He appeared to be considering it. ‘One night,’ he bargained. ‘That’s all, and then you can go home to your parents.’ ‘Okay,’ I agreed, thinking that I could try and extend the stay in the morning. Mr. Stone drove me to his house, looking extremely paranoid. He was afraid we were going to be caught. I told him numerous times not to worry, that no one would pay us any attention. This did little to calm his nerves. Mr. Stone carried my bag into his bedroom and placed it at the foot of the bed. ‘I don’t have a spare bedroom,’ he told me. ‘So you … uh … you can sleep here if you like.’ I nodded. ‘I’ll sleep on the couch if you want me to,’ he said, rocking on the balls of his feet. ‘No,’ I said. ‘We can share.’ He smiled, and finally embraced me in his arms now that we were in the privacy of his home. ‘I’m sorry,’ he sighed against my hair. ‘I wish there was more I could do. It's just so difficult. If I could have it my way, you’d never leave.’ ‘Really?’ I asked, pulling away and looking up at him. ‘Of course,’ he said with a charming smile. ‘Don’t you know I adore you?’ ‘I worry sometimes,’ I admitted. Mr. Stone’s hot and cold attitude towards our relationship was extremely confusing. ‘Let’s run away.’ He smirked. ‘And where would we go?’ I shrugged. ‘Anywhere.’ 153 He laughed. ‘Shall we live in the woods, naked and free?’ I slapped him playfully. ‘I’m serious.’ Chuckling, Mr. Stone released me. ‘We can do as we please when you are eighteen,’ he said. My eighteenth birthday was two months away; too far for my liking. ‘What do we do until then?’ I asked. Mr. Stone reached out and stroked my hair affectionately. ‘We be extremely careful.’ ‘Does that mean you want to be with me?’ I asked hopefully. He smiled warmly, his green eyes creased at the sides. ‘I want to be with you very much, Rose.’ I smiled widely. ‘As – as my boyfriend?’ Mr. Stone smiled. ‘Are you asking me to be your boyfriend?’ I hadn’t meant for it to sound that way. I shrugged. ‘Maybe.’ He laughed at my discomfort. ‘No, not as your boyfriend.’ How cruel of him to laugh at my feelings. I was about to retort when he pressed a finger to my lips. ‘As your mate,’ he whispered. My knees almost gave way. My pack mate. ‘But,’ he began, and I felt my heart drop. There was a but. ‘But what?’ ‘But … please do not get any ridiculous notions in your head about the traditional roles of a boyfriend. We can’t go on dates together, and we can’t be seen in public.’ ‘I know,’ I grumbled. 154 Mr. Stone cupped my chin in his hand and tilted my head upwards so he could kiss me. I kissed him back longingly, wrapping my arms around his neck. He snaked his hands around my waist and pulled me close. My skin tingled as it had that morning. To my dismay, Mr. Stone pulled away reluctantly. ‘Now, now. I can’t afford any distractions, little miss. I’ve got an awful lot of work to do.’ I sighed and slid my arms from around him. ‘Need help?’ He laughed. ‘And have you giving F’s to all the people you don’t like? I don’t think so.’ ‘Well, how about I make you dinner?’ Mr. Stone raised his eyebrows. ‘Hm … All right. Deal.’ Two hours later and Mr. Stone was pushing his food around the plate. ‘Interesting, um … flavor,’ he said, chewing slowly. I had failed miserably in my cooking attempts. ‘Sorry,’ I muttered. ‘I don’t really cook that much. I probably should have mentioned it before.’ ‘It’s fine,’ he said, braving another mouthful. ‘It’s been a while since I had a home cooked meal.’ I wolfed down my own meal; I was starving, as I hadn’t eaten all day. That deer was probably the last thing I ate. We sat on the floor in his living room, as he didn’t have a dining table. I rested my plate on the coffee table while Mr. Stone tried to grade numerous papers on his lap. By six o’clock in the evening I was ready for bed; the previous night had drained me, and I would have no trouble sleeping for twelve hours straight. Tom agreed, and together we retired to his bedroom. 155 ‘I hope you don’t mind if I sleep in my boxers,’ he said, pulling his shirt over his head and revealing his torso. I smiled and began to pull off my own clothes for his amusement. ‘I hope you don’t mind.’ ‘Hmm? What do you wear to bed?’ he asked, eying my body approvingly. ‘Nothing,’ I smiled. Mr. Stone growled and tackled me onto the bed, where he kissed me fiercely. I squealed as he nuzzled my neck. We rolled around on the bed, kissing and laughing like real lovers would. It didn’t progress any further than that; we were far too exhausted. I felt strange, lying in between the sheets, completely naked. I never slept naked. I had an old band t-shirt I usually wore to bed, but this was a special occasion. ‘I feel like an adult, sleeping naked,’ I murmured, trailing my fingers through his chest hair. ‘Like a-!’ he scoffed. ‘Oh dear, sweet girl. You kill me when you say things like that.’ ‘Sorry,’ I whispered. We ended up falling asleep whilst embraced in each other’s arms. 156 Friday – 28 days to go When I woke, it took a few moments for me to remember why I was so happy and comfortable. Mr. Stone’s arm was wrapped around my waist. It felt nice, being spooned by him. He grumbled in his sleep, and pulled me closer. I rolled over so I was facing him, our noses an inch apart. I kissed his mouth, his forehead and his nose until he woke up. Bleary eyed, and tousle haired, Mr. Stone blinked several times, trying to work out what was going on. ‘Good morning,’ I said brightly. He smacked his lips together. He was absolutely adorable in the morning. ‘G’morning.’ Mr. Stone stretched luxuriously before enveloping me in his arms. ‘What day is it?’ ‘Friday,’ I smiled. He groaned. ‘Ugh … work.’ I laughed. ‘Yes, but today I’ll be there!’ ‘You’re going to school today?’ he asked. I nodded. ‘Of course.’ This seemed to awaken him more. ‘Hm … I don’t think I can drive you the whole way. People might get suspicious if they see you getting out of the car with me.’ ‘You can drop me off a block or two away,’ I said. ‘Is that okay?’ ‘And after school?’ he pressed. I shrugged. ‘I thought I could come back here-’ ‘No, Rose. I said one night only.’ 157 ‘I know,’ I said quickly, sitting up so the blankets fell off me, revealing my breast. Mr. Stone’s gaze lingered on my bosom for a moment before snapping back to my eyes. ‘Sorry,’ he said. ‘I’m not used to seeing you naked.’ ‘Well … you can see it again tonight,’ I said with a sly smile. He wasn’t falling for my bait. ‘Rose … please. We must be careful. You can’t stay here.’ I sighed and flopped back down onto the pillow. ‘I don’t want to go home.’ ‘You need to talk it through with your parents. Have they called again?’ ‘I don’t know, I turned my phone off last night.’ ‘If you don’t go back they’re going to call the police.’ He was right. I groaned and pressed my face into the pillow like a child might while having a tantrum. ‘All right,’ I said, my voice muffled. ‘I’ll go home.’ ‘Before school,’ he said. ‘Before?’ I repeated, aghast. Mr. Stone nodded sternly, and I saw that old teacher behind his eyes. ‘Fine,’ I grumbled. ‘I can’t even run away from home for more than twenty-four hours.’ Mr. Stone chuckled and played with the ends of my hair. ‘Well … we’d better get ready then, my sweet.’ When I turned my cell phone back on I saw that I had one hundred and eight missed calls, forty-two text messages, and eleven voice messages. ‘Call them,’ Mr. Stone urged, watching over my shoulder. I sighed, but did as he asked. The phone rang only once before it was answered. ‘Rose?’ my mother’s panicked voice said at once. ‘Yes, it’s me.’ 158 ‘My goodness.’ She sounded relieved, not angry. ‘Where are you?’ ‘At a friends house,’ I lied. ‘You need to come home right now,’ she said. ‘I’ll pick you up. Where does your friend live?’ ‘No, no. It’s okay. I’ll, erm, I’ll get dropped off before school,’ I said, catching Mr. Stone’s eye and seeing him nod. Ten minutes later, at eight o’clock in the morning, Mr. Stone bundled me into his car with my bag, and drove me home. I wished I could stay with him longer, but I’d have to wait. Still, it wasn’t all bad. I had a boyfriend. Or rather, a mate, as Tom had put it. 159 Chapter Sixteen When Mr. Stone took me home that morning I did not want to get out of his car. ‘Will I see you this weekend?’ I asked, my hand on the door handle. ‘We’ll see,’ he smiled warmly. ‘I’ll text you.’ ‘Okay.’ I leaned over to kiss him on the mouth, but he turned his head so I connected with his cheek. Feeling awkward, I hopped out of the car, and grabbed my bag from the trunk. He sped off as soon as I’d closed the trunk. My mother and father were in the sitting room, cross-armed with sour expressions on their faces. I knew at once that I was in trouble for my little stunt. They yelled themselves hoarse at me for twenty minutes, throwing guilt-trips at me, and grounding me until the next full moon. I didn’t yell back, or attempt to defend myself at all. One thing was for certain though. I would not be leaving Halfway when they took their separate paths. ‘What has got into you?’ my mother was saying. ‘And who was that man that dropped you off? It was the same car as yesterday.’ ‘Man? What man?’ my father demanded. ‘After her episode, a man in an old car dropped her off home. That was the same car that just brought her home now.’ ‘Who is the man?’ my father rounded on me too. ‘How do you know him?’ I sighed. ‘He’s just a friend.’ Did I dare tell them that I’d found another like me? 160 ‘He looks too old to be your friend,’ said my mother. ‘He’s probably some pervert! Picking up nude school girls, left, right and centre!’ My father nodded in agreement. ‘We have every right to call the police, I think.’ ‘Did he touch you?’ my mother demanded. ‘No,’ I lied, breathing heavily through my nostrils. ‘He’s … he’s like me.’ ‘What do you mean he’s like you?’ said my father. ‘No one is like you,’ my mother added. I had to tell them. ‘He’s a werewolf,’ I said. My mother flinched as if I’d said a disgusting swear word. ‘Don’t say that word,’ she scolded me. ‘How can you be sure?’ my father asked, his eyes narrowed. ‘Because when you forgot to take care of me on the full moon, I woke up in the forest next to him.’ ‘That doesn’t prove anything!’ my mother said shrilly. ‘He’s just a pervert!’ I stood up angrily. ‘He is not. He is the same as me, and – and-’ I searched for the right words, but nothing came to mind. ‘And what if he is the monster that attacked you?’ ‘I – I … I hadn’t thought of that,’ I said, taken aback. Suddenly, I regretted telling my folks about my discovery of another like me. My mother and father pursed their lips. ‘Odds are, it was him who turned you. How many other monsters live in Halfway? That’s why it’s important for you to come to the city with me,’ said my mother. ‘No,’ I shook my head. ‘I want to stay here, with someone of my own kind.’ 161 ‘You know,’ began my mother, turning to my father. ‘When Rose first became … what she is … I did a lot of research into her illness. Do you know what I read?’ ‘What?’ my father asked. ‘I read that the affliction can be reversed if the beast that turned Rose is killed.’ ‘You mean if Rose defeats the Alpha, she’ll turn back to normal?’ I scoffed. ‘Mother, this isn’t some fairytale. Shit like that doesn’t work in real life.’ ‘It’s worth a shot,’ said my father, ignoring me completely. ‘If it fixes her ailment-’ ‘Have you gone completely mad?’ I said. ‘What a load of nonsense! Killing the Alpha. Honestly!’ ‘There has to be a way to cure you somehow, Rose. This might be the answer.’ ‘Not everything has a cure,’ I shot back. ‘Which is why we should do some more research- ‘Oh, great idea Mom. Let’s attend WerewolvesAnonymous. I’m sure they have support groups in the city every week for struggling Beta Werewolves-’ ‘Don’t. Say. That. Word,’ my mother hissed. ‘Why not? I demanded. ‘It’s what I am! Mr. Stone has no problem admitting it!’ ‘Is that his name? Stone?’ I bit my bottom lip. I’d already said too much. ‘Get the phone book,’ my mother ordered my father, who raced out of the room at once. Panic flared. Was Mr. Stone listed? ‘And what if it’s not him who turned me?’ I asked quickly. ‘Hm? Do we just go around killing innocent wolves just in case they’re the Alpha?’ My father returned with the phone book in his arms. ‘They’re not innocent, Rose. They’re monsters.’ 162 ‘And what am I?’ I demanded. My parents looked at each other wearily. ‘You’re … different,’ said my father. ‘You’re special.’ ‘You don’t go hurting people every full moon like these beasts,’ my mother said, opening the phonebook and flipping to ‘S’. ‘Yeah, only because you restrain me,’ I said. ‘I’m no different.’ They ignored me whilst they searched for the name ‘Stone’ in the white pages. I watched with bated breath, waiting for their discovery. What would they do if they found where he lived? Would they visit him? ‘Stan, Stein, Stu – wait … there’s no Stone.’ ‘Let me see,’ my father demanded, pulling the phone book towards himself. He double-checked, but was disappointed. ‘He’s not listed,’ I said. ‘Well, that doesn’t matter. You know where he lives, don’t you? We can go there right now.’ I laughed, even though there was nothing funny about this situation. ‘Oh, please. What are you going to do when you get there?’ I asked. It seemed they didn’t know the answer to this question. ‘But Rose … you know another … thing,’ she said, avoiding using the ‘W’ word. ‘Aren’t you curious as to whether it was him who turned you?’ ‘No,’ I scowled. ‘But … didn’t you once say that you’d do anything to be cured?’ asked my father. ‘Not murder,’ I said, disbelievingly. ‘Besides, what if it wasn’t him? How can you be sure?’ My parents stared at each other, and I knew exactly what they were thinking; they were going to find out. 163 ‘Great,’ I said, clapping my hands together. ‘When you figure it out, let me know. In the meantime, I’m running late for school.’ The ‘wet dog’ smell was always strongest after a full moon. I even had some girls at school howl or bark at me. I was able to ignore it. Despite the drama with my parents, I was happy. So happy, in fact, that I could handle Sadie’s narcissist ramblings about which boy obviously fancied her. ‘I’ll be going to a party this weekend, so I expect him to be there,’ she said. Sadie was talking about an older man by the name of Douglas, who went to college. Apparently they’d met ‘online’, and had arranged a meeting at a mutual friend’s house party. I didn’t bother telling her how dangerous that might be. She wouldn’t listen to me anyway. ‘Are you going, Rose?’ Sadie asked me. ‘Me? No. Why would I go?’ I asked, absent minded. Mr. Stone had just walked across the schoolyard. I followed him with my eyes until he was out of sight. Sadie shrugged. ‘Oh, maybe you weren’t invited. Whoops.’ I didn’t care about some stupid party that Sadie was going to; she’d only mentioned it to make me jealous. No doubt Estelle and Spider would be attending too. They always crashed the best parties. ‘So, Rose, are you feeling any better?’ asked Maria. I nodded, snapping my attention back to the group of girls. ‘Oh, yeah. I’m fine.’ ‘Please,’ Sadie rolled her eyes. ‘Everyone knows you weren’t sick. Aaron Ford saw you at the park on Helena Way yesterday.’ ‘What? No … he must be mistaken,’ I said quickly. 164 Sadie crossed her arms. ‘He lives right across the road from the park, Rose. He saw you get picked up by that pink haired stoner freak from the café.’ I licked my lips nervously, searching for an excuse. ‘Oh my god, Rose. Were you buying weed?’ Maria gasped. ‘No!’ I said quickly. ‘No, I don’t smoke.’ ‘Can I borrow some for the party tomorrow night?’ Sadie asked eagerly. ‘I don’t … I’ve never-’ Thankfully, I was spared answering their questions as another teacher walked by at that moment. Sadie, Maria and I acted inconspicuous as she passed. When she had, my phone began to vibrate in my bag. I quickly dug it out of the front pocket and saw I had one new text message. It was from Mr. Stone, but of course, my phone labeled him as ‘S’. Can I see you tomorrow? I grinned at my phone, which did not go unnoticed. ‘Who is ‘S’?’ Sadie asked, leaning over my shoulder and reading the text message. ‘No one,’ I said quickly, snapping my phone shut. ‘Oooh, Rose has a boyfriend,’ Sadie teased. Maria raised her eyebrows at me. ‘Do you, Rose?’ ‘No,’ I lied. Why was everyone so damn nosey? Sadie gasped. ‘That’s who you were skipping school to see! A boy!’ ‘I was not,’ I said, feigning indifference. ‘Whose name begins with ‘S’?’ Sadie asked Maria, pursing her lips thoughtfully. ‘There’s Scott Thomas in the grade below,’ suggested Maria. Sadie waved a hand. ‘No, no. He’s dating Elise Bran.’ 165 ‘Samuel Pike?’ said Maria ‘Ugh! That guy with a face like a pizza?’ Sadie pretended to gag. ‘It’s no one from school,’ I said through gritted teeth. Sadie’s eyes widened. ‘An older man, perhaps?’ ‘You’ve got it all wrong,’ I said. ‘It’s just a – a – family friend.’ ‘Then why don’t you have their full name in your phone?’ asked Sadie. ‘What does it matter?’ I asked. ‘It matters because you’re finally acting like a human being,’ she said, bouncing up and down on her seat. I rolled my eyes and crossed my arms. Sadie was lucky I was too damn happy about seeing Mr. Stone to give a rat’s ass what she said. Suddenly, Sadie gasped dramatically. ‘What?’ I said, my eyes wide. ‘I know who it is!’ she said, brandishing her finger at me. ‘Who?’ I demanded. ‘It’s that guy! The one at the party!’ For a moment I feared she was talking about Mr. Stone, but then I realized who she meant was in fact … ‘Spider!’ Sadie clapped her hands over her mouth. ‘Spider?’ Maria repeated. ‘Who is that?’ I almost laughed, but figured it might be best to play it cool. ‘Spider is friends with that pink haired girl who picked Rose up from the park,’ said Sadie. She seemed to think she was piecing it all together. She couldn’t be more wrong. ‘You went to see him, didn’t you?’ I frowned. ‘Uh, yeah. You got me.’ 166 ‘So, Rose likes the bad boys, huh?’ Sadie teased, shoving me slightly. ‘I should have known.’ ‘I’m sorry, but who is this guy?’ asked Maria, clearly out of the loop. ‘He’s this older guy with tattoos, and long black hair.’ ‘Kind of like a goth?’ asked Maria. The very thought of Spider made me shudder; appearances aside, the fact that he was a complete scumbag was enough to put me off. However, if it took attention away from my real interest, then I’d go along with it for Mr. Stone’s sake. ‘Good for you, Rose,’ said Sadie, like I’d achieved some great feat. The way she patted my shoulder was extremely patronizing. ‘So have you two done it yet?’ ‘Done what?’ ‘Oh, Rose.’ She threw her head back and laughed. ‘Have you had sex with him yet?’ ‘What? No! Of course not!’ ‘Why not? Aren’t you ready?’ ‘Sadie, leave her alone,’ said Maria. ‘I’m just curious,’ said Sadie, shrugging. ‘Besides, you don’t expect a twenty-five year old man to stick around if he’s not getting any, do you?’ As soon as I finished school I sent Mr. Stone a reply, accepting his invitation. We arranged for him to pick me up a block away from my house, so my parents wouldn’t spot him. I wasn’t going to bother asking my parents for permission, but I would need an excuse if I ended up staying the night, (if Mr. Stone would let me). 167 Chapter Seventeen Saturday – 27 days to go ‘See you later,’ I waved to my mother and father as I opened the front door. ‘Where are you going?’ my father demanded. ‘Shopping,’ I lied. ‘I need some new shoes after my last ones were destroyed on the full moon.’ ‘Oh. Do you … erm, need money?’ That was my father’s way of showing his guilt; offering to buy me something. ‘No,’ I said. ‘I have some money.’ He ignored me and fished around in his back pocket for his wallet before handing me a crisp fifty-dollar note. ‘Dad, I don’t need-’ I began, trying to hand back the money. ‘No, it’s fine. You buy yourself some new shoes.’ I felt guilty for deceiving him, but took the money anyway. I might as well try to get a little more pity out of him while I was at it. ‘I’m, um, going shopping with a girl from school,’ I lied. ‘She asked if I could sleep over tonight-’ ‘A sleep over?’ my father repeated, his eyebrows raised. Shit. He knew I was lying. I was never invited to sleepovers. ‘Yeah … is that okay?’ ‘Yeah … sure. You won’t be drinking or anything, will you?’ ‘No, of course not,’ I said quickly. I couldn’t believe my luck. 168 ‘Oh, all right then. Have fun, dear. Keep your phone on in case we need to reach you.’ ‘Right … thanks Dad,’ I said, giving him a slight wave before leaving. Well, it seemed as though I had to go and buy some shoes today. I waited for Mr. Stone to pick me up from the allocated location, at the prearranged time. Checking the time on my phone, I found that he was five minutes late. No big deal; he’d probably be here soon. Ten minutes late. Maybe he has a flat tire. Fifteen minutes. Maybe his car broke down. Twenty. Maybe he fell asleep. I’d better call him. The phone rang out and went to voicemail. I didn’t bother leaving him a message. Annoyed, I wondered what I should do. Go shoe shopping. Obviously. Inspired by Mr. Stone’s fashion sense, I went shoe shopping at the thrift store where I was able to buy some school shoes, worn Doc Martens, and strappy sandals, with plenty of cash to spare. I went a little crazy, also buying a skirt, and shirt. I even had five dollars change to give to my father. Shopping took only an hour, and I hadn’t heard anything from Mr. Stone. Feeling anxious, I decided to walk to his house, hoping he’d be home. By the time I arrived on his street, I was exhausted from carrying the shoes and clothes I’d bought. My annoyance at Mr. Stone increased when I saw that his car was parked in the driveway. Huffing, I stormed towards his front door and banged loudly on it. I could hear shuffling and scraping inside, and the door was answered a minute later. Mr. Stone’s eye peered through a tiny gap. 169 ‘Where were you?’ I demanded. ‘I had to walk all the way here, and it’s freezing outside.’ ‘Shit.’ Mr. Stone opened the door completely and I gasped. ‘What happened to you?’ I asked, my mouth wide. Mr. Stone had a large purple bruise over his left eye, and a thin horizontal cut along the bridge of his nose. ‘Rose,’ he said with a weary smile. ‘I’m glad you’re here.’ Mr. Stone stood back to allow me entrance into his home. Stepping over the threshold, I kept my eyes on him. ‘Who did this?’ I demanded, as he closed the door behind me. ‘Come into the sitting room,’ he said, placing his hand on the small of my back. I allowed myself to be steered inside, where he sat me down on the sofa. I put my bags down and watched him fuss. ‘Would you like a cup of tea?’ he asked. ‘No, I’m fine,’ I said. ‘Are you hungry? I have cookies, and-’ ‘Tell me what happened to your face,’ I said. I knew he was putting it off. Mr. Stone sighed and perched himself on the edge of the sofa. ‘It’s nothing. It’s not important.’ ‘I tried calling you,’ I said. ‘Why didn’t you answer?’ Mr. Stone pointed to the coffee table, where his cell phone sat. I could see instantly why he hadn’t answered; the phone was smashed to pieces. ‘Who did this?’ I demanded again. Mr. Stone smiled warmly. ‘Just some kids.’ ‘Kids? Like kids at school?’ ‘No. Like that long haired guy called Spider.’ ‘What?’ I was outraged. ‘When?’ 170 ‘Last night,’ he said. ‘They jumped me as I got out of my car.’ ‘I don’t believe it,’ I said, jumping to my feet, rage coursing through my veins. ‘I’ll kill him!’ Mr. Stone laughed, and sat me back down on the sofa. ‘It’s all right, really. I probably deserved it. I did punch him first.’ ‘Yeah, but … he deserved it!’ Chuckling, Mr. Stone slid into the space next to me and wrapped an arm around my shoulders. I felt myself instantly calmed. ‘You worry too much,’ he said, pressing his lips to my forehead. I looked up at the big purple bruise. ‘It looks painful,’ I said. ‘Have you put ice on it?’ ‘No,’ he waved a hand. ‘It’ll be fine.’ I jumped up from the sofa. ‘Stay there,’ I ordered him. I hurried into the kitchen where I rummaged through his freezer. He didn’t have any ice cubes already frozen, so I grabbed a bag of frozen corn and wrapped it in a tea towel. Walking back into the sitting room, I sat on the opposite end of the sofa. ‘Here,’ I said. ‘Lay your head in my lap.’ Mr. Stone did as I told him and rested against my thigh. Once he was comfortable I gently placed the bag of frozen corn over his eyes. He hissed in pain. ‘Sorry,’ I muttered, stroking his hair. He smiled, watching me with his good eye. ‘It’s nice,’ he said. ‘Sorry I didn’t pick you up.’ I felt guilty for my assumption that Mr. Stone had forgotten me. He was in no state to drive with his swollen eye. ‘It’s fine,’ I said. ‘I can’t believe he did that to you. Did you fight back?’ 171 ‘No.’ ‘Why not? You had no problem punching him the other week.’ Mr. Stone gave a slight shrug. ‘Only because he was coming onto you.’ I chuckled. ‘How very gallant of you. I bet you could have beaten him in a fight, though.’ ‘I’m not a violent person, Rose,’ he said. ‘I suppose I deserved it,’ he sighed. ‘You did not,’ I scolded him. ‘You’re a hundred times better than Spider. Ugh. Did I mention that Sadie and Maria think I’m dating him?’ Mr. Stone frowned. ‘Why do they think that?’ ‘Because of that text you sent me yesterday.’ Mr. Stone’s eyes widened as if he had just witnessed something terrifying. He sat up, the frozen food falling from his face. ‘They saw the text?’ ‘Yeah, but don’t worry. I’ve got your number listed as ‘S’. So they didn’t know who it was. I told them it was Spider.’ Relaxing, Mr. Stone laid back down on my lap where I resumed stroking his hair. He pressed the frozen corn on his face and closed both eyes. ‘I’m glad you’re here,’ he smiled. I could see his eyes darting behind his eyelids. ‘I’m glad you invited me over,’ I replied, running my fingers down the side of his unshaven face. His cheek was extremely prickly. ‘I couldn’t bear it,’ he opened his good eye and found mine, ‘seeing you at school, but not being able to … well, you’re here now. That’s all that matters.’ ‘You missed me?’ I asked teasingly. Mr. Stone smirked but did not answer. Instead, he pulled the frozen corn from his face and sat up, turning to me. 172 He leaned in and kissed me tenderly, cupping my face in his hand. I was taken aback by his sudden display of affection, but I didn’t mind. I kissed him back, wrapping my arms around his neck and exhaling through my nose. He pressed his mouth firmly against mine, as if trying to express all the feelings he couldn’t, or didn’t want to say. I felt his affection in the way his lips lingered on mine. When he pulled away, we were both grinning. Even with the black eye he was still handsome. ‘I can’t believe you’re here,’ he said, running his fingertips along my cheek, studying the curves of my face. I couldn’t breathe; I was far too overwhelmed with happiness. ‘I love you,’ I blurted. Mr. Stone stared at me; even his bruised eye widened. In an attempt to distract him from what I’d said, I kissed him with renewed ferocity. Mr. Stone allowed it; perhaps he too wanted a distraction. I couldn’t deny the feelings any longer. They’d built up inside me until they reached bursting point, and in that single moment of overwhelming emotion, I’d accidentally blurted it out. But all was forgiven as we kissed with a new kind of passion, as if the admittance had forced our relationship to the next level. It might have scared the hell out of him; but Mr. Stone kissed me more passionately than he’d ever done. Mr. Stone laid me upon the sofa, covering my body with his. He slipped one hand beneath my head, lacing his fingers through my hair, placing his free hand on my stomach. 173 We were frantic; Mr. Stone pushed up my shirt to reveal my bra, while my fingers dug into his back. I quickly pulled my shirt over my head and threw it across the room so I was wearing only my bra and jeans. Mr. Stone looked upon my body approvingly, before lowering his mouth to my breast and kissing the top of it. He was driving me mad. Next he kissed my neck, dragging his fingers along my bare arms until he met the waistband of my jeans. I helped him, fumbling with the button on my jeans, letting him drag them away from my body. Soon, I was wearing nothing but my bra and panties. Mr. Stone’s hands caressed the soft skin of my stomach, before reaching around my body and unclasping my bra with ease. I pulled it away and threw it to the floor too. He marveled at my breasts for a moment before laying me back down upon the sofa. I took deep breaths as he whispered sweet nothings into my ear and trembled with excitement as his fingertips moved lower, tracing my inner thigh, and then moving to graze the waiting warmth between them. He traced along the fabric of my underwear, before moving down the inside of my other thigh. My body tensed with anticipation, my nails pressing into his arm as his hand slipped inside my panties. His teeth grazed my neck and earlobe, making me shudder. Gently, he pressed two fingers inside me, kissing my neck at the same time. I cried out and gripped Mr. Stone’s shoulders. ‘Christ, Rose. You’re so tight,’ he groaned against my neck. He massaged his fingers in and out of my wet desire, his palm rubbing against my clit as he did so. 174 ‘Tom.’ I breathed his name, which seemed to make him shudder with delight. Reaching a hand between our bodies, I searched for the bulge in his pants, which I knew would be there. I wanted to touch him too. It was huge, and pressing against his trousers as if begging for release. I rubbed my palm up and down the lump until I found his zipper. I lowered it and slipped my hand inside, feeling his boxers. He growled in my ear and pressed his fingers deeper inside my womanhood. I gasped, enjoying the pain and pleasure of it all. ‘You make it so hard to stay rational,’ Mr. Stone breathed into my mouth as he kissed me again. I slid my fingers beyond the waistband of his boxers, pulling Mr. Stone’s throbbing erection free from his jeans. It stood thick, and straight, like a rigid pole. ‘Oh, Rose,’ he crooned, pressing his member between my thighs so I could feel its warmth against me. ‘I want you so desperately.’ ‘I’m yours,’ I told him, arching my neck. ‘You can have me.’ I could feel Mr. Stone’s manhood pressing against the cotton of my underwear, probing at my entrance. He sighed sadly, resting his forehead to mine. ‘I can’t,’ he whispered. I cupped his face in my hand, my eyes searching for his. ‘Why not?’ I asked. He bit down on his bottom lip. ‘I can’t take it from you … not yet. Not so soon.’ He was talking about my virginity. ‘But I want to,’ I said encouragingly. ‘I want you to be my first.’ ‘I don’t want to hurt you,’ he said. 175 ‘It’ll be okay,’ I promised. ‘It would be so easy to take you,’ he murmured against my ear. The sound of his voice sent chills through my body. ‘All I’d have to do is push your panties to the side, and with one quick motion you’d be broken.’ My breath hitched in my chest. The way he said it was frightening, yet thrilling. ‘Not broken,’ I breathed. ‘Complete.’ A smile curved Mr. Stone’s lips, and he kissed me again. This is it, I thought. Ding, dong. The doorbell rang. 176 Chapter Eighteen ‘Shit!’ Mr. Stone jumped up from the sofa, leaving me feeling rather bewildered. ‘Who is that?’ I said, rather panicked. Being found mostly naked on my teacher’s lounge was not an ideal situation. ‘Shit, fuck, shit,’ Mr. Stone quickly stuffed his manhood back inside his pants, before throwing my clothes at me. I caught them, utterly stunned. ‘Don’t answer it,’ I said. ‘They might peek in through the curtains,’ he said, panicked. ‘Go to the bedroom. Quick!’ Mr. Stone ushered me from the room, the clothes bundled in my arms. ‘Don’t come out until I say, okay?’ he said, closing his bedroom door so I was left alone and naked. Furious, I dressed in silence as Mr. Stone answered the door. The voices were muffled, but it certainly sounded like a woman. Once I was clothed I pressed my ear to the bedroom door and tried to listen but the voices were indistinguishable. It seemed Mr. Stone was able to get rid of the visitor rather quickly, because he returned to the bedroom within a couple of minutes. ‘Who was it?’ I asked at once. ‘Um, no one. Wrong house.’ He was lying, I could tell, but I decided to let it slide. If he didn’t want to tell me who it was then what right did I have to pry? ‘All right,’ I said, crossing my arms. Mr. Stone reached for me, wrapping his arms around my shoulders in a tight embrace. ‘Sorry I panicked, sweetheart.’ 177 ‘It’s okay,’ I mumbled against his chest, my arms still crossed. ‘I understand, I guess.’ Mr. Stone held me at an arms length and studied my face. ‘You’re mad at me.’ ‘No,’ I lied, and he gave me that look that quite clearly said; I can read you like a book, Rose Goldman. I sighed and caved. ‘You didn’t need to throw me into your room naked, like I’m a filthy secret.’ ‘Rose, you know the risk we’re taking, just with you being here-’ ‘I know,’ I said, frustrated. I didn’t know how to explain my feelings, and it angered me. ‘It’s just … ugh!’ ‘I’d love to show you to the world,’ Mr. Stone said, tucking a piece of hair behind my ear. ‘You know that.’ His words made me feel like jelly. Funny, how all my anger could ebb away with a simple sentence. Mr. Stone lowered his head and captured my lips with his mouth, before pulling away. ‘Now … where were we?’ His hands slid from my shoulders to my waist. I sighed. ‘I think the moment is gone, to be honest.’ The dismissal into his bedroom still stung. He chuckled. ‘Maybe you’re right. How can I cheer you up, my love?’ I smiled and looked at my feet. ‘I like it when you say that.’ ‘Say what? My love?’ I nodded sheepishly and Mr. Stone kissed my nose. ‘You’re adorable.’ 178 We spent the rest of the day watching old movies on VCR (the only kind of movies he had). Apparently he’d bought them all at the thrift store, and was yet to own a DVD player. His entire movie collection consisted of films from the eighties and nineties. ‘Films of his youth’ was how he described it. It began to rain around mid-day so we curled up under a blanket with cups of tea. It was nice, listening to the rain and snuggling against my English teacher. He wrapped his arm around my shoulders, and I rested against his chest, listening to his steady breathing, and the pounding of his heart. I was completely content. 179 Friday – 7 days to go One of the perks of dating a teacher was the extra help. Mr. Stone tried his hardest not to assist me whilst we spent time together, but he found it damn near impossible. I was cheeky about it too, sighing and becoming frustrated until he caved and helped me. English was by far my best subject. I was soon averaging A’s because I’d received so much counseling from Mr. Stone. Not that he always gave me all the answers. I’d read my latest essay to Mr. Stone and he’d make suggestions for improvement. I couldn’t believe I’d had a secret boyfriend for three weeks now. Every single evening (excluding Monday’s and Wednesdays at the café) I spent at his house, laughing, joking, doing homework, and kissing. We hadn’t had sex yet; Mr. Stone never brought up the subject. We kissed. A lot. His hands wandered everywhere. My hands wandered everywhere too, but we’d never ‘done the deed’. After all, it had only been three weeks since he’d officially labeled himself as my boyfriend. Part of me thought that Mr. Stone didn’t want to have sex with me because he saw it as condemning himself. Sometimes I saw the hesitation in his eyes when we kissed, or became intimate. I could see that his body wanted me terribly badly, but his mind was conflicted about it. He was in a constant battle with himself over what was right and wrong. 180 We were meant to be together; anyone could see that. Not only were we compatible on a personal, sexual and intellectual level, but we also shared our affliction with one another, and that was something no one else would understand about us. I told him numerous times that it was okay, that our attraction to one another was natural – animal instinct. He had no reason to feel guilty, or like he was doing something bad. He would often agree, but I’d see that darkness in his eyes. I did worry that he might break off the relationship at any moment. Would the pressure of a secret relationship with a seventeen-year-old girl be too much for my beloved English teacher? Sometimes I thought so. But as soon as we were together at the end of the school day, he was frantic to hold me and kiss me. I knew he loved me, even if he didn’t say it. I wasn’t sure why exactly, but I was greatly anticipating the next full moon - perhaps because it would be my first transformation with Tom. We’d talked about it, and decided to try it alongside one another. Of course, he’d never experienced the transformation with anyone else either. I hadn’t told my parents. They would freak out. I did not want to be restrained anymore. I wanted to run free with my mate. It was all arranged; I packed a change of clothes into Mr. Stone’s car for the occasion. I was excited. It felt like I was going on a secret holiday with him. Mr. Stone seemed pleased too. He talked about going into the forest with me a few hours earlier so we could have a picnic. ‘A real date,’ as he put it. ‘As we can’t go to a restaurant.’ 181 He told me that eating a big meal before a transformation greatly reduced the risk of harming any wildlife – or people. 182 Friday – 0 days to go It was almost time; three hours until sundown. Mr. Stone and I walked hand-in-hand through the forest, leaving his car on the side of the road. He carried a basket full of food for us to eat, and a picnic blanket he’d picked up at the thrift-store. He never bought anything new, because the probability of it being destroyed during an episode was very high. This is why he didn’t have nice things. Somehow, the sickness was lessened by his presence. It was as though being close to him was the antidote to the pain. I could feel the change coming, but I was calmer now. I had accepted it, and that made all the difference. I was clumsy, tripping over branches, and hidden roots in the ground. It was cold, but I had a blanket wrapped around my shoulders. After we’d walked for an hour, Mr. Stone found a clearing and laid a picnic blanket down. We sat together as he began to pull out food, and drinks for us. ‘Usually I can’t eat when I am so close to a transformation,’ I told him. ‘But with you, I think I can.’ He smiled and squeezed me hand. ‘Are you sure you want to do this? There’s always the possibility of being separated. There’s no way we can guarantee staying together once we have transformed.’ ‘I’m sure,’ I told him. 183 Part of me was curious to watch Mr. Stone’s transformation. I wondered if he was indeed the wolf that had attacked me when I was a little girl. I’d never be able to forget the beast that maimed me as a child; its jet-black fur, those yellow eyes, and that putrid breath. I’d know at once if it were him. And what if it was him? Would it upset me? My mother’s words crossed through my mind. ‘The curse can be reversed if the monster that turned you is killed.’ Nonsense, I thought. I could never lose Mr. Stone, even if he was the one who turned me. Besides, it wasn’t his fault; he couldn’t control it. ‘Hungry?’ he asked, handing me a plastic plate. ‘Famished,’ I replied. Mr. Stone had brought an excellent selection; pasta salad, bread rolls, a roasted chicken, a thermos of coffee, coleslaw, chips, and chocolate. I didn’t know how we were going to finish it all, and I feared it would come back up within the hour. Mr. Stone and I lay upon the picnic blanket and stared at the canopy above, wrapped in each other’s arms. He checked his watch. ‘One hour to go,’ he told me. ‘Are you okay?’ ‘Never better,’ I whispered, nuzzling against his neck. He smiled and tilted my head up to kiss me softly. Arousal instantly spread through my body at the touch of his lips. My skin prickled, and I could feel the heat spreading. I couldn’t be sure if it was because of the impending full moon, or my affection for the man. Perhaps the two combined were an intoxicating mixture. I smiled against his lips. 184 ‘I want you,’ I breathed, lacing my fingers through his hair. His scent was dizzying, and I felt high. He chuckled. ‘Here? Now?’ I nodded fervently. ‘I think that’s the hormones talking,’ he whispered, kissing me again. ‘I don’t care,’ I said. Mr. Stone growled and rolled on top of me. ‘It’s hard to control myself … so close.’ I felt it too; the animalistic instinct that was taking over my body. The usual pain, and suffering of the full moon had been replaced by arousal and lust. ‘We’re going to have to get naked anyway,’ I smirked, ‘before the transformation.’ His lips brushed my throat lightly, sending arousal rocketing through my body. I gripped the leg of Mr. Stone’s pants, my knuckles turning white. ‘Be careful what you wish for, my love,’ he said, biting my throat gently. Mr. Stone pressed his whole body to mine, burying his face into the curve of my neck. I felt his chest heave and the simultaneous brush of his eyelashes, soft and delicate. It was erotic torture. I held him tightly, raising one hand to the back of his head to stroke his hair. Mr. Stone pulled away from my neck, a dark purple bruise forming on my nape. His eyes darted between mine as things unspoken were shared between us. Mr. Stone lowered his lips and, finally, secured them around mine. Our mouths opened and we shared breaths before our tongues met. He gripped my hips, curving his palms over the points of my pelvic bone and pulling me closer. The touch of his mouth and hands derailed most of my words. I stuttered when I tried to speak. 185 ‘I want – I need-’ Before I could finish Mr. Stone's mouth closed over mine, jolting me with a raw, urgent kiss. He sucked on my top lip, his tongue sliding across it before darting into my mouth again. As I met his kiss, arousal spread through my body and between my legs. As he pulled back from my mouth to breathe, his arms wrapped around my waist to hug me to him. My arms tightened around his shoulders, clutching at him, a warm thrill rushing through me with the realization that he wanted me - needed me. Not even the setting sun would stop us. My fingers closed around a fistful of his hair, and I arched my neck and pulled his head low. I held him there until his lips, his tongue, pressed against my skin. After a minute, Mr. Stone pulled away, flushed and breathless. ‘Rose,’ he breathed. The sound of my name on his lips was bliss. ‘Maybe we should stop.’ I began to undo the buttons of my blouse, ignoring what he had said. ‘I could hurt you,’ he whispered. ‘I don’t know my own strength … at this time.’ ‘No one is here to interrupt us, Tom,’ I said. ‘Oh, God,’ he groaned, leaning into me and burying his face in my neck once more, kissing my pulse-point. My heart skipped as his fingers curled around the hem of my blouse. ‘You have no idea,’ I breathed, ‘how much … how long-‘ 186 ‘I’ve wanted you since the day I saw you,’ Mr. Stone confessed, helping me unbutton my blouse. I wriggled free of it, throwing it away. It landed on a tree’s branch and hung there. He looked at me in my bra and jeans, wild lust in his eyes. I saw a flicker of the animal behind them. Frantically, Mr. Stone planted fast, hot kisses over my stomach, before dipping his tongue between my breasts. I wrapped my arms around him, bringing his mouth to mine once more. My hips pushed against him, and I felt the warmth of his erection through his trousers. My hands slid down his back and clutched his bottom, pulling him flush against me. I had my legs wrapped around his thighs so our bodies could be as close as possible. Mr. Stone groaned softly, his mouth opening against my cheekbone, just beside my ear. He pushed my hair away from my face, and breathing quickly he whispered, ‘I need you.’ Pleasure flared in my belly as his erection pressed against my crotch. I couldn’t remove my jeans fast enough. He helped me, until I was wearing only my underwear and bra. We lay upon a blanket in the forest, nature surrounding us as the sun began to set. I curled one leg around his hip, pulling his body closer. Mr. Stone’s warm hand traveled down my thigh, until found my panties, which were soaking wet with arousal. I felt him smile against my mouth; pleased with the effect he had over me. He pulled back the elastic of my underwear, sliding his large hand inside. He was warm against my skin, and butterflies erupted in my stomach. 187 ‘Yes,’ I whispered, my hands curling into fists, as his middle finger slid between my folds and touched me, lightly and slowly. I shut my eyes, and my voice trembled when I started to speak. ‘Tom.’ Mr. Stone dropped a kiss into the curve of my neck as he slipped his finger inside me. I moaned softly, as his hips surged forward and his erection rubbed against me. I couldn’t take it anymore. I’d go mad if he didn’t hurry. I felt the throbbing of his erection against my thigh. I reached down, searching for the button to his pants. I found it, and unfastened it. Mr. Stone shuddered, exhaling with a quiet groan. His eyes flickered and I thought I saw a hint of yellow in his iris. I felt his briefs, and it didn’t take long for me to free his erection through the fabric. It was magnificent. Larger than ever before, as though the full moon had engorged him. I saw it throb with desire, a drop of liquid on the tip. He was ready to burst. We were splitting at the seams, mad with desire. My breath stalled as he pressed the tip of his manhood gently against my underwear. He removed his finger from me, making way. I knew this was the time. Neither could resist. The moon was too strong. I reached down and shimmied out of my panties with Mr. Stone’s help. He removed his shirt, and pushed his pants and briefs down. We were naked; natural, like the other animals in the wild. I wanted him here and now. 188 Anticipation swelled in my chest as Mr. Stone positioned himself between my thighs, his rigid manhood pointing straight for my desire. My eyes focused on his face as his hips pressed forward, the bulbous tip slipping between my folds. Heat surged off his skin like a solar flare, and I pushed against him, wanting more. His hand closed around my hip, and the head of his cock burned against me. I noticed Mr. Stone's expression was tender, before he pulled my body towards him and slid an inch inside. Tears stung my eyes as he pushed against me, forcing through the barrier. I cried out in pain as I broke. He was completely inside me; I was his. I watched as a wave of pleasure washed over Mr. Stone's face. I must be tight. His eyes closed as his mouth opened as his head fell back, exposing the long line of his throat. He uttered a long, stuttering groan. We were one, and only a sliver of the sun was visible on the horizon. The pain peaked, and ebbed, leaving my eyes wet, and my chest heaving. Mr. Stone looked down at me. His eyes were yellow, and I knew mine would be the same. It was happening, and I wasn’t afraid. Perhaps the beginning of the transformation was the reason the pain didn’t last long. Regardless, adrenalin coursed through my veins, and suddenly, I was frantic. Mr. Stone leaned forward, wrapping his arms around my body. He held me so tightly that I wondered if he feared an escape. He pushed deeply into me. I could feel everything. 189 Mr. Stone drew shallow, quiet breaths. My fingertips slid against his face, following the lines of his eyebrows and his lips. I wanted to feel his warmth, the texture of his skin, and the fine hair on the nape of his neck. I watched our bodies moving together; the sight of the two of us, made my heart feel enormous in my chest. I was taken with love for him, and a breath blustered out of me so strongly that I realized I had forgotten to breathe. ‘Rose,’ he groaned, taking my mouth in a deep kiss. ‘Tom,’ the word came out in a growl. This seemed to spur him on. I felt surrounded by him, aware of the press of his body. He dropped kiss after kiss, pushing hard. I shut my eyes, lifting my hips to meet his thrusts, a flush of heat spreading from my cheeks to my breasts. The burn between my legs compressed, and I stuttered his name between moans. He urged me on between fast, heavy breaths, dropping his voice and growling in my ear, his voice slowly becoming inhuman. ‘That's it.’ A kiss landed on the side of my neck. ‘Come on, sweetheart, that's it.’ We were covered in glistening sweat, our bodies entwined, our breathing feverish. We raced to finish before the change took us completely. I could feel it beginning. ‘Rose,’ he shuddered, his head tipping back, his yellow eyes closing tightly. ‘Oh.’ He cried out and soon the moans were no longer human. 190 I heard the echo of his howl as I came, the hot pressure between my legs flooding outward. Bright, tingling sparks fired into my belly, down my legs. My knees locked, and my muscles tightened. I felt my hands shaking, as I tightened like a vice around him. Mr. Stone followed me quickly as the sun vanished behind the hills. It was time. I focused on his face as he came inside me, groping for his hand. We began to change at the same time. I frantically interlaced our fingers, my breath hitching when he squeezed my hand. I could feel his bone’s changing. ‘I love you,’ he murmured, his weight crushing my chest. My affection for Mr. Stone surged, and I was able to hang onto my humanity for that split second longer to witness his change. I watched as his ribs popped and cracked under the pressure of the transformation. Light brown hair began to sprout over his body, my own much darker. I knew at once that he was not the wolf that had changed me. His howl pierced the night, sending flocks of birds fleeing into the sky. 191 Chapter Nineteen Saturday – 29 days to go I groaned and rolled over, searching for my pillow. My fingers met only leaves. I curled into the fetal position and wondered where my blanket was; I was freezing. The memory of the previous night came flooding back, and I couldn’t help but grin in my sleepy state. I was happy. I had made love to the man of my dreams, and he had told me those three magic words. I love you. He loved me. Me. Excitement erupted in my stomach from the memory. I opened my eyes and was greeted by the bleary winter sun, which shone weakly through the canopy. I stretched luxuriously, my hands seeking Mr. Stone. ‘I feel amazing,’ I murmured, arching my back and hearing it crack and pop. He didn’t reply. Perhaps he was still asleep. I sat up and looked around for him. Only forest. I turned a full three-sixty degree to see where he was. I was alone. ‘Tom?’ I called, sending birds flying into the sky from fright. I listened carefully for any sound, but all I could hear was nature; birds chirping, the whistles of wind through the trees, and a frog somewhere. 192 I shivered. I was deathly cold, and my fingertips looked quite blue. I hadn’t anticipated on waking up alone. At least this time I was not covered in as much dirt and grime. It hadn’t rained for a few days, so there was less mud around. I needed to warm myself up until Mr. Stone returned, so I got up and tried jogging on the spot, but stopped quickly as it felt absurd while nude. I needed clothes otherwise I would freeze. Mr. Stone had told me how to find the car in the event that we were separated, but I hadn’t paid much attention. I walked in the general direction I thought was correct, hoping I’d reach the car within an hour. Any longer and my toes would fall off. I turned around, thinking maybe I should head back; but I didn’t know which way back was. Shit. ‘Tom?’ I called again, winding my way through the trees. ‘TOM!’ I tripped over a protruding tree root and fell to my knees, grazing them on a cluster of rocks. I broke my fall with the heel of my hands, which I also got cut up on the debris. ‘Shit,’ I muttered, getting back to my feet. ‘Hello?’ I heard a male voice calling through the trees. ‘Tom?’ I called, hurrying forwards, ignoring my bleeding knees. It wasn’t Mr. Stone at all; it was a male camper who looked to be in his mid-twenties. He appeared amidst the trees, his eyes wide. ‘Fucking hell,’ he blurted upon seeing me. ‘Shit. Are you okay?’ 193 I immediately jumped behind a tree, hiding from sight. ‘Jessica!’ the unknown male shouted over his shoulder. ‘Quick! Come here! Brink a blanket!’ I heard footsteps, and crunching leaves. ‘What’s the matter?’ asked a female voice. ‘There’s a girl over there. She’s hurt, and naked.’ ‘Naked? Are you serious?’ ‘It’s all right!’ he called to me. ‘We’ve got something for you to cover yourself with.’ I poked my head out and saw a chubby red head girl carrying a blanket. ‘Oh my god!’ she breathed. ‘You poor dear, you must be freezing!’ I nodded fervently. ‘It’s all right,’ she said, approaching me as if I might bite. ‘We won’t hurt you.’ I wasn’t worried about that; I was just embarrassed about being found completely nude in the forest. This couple must be camping, though I’d thought that Mr. Stone had taken us clear of any camping sites. The red head girl handed me the blanket, shielding her eyes from my nakedness. I wrapped it around myself and stepped out from behind the tree. ‘What’s your name?’ she asked at once. ‘R-Rose,’ I shivered. ‘I’m Jessica,’ said the red head. ‘And this is my husband, Peter.’ ‘Hi … thanks for the blanket,’ I said, clutching it tightly. ‘Come with us, you poor dear. We’ll warm you up.’ I followed Jessica and Peter to their campsite, which was only a few yards away. They had a small threeman tent set up in a clearing, and a burnt out campfire in the middle. 194 ‘Here, dear. Sit inside the tent and I’ll make you a cup of tea. You’re probably chilled to the bone.’ ‘I’ll get it all dirty,’ I said, looking down at my feet. ‘Don’t mind that,’ she waved a hand before ushering me into the tent. It was nice and cozy inside. I curled up in a corner with the blanket wrapped around myself. But how would Mr. Stone find me in here? I could hear the couple talking in urgent whispers outside. What did they think had happened to me? They probably thought I’d been attacked. A minute later, and Jessica ducked into the tent carrying a cup of tea in a plastic picnic mug. ‘Thank you,’ I said, taking it. My fingers were almost blue. She began to rummage for a first-aid pack amidst her bag of clothes. ‘I think I’ve got some saline wipes here – ah! There we go.’ She pulled out a pack of wipes. ‘I’m dreadfully clumsy, so I take a first aid kit with me whenever we go camping. You know, it keeps the marriage alive to have a bit of adventure. I must admit though, we’ve never run into anything like this before. And I could tell you some stories. Bears, and wolves, and what not.’ I smiled politely and reached out a hand to take the wipes, but she shook her head. ‘Give me your legs so I can clean you up,’ she said. I stared at her. ‘What? You don’t need to-’ ‘Don’t be silly,’ she said at once, grabbing my ankle and stretching my leg out. Jessica began to wipe the blood and dirt from my grazed knees. I’d never met anyone so kind in my life – apart from Mr. Stone. At that moment, Peter ducked into the tent, a tender expression on his face. ‘Are you all right?’ he asked me. 195 ‘Yes, I think so,’ I said, clutching the hot mug like it was precious gold. ‘Rose, is it?’ he asked, crouching and watching me as if I might shatter like glass. I nodded. ‘Thanks for the blanket … and the tea … and cleaning my knees.’ ‘She’s in shock,’ Jessica said to her husband. ‘No, I’m fine, really,’ I said. ‘I’m just glad we found you,’ said Peter. ‘Can you tell me who did this to you?’ ‘Erm … no, no one did this to me.’ The couple looked at each other darkly. ‘What’s the last thing you remember, dear?’ My stomach writhed with excitement at my last memory; the sight of Mr. Stone above me, his eyes yellow, and his form changing – of course, I couldn’t tell anyone about that. ‘I – I don’t know,’ I lied. ‘Try to remember, Rose. Were you with anyone?’ What was I supposed to tell them? The truth would make me sound crazy. ‘I came to the forest last night,’ I said slowly. ‘Alone. I, um … got lost and passed out.’ I could see from the look in their eyes that they didn’t believe me. Who would? What seventeen-yearold girl goes wandering into a dangerous forest, naked no less, at temperatures like this? ‘Alone?’ Jessica repeated. ‘You don’t remember being with anyone?’ Perhaps feigning amnesia would get me out of lying. ‘I don’t remember.’ It was partially true; I could never remember the time I spent under the transformation. 196 I suddenly realized how close Jessica and Peter had come to meeting a werewolf last night. I’d only been passed out half a mile from their campsite. ‘How old are you, Rose?’ asked Peter. ‘Seventeen,’ I said. ‘Why were you naked?’ ‘I don’t remember,’ I said again. ‘Look, um … I really appreciate what you’ve done, but can you tell me which way the highway is?’ ‘Give us a minute, would you sweetheart?’ Jessica said to Peter, who dipped out of the tent at her request. ‘Rose, you need to try and remember what happened to you. We think – well … you need to consider the possibility that you were attacked.’ ‘Attacked? No, I’m fine. These grazes are from when I fell over.’ ‘And the bruises on your body?’ Jessica asked, pointing. ‘Huh?’ I looked to where Jessica pointed. Dark purple rings were around my wrists, where Mr. Stone had clutched me. Jessica also pointed to my neck, where I knew many love-bites would be. ‘Rose, we think you’ve been sexually assaulted,’ said Jessica carefully. ‘We need to take you to the hospital and call the police.’ I laughed. ‘No, no. It’s nothing like that. I haven’t been abused.’ ‘You’re covered in cuts, bruises, blood and dirt, and you have no recollection of the previous night-’ I needed to think of a lie, and quick. ‘No … look, I didn’t want to say anything, but I, um, I was really intoxicated last night. I wandered away from a party and got lost in the woods. That’s all.’ Would the drunk teenager story work? 197 ‘Look, Peter has already radioed the Ranger and given him our co-ordinates. They’ll be here in a few minutes to help you. We’re not that far from the highway.’ ‘What?’ I said. ‘No! I just need you to show me which way the road is, and I’ll be fine.’ Two hours later and I was sitting on a bed at Halfway Hospital, dressed in nothing but a gown. They wouldn’t let me wash, or get dressed until they had performed numerous tests on me, which I refused to let them do. The Ranger had brought me here against my will, and the police had called my parents, who brought some fresh clothes for me. Apparently my mother and father had called the police the night before when they realized I wouldn’t be home for the ‘episode’. Of course, they didn’t tell the officers what I was, they only hoped I’d be found before nightfall. My parents wanted to take me home at once, but the hospital staff were under the impression that I’d been abused, due to the bruises around my wrists, and neck. They didn’t need to know the marks had been caused during the passion I shared with my thirty-two year old teacher, who, by the way, I hadn’t heard from all morning. The nurses asked me a lot of questions, and took some of my blood and saliva for testing. I stuck to my story of being alone and lost in the woods, parroting the phrase ‘I don’t remember’ whenever awkward questions came up. My parents were anxious too, but did not decline to have these swabs and tests taken, for fear the hospital staff would question their parenting skills. After all, what parent would kick up a fuss about it? 198 They knew what had happened to me – well, most of it, anyway. They knew why I was in the forest, and covered in dirt. What they didn’t understand, however, were where the bruises had come from. ‘We can see numerous bruises on her wrists, and mouth-marks on her neck,’ the doctor explained to my parents. ‘Mouth-marks?’ my mother repeated, caught off guard. ‘Yes, caused by the sucking of the skin. A love-bite.’ My father shot me a look and I avoided his eye contact. Who else could I have been with, other than this mysterious werewolf I’d told them about? ‘We would like to perform some internal examination, but your daughter is adamant that we don’t perform the examination. Perhaps you can convince her that it is for the best.’ ‘Internal examination?’ my father asked, his eyes wide. ‘To check for damage, or perhaps the D.N.A of the attacker.’ ‘I wasn’t attacked,’ I said loudly. ‘How many times do I have to tell you?’ ‘Be quiet, Rose,’ my mother snapped. ‘Please, Mrs. Goldman, your daughter has gone through a great ordeal. It is possible she is blocking out the memory of last night’s occurrence.’ ‘I’m not blocking anything,’ I said through gritted teeth. ‘I was drunk, and I wandered into the forest and took my clothes off. I passed out, and woke up. I got grazed and bruised after I fell over.’ ‘Doctor, may we have a moment alone with Rose?’ my mother asked sweetly. 199 ‘Of course,’ he replied, smiling kindly. ‘I’ll just be outside. Yell if you need me.’ They waited until the ward’s door had been closed. ‘What the hell is going on, Rose?’ my father shot at once. ‘Nothing,’ I said, panicked. ‘I wanted to be free last night, so I … I went to the woods.’ ‘You were with him, weren’t you?’ my mother asked. ‘That – that monster.’ ‘It’s not like that,’ I said, with wide eyes. ‘Mom. I know he isn’t the monster – I mean, the man who turned me.’ ‘How do you know that?’ she asked. ‘I saw him transform.’ I looked between them pleadingly. ‘He looks completely different to the creature that hurt me. His fur is a mousey brown – not black. And he is far smaller in size compared-’ They looked between each other skeptically. ‘Rose, the doctors and nurses here seem to think you’ve been drugged and raped. Your story won’t hold up long. The blood test will show that there is no alcohol in your system. We have to let them do the internal examination to keep up appearances. If we decline, they’ll think we’re trying to hide something. They may even call child protective services if they think that we’ve mistreated you.’ My skin prickled with fear. ‘They can’t,’ I said. ‘They can’t do the test.’ ‘Why not?’ My heart thundered. What was I meant to say? Because the test will show that I have had sexual intercourse within the last sixteen hours? They’d be sure to find Mr. Stone’s D.N.A. My mother’s face became pale. ‘You’ve had sex with him, haven’t you?’ 200 I didn’t say anything. ‘You have.’ My mother’s nostrils flared. My father cursed and sat down in a chair. ‘It was the first time last night,’ I said, my eyes pleading. ‘Please, you can’t let them do the test.’ ‘Why not? You must let them know you had consensual sex. It was consensual, right?’ ‘Yes, of course it was. But … but-’ But he is thirty-two years old and will go to jail if anyone finds out. I couldn’t tell them that. As far as they knew, Mr. Stone was just some guy who could drive. If they found out that he was twice my age, and a teacher, no less … I wasn’t sure what to say. Outside, I could see the Doctor talking with a nurse through the glass pane in the door. They looked over and caught me staring. Re-entering the room, a manila folder in his hand, the doctor approached my parents. ‘Well, we just got the result of Rose’s blood test back. The good news is she doesn’t seem to have contracted any sexually transmitted diseases. However, there was no trace of alcohol in her blood stream.’ ‘See? I’m fine. Nothing has happened to me. I want to go home.’ ‘You don’t want to do the internal examination?’ the doctor asked, glancing at my parents. ‘No,’ I said firmly. At that moment there was a knock on the door. I could see two police officers standing there. The doctor excused himself and went outside to greet them. ‘What are they doing back here?’ I said angrily. ‘I already told everyone I’m fine.’ 201 ‘They’re only here because we called them last night,’ said my mother. ‘They just want to make sure everything is okay.’ ‘You shouldn’t have called them,’ I said through gritted teeth. The doctor re-entered the ward accompanied by the two police officers. ‘I haven’t got anything else to tell you,’ I said at once. ‘I want to go home.’ ‘Miss Goldman,’ one of the officers approached me with a black plastic bag in his hand. ‘My name is Officer Renstrom. Are these yours?’ He turned the bag upside down and a pile of clothes fell onto the bed. I picked through them. ‘Yeah, they’re mine,’ I said. ‘So?’ ‘We found these clothes in a vehicle by the highway. Along with this.’ He held out my cell phone. I snatched it from his hand. ‘That’s mine!’ ‘The vehicle was a nineteen-ninety red Ford Escort. Does that sound familiar to you?’ I stopped breathing. They’d found Mr. Stone’s car on the side of the road, with my things inside it. But where was Mr. Stone? Why hadn’t he gotten back to his car yet? Was he in trouble? Hurt? Lost? If they’d found his car, then they obviously knew who the car belonged to from the registration number. ‘Look, I haven’t done anything wrong, and no one has hurt me. I’m back with my parents now. So everything is fine, right?’ ‘Ma’am, we’d like to ask you a few questions, if that’s all right with you,’ said officer Renstrom. ‘Am I under arrest?’ I asked, crossing my arms. ‘No, of course not.’ ‘Then no, I don’t want to talk to you.’ 202 ‘We need to talk to you about a man called Thomas Stone.’ I froze. What was I supposed to say? That he was my teacher, and that was it? How would I explain my clothes in his car when I’d been found naked in the woods? I could feel myself becoming irrelevant in the police’s investigation; now they were looking at Mr. Stone because they suspected him to be a sex-offender. This wouldn’t have happened if my parent’s hadn’t called the police. I tried to play it cool. ‘What about him?’ I asked. ‘He’s a teacher at your school, isn’t he?’ So they knew. My mother gave a little gasp and I shot her a look. ‘Yeah, Mr. Stone,’ I said, flicking my hair out over my shoulder. ‘Can you explain what your things were doing in his vehicle?’ I shrugged, nonchalant. ‘Maybe he found them lying around somewhere. I was naked, you know?’ ‘You think he stumbled upon your things whilst walking in the woods?’ Officer Renstrom raised an eyebrow. ‘Or in the street, or whatever. I told you … I was at a party. I could have left my clothes anywhere.’ There. That sounded believable. Right? ‘And why was the car abandoned by the forest?’ the Officer pressed. I shrugged. ‘Maybe he’s looking for the owner of the clothes?’ ‘I thought you said you could have dropped them anywhere?’ 203 I sighed, exasperatedly. ‘Look. Mr. Stone is a good teacher, and has never laid a hand on me, okay? Is that what you wanted to know? If he abused me? Look, I say I’m fine, so that should be the end of it. It’s not a crime to park your car by the forest, is it? You’ve got no case if no one was hurt.’ ‘Actually,’ said the second officer, speaking for the first time. ‘When we tried to contact Mr. Stone we couldn’t get hold of him. Upon further investigation we discovered that Thomas Stone has a history of violence and aggravated assault. He was arrested in twothousand-and-nine for the attack of a co-worker-’ ‘No.’ I shook my head. ‘He’d never.’ ‘Miss Goldman … if there is anything you wish to tell us, now would be a good time.’ ‘No, there’s nothing,’ I said, my jaw set tight. ‘It’s all right to talk to us. None of this is your fault.’ ‘Nothing happened to me,’ I said through gritted teeth. The police officer nodded, looking rather disappointed. What had he expected me to say? ‘Thank you for your time, Ma’am.’ The officers bowed their heads and turned to leave. ‘Wait!’ my mother said, standing quickly. ‘He had sex with her!’ ‘Mom!’ I cried. ‘I beg your pardon Ma’am?’ The officers turned back to us. ‘He did! She told me. I didn’t know how old he was – that he was her teacher. She told me that he was with her last night.’ ‘Is this true?’ Officer Renstrom asked me. ‘No!’ I said at once. ‘It’s lies!’ 204 Chapter Twenty Friday – 16 days to go My life is a living hell. It’s been two weeks since they arrested Mr. Stone. It’s been one week since the judge slammed the hammer, sentencing him to a minimum of eight years and three months in prison for sexual abuse of a minor. It didn’t matter that I had consented. I watched him on the news, a coat covering his face as he was bowed into a police vehicle. Meanwhile, my identity in the whole ordeal was kept a secret, and wild rumors began to spread throughout the school about Mr. Stone abusing multiple students in his classroom. It was all lies, of course. Even Sadie would tell anyone who would listen about how Mr. Stone had asked her to wear no panties to class. What a load of horse-shit. But no one would listen to me. I was invisible. Counselors told me that it wasn’t my fault that an older man had hoodwinked me. I told them I hadn’t been tricked, that they’d gotten it all wrong. How could I explain our mutual attraction without sounding like an absolute lunatic? I’d just have to mention the ‘W’ word and I’d be sent to the loony bin. I was forbidden from seeing Mr. Stone – that was, until my eighteenth birthday which was two days away. My poor love. 205 I hadn’t spoken to him at all since that night we’d shared together. I had been so happy that morning, but everything had fallen to pieces. I wasn’t talking to my mother, who was adamant that she had done the right thing, no matter how many times I screamed at her that I loved him. My love was in prison, amongst brutes, and rapists and murderers. He did not belong there and it was completely my fault. We should have waited until I was eighteen. Why had I pushed him so? I hadn’t made it easy for him to refuse. Was Mr. Stone mad at me? Did he hate me for what I’d done to him? I’d ruined his life. The guilt was too much to bear. Some days were worse than others. I considered ending it all numerous times, just to make things easier for myself. Selfish, I know. I’d be moving to the city with my mother two days after the next full moon. It had all been arranged, and I’d even begun to pack my things in preparation. I was spiraling into misery, but at least I could look forward to a prison visit in two days time. Though I dreaded what Mr. Stone would say to me. That evening my mother knocked on my bedroom door and let herself in without invitation. I was lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I was empty. ‘Rose, dear?’ she said timidly, closing the door behind herself. I ignored her. ‘I wanted to talk to you.’ I said nothing. 206 ‘I know how lonely you are these days, and it got me thinking that you need to talk to someone who has been through the things you’ve experienced.’ I couldn’t help but scoff. No one had been through the shit I had. My mother continued as though I had not made the derisive sound. ‘I’ve been doing a lot of research lately. Well … I think I’ve found something that might interest you. It wasn’t easy to find – I had to go through a lot of scary websites to find it, and filter out all the liars, and crazy people … but I think you’ll find it useful. I had to email a lot of people and convince them that I was serious. Well, anyway … you’ll see for yourself.’ My mother placed a folded A4 sheet of paper on my bedside table before turning around and leaving the room. I didn’t move for several minutes. I had no interest in what she wanted to show me. ‘God damn it.’ Curiosity got the better of me, and I reached over for the piece of paper and unfolded it. It was my mother’s handwriting. Silver Moon Forest, Alaska Alpha: Colt Pack Population: 32 Call to schedule initiation. Scrawled underneath was a phone number. What the hell was this? Some kind of support group for Werewolves? No, it looked like a community. A pack of thirty-two werewolves living together in Alaska? I didn’t even know such things existed. 207 How had my mother found this information, and how could she be sure that it wasn’t a group of nutcase twilight fans? I scrunched up the paper and stuffed it into the pocket of my hoodie. 208 Sunday – 14 days to go ‘Happy birthday, sweetheart,’ said my mother as she handed me a small, wrapped present. I didn’t say anything as I took it from her. Unwrapping it, I found it to be a new phone. Useless. Who would I text or call now that Mr. Stone had gone? ‘Its got a five megapixel camera, and a touch screen,’ my mother said, beaming. ‘Thanks,’ I said dully, pushing it aside. She said no more on the matter. Next, my father gave me his present. It was slightly smaller. I pulled the wrappings, but was confused when all I found was a key. ‘What’s this?’ I asked, picking it up. ‘A car key,’ my father said. ‘To your new vehicle.’ ‘My new-’ I gaped at him. ‘You’re not serious, are you?’ He nodded, his expression solemn. ‘I know there is somewhere you want to visit today. Now you have a way to get there … without sneaking around.’ I stared at my father. ‘R-really?’ I stammered. He nodded again. ‘Thank you,’ I breathed, jumping to my feet and embracing him tightly. ‘Thank you.’ ‘Are you sure it’s wise-’ my mother began, but my father quickly silenced her. ‘Rose is eighteen. She can do as she pleases.’ He was right. I was free … to an extent. While Mr. Stone was behind bars I’d never be free - not fully. 209 ‘Where is it?’ I asked at once. ‘Where’s the car?’ ‘It’s parked out the front,’ said my father. I grabbed my bag and flew across the room to wrench the front door open. ‘You’re going now?’ my mother asked. ‘Absolutely,’ I said to her, before stepping out of the door. ‘Drive carefully!’ my parents bellowed in unison. I couldn’t believe it; my father had bought me a car for this very purpose. I burst onto the lawn and froze when I saw the vehicle. It was a beaten up Ford Escort with peeling red paint. Tears welled in my eyes, but I choked them back. ‘They were auctioning it,’ my father said, hanging out of the sitting room window. ‘I thought you’d like that one.’ I nodded fervently, tears slipping down my cheeks. It was the only thing of Mr. Stone’s that I owned. Wiping away the tears, I turned back to my father and smiled. ‘Thanks Dad.’ He nodded and closed the window. While my father didn’t understand my relationship with Mr. Stone, he knew I was not a typical teenager. My instincts were good; and all signs pointed to Mr. Stone. My father could see that. He didn’t like the fact that his baby girl was in love with her thirty-two year old teacher … but we can’t always choose who we love. If we could, well, things would be a lot easier. Perhaps then my parents would not be getting a divorce. I ran to Mr. Stone’s car and unlocked the driver’s side. It made that familiar creaking noise as I slipped into the driver’s seat. At once, I was assaulted with that familiar smell. Sweet, yet spicy, like cinnamon. It was his smell. 210 The very scent was enough to bring tears to my eyes. Taking deep breaths, I calmed myself and put the key into the ignition. As usual, the car rolled over a couple of times before roaring to life. It had been a few months since my last driving lesson, but the knowledge was still there. I pushed in the clutch and shifted the car into first gear. It was stiff and required force. Crunch. Good. I let down the handbrake before I balanced the clutch and gently pressed the gas. It stalled. ‘Shit.’ I tried again, and this time I successfully pulled away from the curb. It was a two-hour drive to the jail, and I’d never been there before. I’d called up several days ago to find out the visiting hours, so I knew I’d arrive at the perfect time. They’d also told me I needed to fill out a visitation form, which I could download online, and send to them. They said something about inmates having to approve all visitation requests. Mine had been accepted, so I could only assume that Mr. Stone had allowed it. I was a bundle of nerves. I expected him to yell at me, say hurtful things, and generally despise me. I wouldn’t blame him. I despised myself. Pulling into the parking lot of the jail, I thought I might be sick. ‘Just do it,’ I told myself over and over again. ‘Go in there.’ Taking a deep breath, I exited the car, locked it, and walked towards the front office. 211 It was an unpleasant process. There was a dress code for visitors, which meant I had to zip my hoodie right up, as the singlet I wore underneath showed some cleavage. They checked my identification to ensure I was not a minor, and I was asked to sign a visitor’s log. Not only that, but I was searched. A guard patted me down, looking for anything suspicious. Once I was given the all clear, I was taken into the visitor’s room. It wasn’t as I’d expected. In movies, they always had the pane of glass with two telephones, but it was nothing like that. The visitation room was a hall with many round tables and plastic chairs. The guard showed me to a table at the back of the room, before taking a position nearby to observe his surroundings. We’d be under watchful eyes at all times. Many couples and families were already here, talking, laughing and hugging. I’d feared the visitation room would be a violent affair, but it really wasn’t that bad at all. Perhaps these other people were just like Mr. Stone; misunderstood. I only had to wait a couple of minutes for Mr. Stone to enter the visitation hall, accompanied by a guard. He looked different. Perhaps it was the absence of his quirky attire, but he certainly looked beat. He wore the jail’s mandatory grey uniform, and it made him look washed out. Mr. Stone’s eyes scanned the room until he found me. They lit up. I let out a breath I hadn’t realized I’d been holding. He was pleased to see me. He hurried over to the table I was sitting at, and I stood to greet him. 212 ‘Rose,’ he breathed, stopping a few yards away from me. ‘What – what are you doing here?’ Well, I hadn’t expected him to hug and kiss me, that’s for sure. ‘It’s my birthday,’ I told him. ‘I’m eighteen.’ He smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes like it usually did. ‘Happy birthday,’ he said. ‘Thank you.’ We stood there awkwardly for a few moments, Mr. Stone’s arms swinging loosely by his side like he always did when he was nervous. ‘Can I … can I hug you?’ I asked tentatively. Mr. Stone’s eyebrows shot up. He was surprised. ‘Really?’ ‘Of course.’ Did he not realize my feelings for him were the same? ‘Yes! Absolutely.’ We both moved forwards and I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly as his hands slid around my waist. He hugged me so fiercely that my feet left the ground. I grinned from ear to ear, my eyes watering once more. He wasn’t mad. ‘Oh, Tom,’ I said, pulling away from him and wiping my eyes furiously. ‘I missed you so much.’ He lifted a hand and wiped the tears from my eyes. ‘Oh, Rose. I thought I’d never see you again.’ I sniffed, the back of my throat burning. ‘I feel – I feel so guilty - all the time,’ I began to cry harder now. The last few weeks came gushing forth as pure emotion. ‘Oh, sweetheart,’ he crooned, taking me by the elbow and directing me towards the table where we sat down side-by-side. Mr. Stone wrapped his arms around me and I sobbed into his uniform. 213 ‘My love, I hope you haven’t been blaming yourself.’ ‘I have,’ I said, trying to control the tears, but it was no use. I’d bottled it up for too many weeks. ‘It’s not your fault. It’s my fault this happened.’ I shook my head vigorously and looked up at him with bleary eyes. He sounded just like those counselors that had tried to convince me that Mr. Stone was an abusive manipulator. ‘You don’t regret it, do you?’ I asked. He smiled sadly. ‘Loving you? No.’ My heart hammered. How tragic, I thought. How cruel life is. ‘I swear I didn’t tell them,’ I said, the words spilling from my mouth. All the things I’d been dying to tell him spewed from my mouth. ‘It was my mother, Tom. She told the police that we – that we – we-’ ‘I know,’ he whispered, stroking my hair. ‘I know.’ ‘This wouldn’t have happened if I hadn’t run into those campers-’ I continued. ‘In the forest, I was – hic – naked, and I couldn’t find you – hic – so I tried to find the car. B-but they found me and called the Ranger. Everyone thought I’d b-been abused. I told them oover and over that I hadn’t-’ He stroked my hair and whispered soothing words as I gushed, hiccupping and sobbing. Once I’d cried myself dry, I looked up into those green eyes, seeking forgiveness. ‘You’re not mad at me, are you?’ ‘I could never be mad at you,’ he replied. ‘Wh-what happened that day … in the forest? Where were you?’ Mr. Stone sighed and bowed his head. ‘I will admit something to you, Rose, and you may get upset.’ ‘What is it?’ I said, my eyes never leaving him. 214 ‘I awoke before you that morning. We were curled around each other, and you were still fast asleep. The memory of the previous night came flooding back, and I was happy for the first time in years. I felt complete.’ I didn’t understand why he thought this would upset me. He continued. ‘Then I remembered the transformation. That split second before I lost consciousness … I saw you transforming, Rose.’ ‘I saw you too,’ I said. ‘You were beautiful.’ He smiled another sad smile. ‘You too, my love. But I realized something then.’ ‘What?’ ‘Seeing your alternate form, I knew at once … that you were the one - the one who changed me.’ I wasn’t sure I’d heard him correctly. ‘What?’ He sighed. ‘Your eyes, the colour of your fur – everything. It was the same as the creature that attacked me six years ago.’ Six years ago. All this time I’d been under the assumption that Mr. Stone had been a werewolf longer than I, because of his age. But it was the other way around. I had been this way for nine years – him, only six. ‘But I … my parents … they always restrain me-’ I paused, the realization dawning upon me. The one time they hadn’t been there – I was twelve. Six years ago. ‘I knew as soon as I saw you transform, Rose. You were the one that changed me.’ ‘I … I didn’t know,’ I said, my eyes wide. ‘I swear it-’ ‘I know,’ he said, bowing his head. ‘I suppose I should have known. I realize now how small the creature was that attacked me that night – far smaller than my alternate form. A child werewolf.’ 215 ‘Is that why you left me there in the forest?’ I asked, dreading the answer. He sighed. ‘For six years I’ve imagined myself coming face to face with the … the thing that changed me. I’ve pictured every scenario in my head, and they all end the same.’ ‘Killing me?’ I asked without hesitation. ‘I fantasized about tracking down the person who did this to me, and putting a bullet through their brain. How was I to know it was you, Rose?’ ‘I’m sorry, Tom,’ I said, my throat tight. ‘I’m sorry I did that to you.’ ‘You know the stories, Rose, I’m sure? That the curse can be reversed if the alpha is killed?’ I stared at Mr. Stone. Did he believe it like my mother? ‘I’ve heard it,’ I said, my breath stuttering. ‘I don’t believe it though.’ ‘I’ve always vowed for revenge, and hoped, on the off-chance, that the rumors might be true - that I might be freed if the one who attacked me was killed. I’ve lived the last six years hanging onto that hope, Rose – that I would come face to face with my attacker.’ ‘You don’t mean-’ I couldn’t bring myself to say it. Had he really wanted to kill me whilst I slept peacefully on the forest floor? He chuckled lightly. ‘Realizing it was you, Rose … I was forced to … re-evaluate my life. The only reason I was able to accept my affliction was because I was so certain there would be a way to reverse it. It was only a matter of time before I met my attacker.’ ‘And you met me,’ I said, rather hoarse. 216 ‘I went for a walk while you slept. I needed to think … it was so much to take in. But then I remembered how amazing that night had been – with you. I was whole. I’d never been so happy in my entire life, even before the attack. I decided there and then that we were meant to be – that I had been attacked by you so I would later be drawn toward you.’ A smiled played his lips. ‘Really?’ I asked, my own smile returning. ‘Of course. How could I ever wish harm upon you? You’re my girl, Rose. My Alpha girl. No wonder I’ve had such a hard time going against you.’ ‘What do you mean?’ ‘Haven’t you noticed? I was barely aware of it myself, but it’s damn near impossible for me to say no to you. All of those times you told me to kiss you, or touch you … I obeyed.’ I leaned against Mr. Stone’s chest and breathed deeply. I could feel my wounded heart slowly beginning to heal at his words. I looked up at him. ‘But why didn’t you come back for me?’ ‘I was gone maybe fifteen minutes, and when I returned you weren’t there. I called your name, but you didn’t reply, so I went looking for you.’ ‘You were looking for me?’ He nodded. ‘I followed your scent, but I was too late.’ ‘If I’d only stayed put.’ I was furious with myself. ‘What’s done is done,’ he said, kissing my forehead. ‘Aren’t you … aren’t you mad about being here?’ I asked him. ‘Of course, it isn’t ideal. But I’ll wait a hundred years to be with you.’ ‘Oh, Tom.’ My throat felt tight. 217 ‘Will you wait for me, Rose? I know eight years is a long time, but-’ ‘Of course!’ I said a little too loud. ‘Of – of course.’ Mr. Stone smiled sadly. ‘There is a problem, however.’ ‘A problem?’ I repeated. ‘I fear I won’t make it another two weeks.’ ‘What? Why?’ ‘Rose, the full moon is drawing near.’ I nodded. ‘I know.’ ‘I fear that … that I may try to escape during my transformation. It is highly likely that the guards will shoot to kill.’ I gasped audibly, before clapping my hands over my mouth. ‘You don’t mean-’ ‘Rose, the probability of my death is … overwhelming to say the least. Perhaps it is for the best. I may hurt many people while confined here. I never did well in cages, you know that.’ ‘No,’ I choked. ‘M-Maybe we can talk to the warden – have you put in solitary, or – or-’ ‘And tell them what, Rose? That every full moon I change into a crazed monster? No one in their right mind would believe me.’ ‘What else can you do to be put in solitary?’ I asked desperately. Mr. Stone chuckled, though the smile didn’t reach his eyes. ‘Well I can always throw my own feces at the guards, or perhaps stab someone with a fragment of metal.’ I closed my eyes and tried to block out the mental images. Tears slid down my cheeks. What would the guards do when they came face to face with a fullyfledged werewolf? Naturally, they’d shoot on sight. 218 ‘Rose,’ Mr. Stone wiped the tears from my eyes. ‘Please don’t be sad.’ ‘How can I not be? What if something happens to you? I’ll never forgive myself.’ ‘It’s not your fault,’ he whispered, pressing his forehead against mind. ‘None of this is your fault.’ ‘But it is,’ I said thickly. ‘It’s my fault you’re a – a werewolf, and it’s my fault you’re in here.’ ‘And I wouldn’t change a thing, my love.’ ‘Why?’ ‘Because then I wouldn’t have met you, and we wouldn’t have shared that amazing night together.’ I nodded, tears now streaming down my face. How could I live with the guilt if he were to die here? ‘Five minutes,’ the guard barked at us from the corner. ‘Oh no,’ I cried, gripping Mr. Stone frantically. ‘Is there anything I can do?’ He looked at me sadly, before cupping my face and kissing my lips softly. ‘Live,’ he said. ‘How can I, without you? My mother is taking me to live in the city with her. That’s no place for a werewolf.’ The corner of Mr. Stone’s mouth hitched in a slight smile. ‘You called yourself a werewolf,’ he said. ‘Yes. Ever since that night … I’ve been okay with it.’ ‘I’m glad,’ he said. ‘I’d give anything to be with you, Rose. I want it more than my next breath.’ I sniffed back fresh tears. ‘Please don’t die,’ I whispered. ‘I’ll try,’ he promised. ‘Just remember that I love you.’ ‘I love you too.’ 219 Chapter Twenty-One Sunday – 0 days to go I was terrified. What if they shot him? What if he died? I wouldn’t be able to live with myself, knowing that it was my fault. All of these thoughts, and more ran through my head the day of the transformation. My mother and I were moving to the city in two days, and all of my belongings had already been packed into the car. ‘Are you ready, sweetheart?’ my mother asked. ‘Yes.’ She took my wrists and slipped the restraints over them so I couldn’t move. ‘This is so much better than running wild in the forest,’ she said, tightening them until it was painful. I disagreed with her, but said nothing. ‘Two minutes,’ said my father, checking his watch. My mother pushed my sweaty hair from my face and kissed my forehead before leaving the basement with my father. They bolted the door closed behind them. His name left my mouth in a continuous slur of words. ‘Tom, Tom, Tom.’ I stared at the grimy ceiling as the pain took over my body. I writhed against the bed, begging for mercy. ‘Tom, Tom, Tom.’ I didn’t allow him to leave my thoughts. Crack, crack, crack! My bones snapped and I screamed. Everything went black. 220 Monday – 29 days to go Everything ached. My eyes felt as if they were glued shut. I couldn’t swallow; my throat was too dry. I felt hung over from a night of hard drugs and alcohol. I opened my eyes, blinking several times. Everything was a blur, and it took a while for my vision to clear. I sat up, my head spinning. It was clear my mother and father had unshackled me in the early hours of the morning. Deep cuts were around my wrists and ankles from the restraints that had bound me to the bed. Suddenly, the realization of today dawned upon me. ‘Tom.’ I jumped up from the bed and sprinted up the basement steps, wrenching the door open. I quickly found my mother and father in the kitchen, eating breakfast. ‘Have you checked the news?’ I demanded at once. ‘Yes,’ said my father, folding his newspaper and looking at me. ‘There’s nothing.’ ‘Nothing?’ I repeated. ‘It’s only been fifteen hours since the transformation began, Rose.’ Heart pounding, I perched myself upon the kitchen stool. Maybe no news was good news. Isn’t that what everyone always said? That evening I sat in my room, catching up on the homework I’d neglected over the last few weeks. It had piled up, but to be honest, I really didn’t give a shit about it. It all seemed so pointless. 221 Suddenly, I heard my name being called. ‘Rose!’ my mother bellowed at the top of her lungs. ‘ROSE! QUICK!’ I jumped up from my bed and wrenched my door open, sprinting down the hall to find my mother perched in front of the television. ‘He’s on the news!’ she said, turning the volume as high as it would go. Fear gripped me. Mr. Stone’s mug shot was on the television. No. The news reporter was already half way through the piece. ‘-Search for escaped inmate Thomas Stone is underway. Mr. Stone was found guilty of sexual assault in the first degree a month ago by the local court after having sex with a student, and sentenced to eight years in prison. It is unclear how he managed to escape from the prison, and anyone with any information regarding his whereabouts is urged to come forward to police. There have been no reported sightings as of yet.’ I stared at the television, numb. ‘He … he escaped,’ I breathed. ‘Oh my goodness,’ my mother clapped her hands to her mouth. ‘What if he comes here?’ ‘Don’t be stupid,’ said my father. ‘He’s going to do a runner, of course. We’ll never see him again.’ That night, police and detectives came by the house, asking a lot of stupid questions. They seemed to think we might know where Tom had gone. As if I’d tell them anything. 222 I was a mix of emotions. I didn’t know if Mr. Stone was okay, which scared the hell out of me. On the other hand, I was ecstatic that he had escaped. By the time the police left, it was late, and I was emotionally exhausted. I retired to my bedroom at the same time as my parents, dreading tomorrow. Moving day. 223 Tuesday – 28 days to go Tap, tap, tap. I groaned and rolled over, checking the clock on my bedside table. It read two o’clock in the morning. What the hell had woken me up at this hour? Tap, tap, tap. I sat up, listening hard. Someone was throwing rocks at my window. I leapt out of bed, as quiet as a cat, and tiptoed to my window. I pried it open as silent as I could and poked my head out. It was him. He stood there, looking up at my bedroom window, a grin on his face. I’d never been so speechless in my entire life. ‘What are you doing here?’ I hissed down to him. ‘Hello, Rose,’ he said sheepishly. ‘You’re going to get caught,’ I said. His appearance here was utterly illogical. Did he want to be arrested again? ‘That’s why I need to be quick,’ he said. ‘Rose, there’s something I need to say-’ I thought I knew what it was going to be. He’d come to say goodbye. ‘Don’t say it,’ I said. I refused to believe it was the end. ‘Rose, I don’t want you to give up your whole life for me,’ he said. ‘You’ve got so much ahead of you … so much to look forward to-’ 224 ‘No,’ I said, panic rising in my chest. ‘Don’t talk like that.’ ‘You can’t know how you’ll feel about me in the future. You might wake up one morning and roll over to find an old man in bed with you, who can barely put a roof over your head. You deserve so much more than that. I don’t want to be selfish. I mean … you have school, and family.’ Mr. Stone took a deep breath and closed his eyes. This was it. The end. He’d leave and I’d never see him again. I didn’t know what I could say to make him change his mind. ‘But Rose … I am selfish, and that’s why I’m asking you to give up everything for me,’ he said. ‘I can’t promise much, but I promise I’ll love you more than anything in this world.’ I stopped breathing. He wasn’t leaving me. He was asking me to flee with him. ‘You are everything,’ I breathed. ‘Will you run with me?’ he whispered. It seemed the simple act of asking me to do such a thing caused him physical pain. ‘Of course I’ll run with you. We’re a pack.’ It all happened so fast after that. I got dressed, donned a hoodie, grabbed my keys, and jumped out of my bedroom window, with Mr. Stone breaking my fall. Together we got into the car, which was already packed with all of my belongings for the big move to the city with my mother. We drove - just drove until the sun had risen, and we were hundreds of miles away from Halfway – the town where people stopped between visits. 225 ‘How did you escape?’ I asked as the sun crested the hills. ‘I told you,’ he said with a devilish smile. ‘Cages don’t stop me. I always wake up in the forest after the full moon.’ I grinned. ‘Now you’ll be waking up next to me.’ ‘I wouldn’t have it any other way.’ Putting my hands into the pockets of my hoodie, I met a scrunched up piece of paper. I began to unfurl it. ‘What’s that?’ Mr. Stone asked, glancing over. I stared at my mother’s handwriting on the A4 piece of paper. Silver Moon Forest, Alaska Alpha: Colt Pack Population: 32 Call to schedule initiation. ‘Alaska,’ I said, smiling. ‘Huh?’ I handed him the piece of paper, which he read quickly before passing it back to me. ‘What is that place?’ ‘A community … of people like us.’ ‘A pack?’ he asked. I nodded. ‘Well then,’ Mr. Stone smiled at me. ‘Buckle your seatbelt, my love. We’ve got a bit of a drive ahead of us.’ 226 Thank you for reading Alpha Girl (Wolfling #1) Don’t forget to leave a review about your reading experience. To learn about Kate’s upcoming novels, please visit: http://www.bloomfieldkate.com

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